His Bet

Chapter Thirty Four

Days had gone pass and we still do some outdoor activities for the past one week. Its been fun and memorable that made me forget how awful my nights are. Brix has been there every night of my nightmares. Its actually a routine for the two of us now. We will wait for the boys to fall asleep walk down with me in the maid's bed room then after a couple of hours he will wake up because of my scream and he's going calm me down and get me back to sleep and return back upstairs early in the morning. He doesn't even bug me to spill or something like the other time. At first I feel grateful for that but as the nights goes by I feel like he's a bit cold now. Not that he's something but I don't know.. It just doesn't sit right. He just make me calm at least and don't talk after that he just directly go to sleep. Now I feel like he's just obliged and I admit that hurt. Yeah its hurts..

And now we are heading to the maid's room. He grabbed then twist the door knob when I talk to him.

"You don't need to accompany me every night. You can sleep upstairs." I whispered but make sure he'll hear it.

He turned his head to me and look at me impassively. I gaped my mouth because I've never seen this coldness in his green orbs. Well maybe when the first time I saw him but this is much more different. He doesn't say anything but continue entering the room it took me a few seconds before I recollect myself and follow him inside the room. As I stepped inside he suddenly appear in front of me as he pushed the door behind me and lock it. He's still in front me as in really really front that his clothes is meeting mine.

"Get some sleep." He muttered with his voice so low.

That almost make my breathe hitch because I'm sure of his coldness right now. Before he can settle himself on the couch I talk again to him.

"You don't need to feel obliged to accompany me. I'm gonna be fine here." I again convinced. I can't live with this guilt.

He stopped in his track and was silent for a moment.

"If I feel obliged then I won't be staying right here with you every night. I hate obligations." He said his head half facing me. The other part of his face is covered with shadow while the other one shone a dim light.

I open my mouth to say anything but then again closed it. I can't comment on that. I slowly walk to the bed and I guess I can give another shot here. I sat opposite him and clear my throat to make him know I'm going to say something. He look at me waiting for me to start.

"I repeat.. You don't need to feel obliged to be here every night with me. I'm thankful for the two weeks that you help me but I think that's enough because its taking its toll on you. I can't let you be sleepy and tired as I am. You've done enough Brix so I'm giving you this now you can sleep upstairs and you don't need to bother calming me down every night. I'm gonna be fine here." I explained.

"Fine? I don't think you're fine. Its okay not to be fine Ace you can't just be pretending always that you're fine because I know you're not more than what can you imagine. Again, I hate obligations so if I feel obliged then I won't be here in the first place. I want to help you Ace I really do but you can't understand it. You can't see that either, if you think that this thing is already taking its toll on me then you should have spill me or something. You may not believe but I really wanna help you. I know I don't know any single thing about that bad things you're talking about but you can't just bottle everything up. It'll drive you crazy Ace. It'll just eat and consume you until you are no longer yourself. If you think keeping everything to yourself will be the best idea then you are completely wrong. You are a smart woman Ace I know that you know all of this you just keep pulling yourself over the edge. I'm right here Ace or either Red if you don't want me here but you can tell me. I won't be always pushing you to tell me everything but you can trust me on this. I'll listen and I won't judge you if that's what you are worrying about. How will I help you if you don't even help yourself either. I know I've told you this before I'm not scaring you or what but I like you Ace. I like you okay. So you can't just be like that because that did sting."