His Bet

Chapter Thirty Seven

Just what I assume she'll have another nightmare again especially that I've mention about taking her to the doctor. I guess this will be the first time she's going to do something with it. Now that I let the ball rolling I need to stick and seriously deal with this. This is something I've never encounter in my life dealing such a serious problem. Back those days I was just having a problem when one of my girls knew that I have another one in bed aside from her then of course I'll just use my trade and negotiation skills on compromising and lying then it'll all work but now my magic on girls is completely disregarded in this matter.

It gave me a hard time to take Ace back with me I don't know what scares her much. She rant unfamiliar words a while ago I don't know if its Chinese or what but I didn't understand all of it. There are really tough nights that always left me no choice but to touch her. Then I just remember about the rubber band the doctor recommended me. I should have thought that earlier so she wouldn't have jump away from me. I dropped real sweat on this until she calm down and relax a bit. After her moment I finally get her to sleep. I still have a few hours.. I suddenly felt tired when I lazily throw my body on the single couch. I'm tired of watching her like this..

Ace

I closed my eyes and pretend I'm asleep so he can rest. I can see it on his face, tired and sleepy. Since he chose to stick with me I bet he didn't get a normal sleep anymore. I felt guilty for putting him in this situation. I should have at least give it a try. I didn't expect he'd gone next town just to find something that can help me. I automatically froze on that because I didn't thought he's being serious about helping me. He told me about the therapy, sessions and even drugs. Heck no.. I'm not a drug addict or what. But I don't think I can do the therapy and sessions. Relieving it again will just mess me up. I can't panic somewhere I'm afraid they will lock me up in a mental ward because I'm being crazy. I swear I'm driving crazy. I can't decipher everything when I'm panicking. Just like I can feel nothing and feel everything at the same time. I feel dizzy and something's wrong in my stomach and my fingers are tingling. I feel nausea is sitting massively on my head together as my chest pound so much that I can almost be the drummer in a band for that loud pounding. I feel all of that at the same time I can almost feel my throat wants to throw up for a release and everything's taunting to fall dark. Just thinking all of this makes me feel another panic rising on me I should have not thinking so much about it because it will just trigger another. Shutting my eyes more than necessary.

"Baby what's wrong?" I heard him soft whisper.

I automatically flew my eyes open when I hear him talk. I almost forgot he's here.

My breathe hitch and I feel panic consuming me again.

"Calm down sweetie.. Don't panic okay? I'm right here.. Just tell me what's wrong then I'd do everything what you want me to do. Just relax and calm down.. That's it.. Concentrate on my voice just you and me here. Tell me what's wrong so I could at least do something to make it right okay?"

I did what he said and try to avoid rising another panic. I nodded on the process if what's he's saying so he knows I'm listening.

"I feel awful Brix.. It can't just go away.." My voice sounds broken. As much as I don't want to tell anything I need to give this a try. As what he said I can't be like this forever. I want to be okay..

"I'm sorry baby I can't do something. Just tell me what you want to tell me I'll listen. Feel free to say anything we have the whole night."

"I wish he should have just killed me so all of this will stop.." I muttered with a cry.

"Shhhh.. Don't say that. If you died then I won't be able to meet you. I know this is taking too much hard for you but I need you to hold on okay? We will get there sweetheart.. Just hold on." He comforted. He doesn't know how much my body can take. How my mind can take.