His Bet

Chapter Forty Four

Brix

"I love you kitty. I really do."

Shit.

Did I just blurt out the L word?

Goddamn fucking Brix.. I just fucking  blurt the L word out of nowhere. What the fuck Brix? Seriously? Since when did you know how to love a girl? You don't even know how to treat a girl right. You were used to bang them until they got crazy on your touch.. You were used just to fuck up every sexy blonde you flirt with.. Is that what you're letting Ace experience?

Yes, I'm that kind of a guy..

But that was before.

I'm sure as fuck that I wasn't like the old Brix anymore.

I wasn't the old Brix anymore..

The one who fuck the whole sexy blonde population..

The one who gets into gang trouble..

The one who drinks and hunt all night..

The one who plays a thousand games..

The one who trade with the not-to-negotiate men..

The one who bargain with dangerous guys..

The one who got affiliated with the Mob..

The one who framed up enemies to get killed..

That's me..

But that was before..

There's something and everything on Ace that made me realize how fuck up my life is. While I do such things.. There was a girl kidnapped, tortured and raped by men. While I had thousand sex with the whole women population there was a girl forced to have sexual intercourse with filthy men.. Filthy men like me.. I'm angry of those men who did this to her and yet I was like them. Same sick and horrible as them.. I don't deserve Ace after all. She was wrong when she told me I was close to perfect. There's a lot she didn't know about me.. I can't even imagine myself telling her how horrible and bad I am. So I understand her if she's not spilling anything from her past. So am I.. She'll probably hate me because I was never different from men who took her.

I'm a big bad wolf..

That's what they used to call me..

Wolf is even and understatement for me. It should be monster.

Big

Bad

Wolf

But I got this chance to change. I know in myself that I am more than willing to drop anything off. I even dropped my brothers in the process for Ace. Yeah, that's a pretty much forward to get change. I may not do that instantly but we will be right there eventually.

I will be change and she will be loved..

Love..

It doesn't even fit for my tongue to say that word. Just like I said a Chinese word that I don't even understand. But now, I know what love is..

Love is when you put her interests first before yours. When you think less of yourself. When you became selfless. When you became kind as never before. When you can sacrifice more than everything. When you're ready to change to become a better person for her. The best as you can.

Because it takes a very important person to make you change..

And that very important person is the girl right in front of me. The girl who stole my heart and she's even oblivious about it.