Brothers Best Friend

Hard to Remember

"He's in the hospital"
"This is all my fault if I wouldn't have said anything to my brother about us dating then..."
"Sweetie this isn't your fault and I didn't know you guys were dating but that's not important right now let's just get to the hospital. I need to know that my baby is ok"
We rushed to the hospital and we waited to be called for any news but the time seemed to pass by very slowly. Soon we heard his name be called out and we headed to his room. Turns out Ryder came out without a scratch but he was being kept in just for monitoring. As I walked in the room, I saw him turn his head over to me and look at me with a puzzled expression.
"Ryder I'm so glad you're ok"
I ran to him and kissed him immediately but he didn't respond. I stepped away and noticed that he was confused.
"I'm sorry but who are you?"
"Ryder its me Jamie. I'm your girlfriend"
"Who's Ryder? I...I don't know who you are? I'm sorry"
I turned to his mom and she looked scared and ran to get a doctor. Once the doctor got here she told us that he had a form of amnesia caused by the impact of the hit.
I asked a question that needed to be asked but I was scared to ask.
"When will he get his memories back? He will get his memories back right?"
"It can take anywhere from a week to a couple of months but there is a possibility that he may never remember. I just want to warn you that it may be painful and that you have to allow him to remember on his own because trying to force him to remember may cause more of a set back. We will run more tests to make sure he's ok but as of now that's all I can tell you"
I couldn't take it anymore and I began crying. I saw Ryder taking all of this in but he seemed lost because he couldn't even remember his own name. I tried to control myself but the sobs just escaped me. He didn't remember us and he didn't remember anything that went on with me. The worst part is that I couldn't tell him anything because it could make things worse.
After a while, Ryder spoke up.
"Hey please don't cry. I don't know why but it hurts me. Please Babe don't cry"
"I...I.... Did you just?"
"I'm sorry that slipped out I didn't mean to call you that but it just feels natural"
"No that's ok. That's what you used to call me even before we were dating. You remembered something"
"Yeah I guess I just wish I could remember you. How could I  forget a face as beautiful as yours?"
I blushed. I still didn't know how to take compliments well.
"I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. If I would have just kept my mouth shut. Sorry I'm talking to much I don't want to cause you any pain. I'll just go"
"I'm sorry I don't remember you. I really wish I could"
"It's ok I understand I just hope you get better soon"
"Yeah me too"
3 Days Later
Today was the day Ryder was going to get out and I was excited to finally see him but at the same time I was scared because he didn't even remember me. The worst part was that Matt was still mad at him and refused to go see him.
"Listen Matt! Ryder is getting out of the hospital today and you are going to see him because the doctor said he needs to spend his days as normal as possible. He needs to remember his daily routine but don't try to make him remember and don't act indifferent because you won't be helping at all. And if he doesn't remember then..."
With every single word I said the tears began to fall harder. I couldn't even hold myself up and just as I was about to collapse Matt caught me.
"Dammit Jamie. Why do you make it so hard to be mad with you. I'll do it ok. I am extremely mad at him but he's my best friend and I want him to remember too. This doesn't mean I'm happy about the whole secret relationship but I'll help ok"
"Thank you Matt"
After a while I began to calm down and I heard a car door open. I looked through the window and saw Ryder and his mom. As much as I wanted to go outside and talk to him, I knew it wasn't the time. I wish this wouldn't have happened. It's all my fault why did I not tell Matt sooner. F I would have kept my mouth shut when Tina showed up, then Ryder would have never had that accident. I went up to my room and saw Ryder through my bedroom window. I hope he remembers soon because if he doesn't then I don't know what I'm going to do. What going to happen to us if Ryder never remembers?