In My Mind: The World From The View Of A Pessimistic Optimist

Heart and Pride: Side by Side

Heart and pride: side by side

Love started with a single word. Hello was all she said.

Quiet girl, cute face. Nice voice, big dreams, a bigger heart.

Same type he always falls for.

But this one is different he tells himself. She's humble. She's kind, she can handle her own

His last killed almost all of his hope to find real love. Dark skin, beautiful girl. Kind heart, just misguided. Her misguidance caused her to be unfaithful.

Her name now can't be spoken. Her face can't be forgotten. His last girlfriend died two weeks after they broke up.

Reckless truck driver hit her parents car. She had no chance at life.

Who knew that his last words to her would live on in his heart that way. She had so much going for her. Captain of the cheerleading squad. Honor society. Elegant. Just to have it ended by a drunken trucker

Dark dark days when he found out about her death. Deep depression. He swore to hold on to his heart so he didn't go dark again.

He did pretty good, that is until that trip south. He met her on a college campus. Him trying not to be anti tried to speak. She was having issues, wasn't looking to talk to anyone. Then he decided to try and help her.

Who knew that the decision to try to help her would cause him to lose his heart again?

She had a pretty face, gorgeous smile. Was deeper than most. An old soul as one would've said.

He got a bit of contact info, kept in touch. Grew feelings for her really really fast. Hope came surging from her words. He began to live life again.

Here's his chance. His last year of high school and his chance for love has arisen again. Hope has him flying high. His heart is in the clouds. Viewing the future love and happiness she could bring.

Then he makes his move, scared to be shot down. Praying she sees the same things he sees.

But he is just a friend. Given hope by more words. But the future again dims. Shot down. Tail between his legs his pride crawls farther into its cave than its ever been.

He never gave up hope though.

He can still get her. He just has to believe.

But just being her friend drives him insane. He's met his wife, but she didn't see him the same way. He works and works and works. Hoping, praying, dreaming for her to see him the same way he sees her.

This story is still being written. The end unknown even by the author.

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I've had to deal with a lot of pain in my high school years. It's made me afraid of stepping forward and making myself truly heard, left my voice a mere whisper. Things have been rough, and no one knows when it gets better, but it gets better.

"I'm the end, everything is ok. If everything isn't ok, then it isn't the end."

~~~~~~Songspirations~~~~~~~
-Before she said hi ~ Mario ft. Big Sean
-The Book Of Soul ~ Ab-Soul