what's left?

chapter 26: brothers

Namjoon's pov:

5 months later-1 year later

today.....today was the day i left her today was the day we parted today marks 1 year without park eun won i left her 2012 its 2013 now and so many things have changed i got with a company named "bighit"  we  made debut this year it was amazing we were all so happy but before as they said i was the first one in the group they wanted but as time went by more and more people got into the group there is 7 of us and we are all pretty close friends well more like brothers the company and manager named us "BTS" meaning bangtan sonyondan or bangtan boys or bulletproof boy scouts i've been pretty down lately i guess the guys have noticed they are all taking me out for some food tomorrow they don't know about park eun won i've got some alone time right now which is good we never get free time but i have really become close to all of them and they all depend on me since i am the leader i don't know why i am still up it's 4 a.m i hope park eun won is sleeping right now i hope she wakes up and forgets that today was that day *hears weird noise from downstairs* i got up and went straight to the kitchen  trying not to wake anyone up and there was jungkook with a vacuum and he was sucking up all the fruit flies he got rid of them which is good he put the vacuum back quietly and the turned around he kind of jumped when he saw me he said in a tired voice "oh Anyeong hyung" he smiled a little i said "yah jungkookie boo an ya?" (boo an ya- what are you doing) i laughed quietly so did he he said "there were too many flies i got annoyed by the loud BZZZZZZZ" i laughed again i said "go to bed kid you are always tired" he laughed and went to bed i swear he's like a little boy i went back to my room and fell asleep i was woken up by jin j hope and taehyung in the morning they were saying "kim namjoon kim namjoon kim namjoon" over and over till i got up i sat up and messed up my hair jin asked me "why were you sleeping so late" i said "jungkookie woke me up at 4 cause he was getting rid of the fruit flies" all 3 laughed and said now we have to wake jungkook j hope and taehyung left jin stayed back he said "namjoon are you okay? you've been pretty down lately" jin is the oldest in the group i looked up at him and said "yeah im good just tired" he said "yah kim namjoon you know you can tell me if somethings wrong i just said "im fine i just miss someone and im far away from them they live here in Korea but just far away" he said "oh well if there's something i can do let me know and start getting ready we are all going somewhere today" i said "alright thanks hyung" he walked out i got my phone off the charger and checked if i had any messages from my dad he just said good morning i said it back i looked at my screen saver the same one i have had since i left her i put my phone down got dressed fixed my hair and went out to the living room jin was fixing his hair yoongi  was ready and so was tae but yoongi looked like he was sleeping for 800 years he always sleeps late then j hope came out we were all sitting on the couch waiting for everyone up i leaned back and looked up at the ceiling i closed my eyes for a second and then i heard yoongi say my name i opened my eyes and picked up my head and sat back up i looked up at him and said "yeah?" he asked if i was okay i said yeah then jimin came out he said "yah namjoon your dad called you" he gave me my phone and said "you left it in your room" i said thanks i called my dad back he just wanted to tell me he missed me and to be safe i hung up and jimin was standing right next to me i looked at my screen saver them jimin said "woah namjoon who's that she's very pretty"i looked up at him put my phone in my pocket and said "shes a friend of mine" he said "ahhh namjoon has a girlfriend" in a teasing voice j hope said "ah lemme see" i said "guys stop...shes shes not...well i don't know what we are i left her on this day last year....i left so i could support my dad" i was looking down then i looked up again then the whole group was there i looked around and said "don't worry about it guys...she was just a girl that i loved and i left okay" i stood up and said i'm gonna go outside for a bit okay

jin walked over to me and said "namjoon shi we are always gonna be here got it but really thank you for telling us and hey its okay because you aren't the only one who can't dance" we both laughed

then jungkook said "yah hyung i know i never say this but you are the best leader and i know i can always depend on you you are really cool and we will be here for you whenever" i said "thanks kid that means alot" i managed to smile i looked down again

then i heard someone sniffle i knew it was j hope he is the crybaby of the group that's for sure i looked up and said "hobie stop crying its okay" he said "ah i know i know but it just reminded me of how much i miss my parents you know and namjoon you mean alot to all of us please try not to be so sad about this" i said "thanks crybaby" i laughed so did everyone else

yoongi said "yah kim namjoon" i looked up he said "i know we don't talk much but just know i think you are a very wise person you know i have a lot of worries and you always help me and you once told me that the dawn before the sun rises is always the darkest so i give you the same advice" i said "min yoongi shi thank you"

jimin laughed and messed up hobies hair and said "this guy is still crying" hobie said "jiminie hajima"  (hajima - stop it) then laughed cause he knows he's emotional then jimin said "namjoon hyung you are a really cool person and i care about you alot i know i  can always depend on you are are a great leader and person we all really love you and hate to see you sad"

taehyung skipped over to me cause he's like a little kid and hugged me he said "kim namjoonieeeee don't be saaaaaaad we all love you and you are super cool and an awesoooooome leader you are like the brother i never had be happyyyyyyyy" i laughed said said "thanks taehyung" i hugged him back

then i felt more arms wrap around me jimin hugged my from the back then jin hugged me from my side j hope hugged me from my other side them everyone else joined in i hugged all of them and then jimin came to the front i hugged him too they said "be happy namjoon shi we hate to see you down" i smiled and said "ah you guys are the best seriously" they let go jin sat down on the couch with a little mario toy i said "i swear you're like the maknae but you're the oldest he laughed and said "im buying more" we both laughed then i asked if everyone was ready we got in our van and sat in the back our manager drove us to the restaurant he said "namjoon you are really a great leader and rapper and person im happy i got to work with you you are really cool and a smart guy and uh here" i said thank you manager he handed me car keys he said "im giving you all 1 week off you've all worked hard" we all said "ah thank you so much hyung" we stopped at the place got down and ate when we got out everyone got i the van i was about to go in too the manager called me and told me to wait he said "you should go see that girl go check up on her or something i know you miss her so go" i said "she lives all the way in Ilsan" the manager said "then go that's why i gave you the keys to the other car go tomorrow morning" i said "okay i will thank you so much hyung" i got in and jungkook asked what happened i said "nothing he just was asking if i was okay" we drove back to the dorm and got inside the manager said "im going to sleep night guys" we all said goodnight we all sat on the couch and jimin tae and jungkookie were being loud of course then jimin said "hey hey guys lets play the frying pan game" we said okay we all sat in a circle then started that lasted about an hour then we were all pretty tired i said "well i gotta go somewhere in the morning goodnight guys thank you" they all said goodnight i took a shower brushed my teeth and tried to go to sleep but i couldn't i was too nervous