His Bet

Chapter Fifty Seven

Ace

He left. Red left me in this room and I'm grateful for that because I badly need time to think. Things are drastically changing and I'm still in the first stage of processing everything and I feel like it's jotting all down in my chest. What would I do?

I know they were trying to help. They wanted to help me but I don't know what exactly is pushing me away from them. Maybe I'm just scared of what they were feeling about me. I'm in the middle of two brothers and I don't think there's anything complicated than that. I don't still get it why do they like me. Love me. When me myself don't love me. How can that be possible? To love a broken girl who don't know how to pick her broken pieces up. I can't even fix myself.

That's why they wanted to fix you..

I sigh. Am I to choose between the two of them? I don't think that's pretty.

What? You want two boyfriends?

My subconscious laugh at me. Boyfriend? What the hell? I'm not ready for those things. For pete's sake I'm this mess and I don't think I can handle anymore pain

But it's all gonna be worth it..

Shut up.

Don't you want to feel loved?

Don't. Shut it up.

C'mmon, I know you're learning how to feel now.

"Shut up okay!" I barked with irritation. Grabbing my head because of that throbbing feeling. I'm on a daze. And my subconscious is really not helping!

"Mom." I sob. I suddenly miss my mom. Why do it feels like I'm lonely. I just wanted to be okay.

You're not going to be okay if you keep pushing people away. They care for you.

I let my tears fall. This is what I'm good at. Crying.

"Why do you fight it so much, kitty?"

"I'm here Acy. I won't leave you no matter what. I want to help you."

Their voices rang in my ears. I suddenly felt tired so I throw myself on the bed and shut my eyes as if it will shut my mind from thinking.

Brix

She's taking too long. I asked Red what happened but from his face I know he got nothing. I knew it. She's not ready for these things. And I'm sure what they've talk about earlier will be added to her thoughts.

"Man, you still comin'?" Chris asked me as he was holding a helmet in his hands. We are going to the market to buy stuffs for her birthday.

"Can I check my girl for a moment? Just quick."

Chris and Simon whistled.

"Damn it man. You're totally screwed." Simon teased.

"Sweet boyfriend ain't he?" Chris laughed .

"Delusional. You're not even together." Kalvin piped in between while putting his leather gloves on.

"You said the same exact thing with Red ain't you? We got two delusional pansy whipped brothers man!" Simon almost yelled as he pat my back and Red's.