His Bet

Chapter Thirty Eight

Red

I feel that someone stepped on my foot so I instantly open my eyes to scowl and Chris is what I saw. He lay down and I was about to do the same thing when someone open the door and I saw Brix came in with Ace behind him? What? I instantly forgot how sleepy I am but I pretend that I didn't see them. It almost tugged my heart.. Why are they together? I also noticed that sometimes they are throwing glances at each other and if I knew any better they are also have that eye connection that was before mine. I was the one she can only look comfortable at. I thought it was clear for her that she should avoid Brix. Well, she did it at first but it went to the other way around. Like its me now she's avoiding. Not maybe intentionally but I felt like she's so distant to me now. Is that because its Brix who knew about what issue she has? About that panic attack whatever Brix told me about when I came home with a mess up situation. Brix promised me he'll take care on that but I don't know.. I feel lame for being oblivious how miserable Ace is. I should have known.. I miss her. I miss how she smiles at me.. I miss how she mocks at me.. I miss how she accepts my hug.. I miss everything about her. It really fucking hurts. How you see the girl that you love the most has attention to another guy and what makes it worst is that guy is my brother. My own blood and flesh.. I knew it I should have told her how much I love her before she came to know Brix. I should have tell her years ago how much I felt for her. But I was scared she's going to get away from me.. I was scared everything will change and she don't wanna be friends with me ever again. I know her.. I know how fucked up she looks at men. She always thought that men are twisted idiots. It must be true.. Because I was an idiot for letting her get away from me.. I should have done something. I can't imagine Ace walking away from me. That makes me wanna cry my heart out. I know that was gay but that's how I feel. I love Ace. I so much love her.. I love her so much..

I felt my morning was a sudden grief. I felt like someone died and empty me out just like that. We were on breakfast and I was quiet I can't even eat my food while they were happy chatting. I side glance at Brix and saw him look and send Ace a smile as Ace return back a small smile. I heave a sigh and I felt like there are tons jotting down my chest.

"Dude, you okay?" Brix asked beside me.

I scoff on that. I really scoff on that. I'm never really like this but I no longer felt okay so I stood up and get out of the room. If this day was normal then I should have worry how grandma will punish me but I don't care about that now. I just wanted to get away before another heart ache comes out. I know I left them clueless because of my behavior but I no longer care. I want Ace back. I want her back with me. I'm not asking for her to love me back.. But at least make these things back where it has to be. Where Ace is only fond of my presence. Where Ace is just mine.. How I wish she was mine. I should have not be like this because she's not even mine, but this is how I feel. I want her back. So bad..

I heard they were calling me even ma and I'm sorry for being rude. I just can't take another.. I feel like I'm going to explode so its better for me to just get out. I was out on the yard when I feel someone behind following my tracks. I don't know who's that but I pace faster. I'm not into entertaining questions right now.

"Dude what was that?" So its the jerk who followed me.

I let a rough sigh before I turned to him.

"I should be the one asking that.. What was that man?" I can't contain my anger I can't let this bottle up or I'll explode. I need some release.

He looks confused staring at me like I just grown another eye in the forehead.

I scoff.

"Dude.. I don't know what you're talking about. We were just worried because this is not like you." He said with a calm but with pressure voice as he point at me.