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chapter 39:never fall

Namjoons's POV:

(day after the 2 last chapters) 

i woke up slouching over her hospital bed holding her small soft hand. she was still asleep the doctor said she should be waking up in a while or it might be a couple of days either way she will be okay. i didn't leave her side only to use the restroom i haven't gone back to the dorm once a couple minutes later i hear multiple footsteps coming towards us it was probably just some doctors or something so i didn't bother looking back i hear yoongi say "Yah Namjoon what the hell" as everyone else jogs over to me i said "what?" he said "you just left in the middle of the night and left your phone and a little note" i said "yeah because i got contacted not an of you i needed to take care of it and i told you guys to stay out of it" j hope said "wait who is that" as he gave me my phone suga looks up and his eyes widened he said "how...who...namjoon what happened" jungkook finally realizes who it was an said "Noona?!?" i sighed and said "she will be okay guys" yoongi said "Namjoon ah i just asked you a question what happened?" i slouched back on my chair and said "she got kidnapped the man was stalking her thought she was a good target the men were trading drugs and this time they didn't have enough money to pay for the drugs they were trading and there was no other way to get the money i guess so they took her and asked for a ransom it just so happened that they texted me" i showed them the conversation and said "see" they all looked at each other in surprise then jin said "come on guys they need time alone we will get to see her soon" everyone left i held her hand again and waited for that twitch or her voice or her eyes to flutter god i missed those eyes you know it's kinda funny i thought i thought i would just run into her or see her by coincidence i never thought i would be seeing her again under these circumstances i never wanted to see her hurt i always wanted to keep her safe but i left the first time and she left this time so why am i blaming myself shit i need to get some fresh air i got up and went outside i looked up and remembered when i first laid my eyes on her i thought she was beautiful her hair her eyes her skin her body everything was absolutely beautiful to me i wonder what would have happened if her and i became friends when we were younger would we have still dated or would we just be friends i don't know whatever i couple minuets later a person tapped me on the leg it was a little boy he said "excuse me mister i think someone is looking for you a pretty lady asked me if i have seen a tall man with blond hair" i said "oh okay thank you kiddo i'll go right now" he walked away i ran inside she tried getting up but she standing but she couldn't the nurses laid her back down told her something and then went tend to another patient i jogged over to her bed she sat up fast and pulled me over to her and just hugged me she didn't say anything she just hugged me i hugged her back hesitantly she said "thank god you're okay" i said "hajima.." as i held back my tears she said "i's sorry namjoon i should have never left without you i was never so broken in my life i need you im so sorry for everything if you can't forgive me i understand namjoon don't you ever think i don't love you i am so sorry for leaving i will never say that enough" she started crying i hugged her tighter i said "yah...hajima...it's okay kid..hajima geuman malhae (stop talking) i forgive you all that matters is that you're okay my love and don't forget even when we aren't together in the flesh i'm forever in your heart" i finally just let my tears go i sat down not letting her go she said "namjoon...if you're hurting like i am can't we make things a little easier? if it's not to late can't we get back together?" we were both hurting i stayed quiet she rested her chin on my shoulder and she started to sing if you by bigbang she had a beautiful voice 

 [Romanized:]

Geunyeoga tteonagayo
Naneun amugeosdo hal su eopseoyo
Sarangi tteonagayo
Naneun babocheoreom meonghani seoissneyo

Meoreojineun geu dwismoseupmaneul baraboda
Jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda
Sigani jinamyeon tto mudyeojilkka
Yet saenggagi na
Ni saenggagi na

IF YOU
IF YOU
Ajik neomu neujji anhassdamyeon
Uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka
IF YOU
IF YOU
Neodo nawa gati himdeuldamyeon
Uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka
Isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

Geudaeneun eotteongayo
Jeongmal amureohji anheun geongayo
Ibyeori jinabwayo
Geudael ijeoya hajiman swipjiga anhneyo

Meoreojineun geu dwismoseupmaneul baraboda
Jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda
Nugungal mannamyeon wiroga doelkka
Yet saenggagi na
Ni saenggagi na

IF YOU
IF YOU
Ajik neomu neujji anhassdamyeon
Uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka
IF YOU
IF YOU
Neodo nawa gati himdeuldamyeon
Uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka
Isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

Oneulgati ganyeorin biga naerineun narimyeon
Neoui geurimjaga tteooreugo

Seorap soge mollae neoheodun uriui chueogeul
Dasi kkeonae hollo hoesanghago

Heeojimiran seulpeumui mugereul
Nan wae mollasseulkka

IF YOU
IF YOU
Ajik neomu neujji anhassdamyeon
Uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka
IF YOU
IF YOU
Neodo nawa gati himdeuldamyeon
Uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka
Isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo  

she is leaving

And I can't do anything
Love is leaving
Like a fool, I'm blankly standing here

I'm looking at her, getting farther away
She becomes a small dot and then disappears
Will this go away after time passes?
I remember the old times
I remember you

IF YOU
IF YOU
If it's not too late
Can't we get back together?
IF YOU
IF YOU
If you're struggling like I am
Can't we make things a little easier?
I should've treated you better when I had you

How about you?
Are you really fine?
Our break up is here
I should forget you but it's not easy

I'm looking at her, getting farther away
he's becoming a small dot and then disappearing
Will this go away after time passes?
I remember the old times
I remember you

IF YOU
IF YOU
If it's not too late
Can't we get back together?
IF YOU
IF YOU
If you're struggling like I am
Can't we make things a little easier?
I should've treated you better when I had you

On days where thin rain falls like today
I remember your shadow

Our memories that I secretly put in my drawer
I take them out again and reminisce by myself

Why didn't I know
About the weight of sadness
that comes with breaking up?

IF YOU
IF YOU
If it's not too late
Can't we get back together?
IF YOU
IF YOU
If you're struggling like I am
Can't we make things a little easier?
I should've treated you better when I had you

when we sang together i was hugging her tighter now we let go i was holding her hands i said "Park Eun Won... i love you" 

hey guys i am really sorry i made this so long but the next 2 chapters are the last i promise i love you all thank you so much