The Bad Boy I Once Knew | G. D.

Chapter 29

A/N: Everyones so mad now bc of the last chapter im sorry😂😭
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Adriana's POV

It has been a couple weeks, and Ethan and I are 'together' I guess you could say. Well not technically together, but we just act like it. I know it's a really bad decision to do this, but I actually feel bad for Ethan knowing that he's been having feeling for me for so long, and he could never have his chance to be with me. Also I really miss Grayson, and miss having someone special be around me all the time. It's been 2 months without seeing him, and the only person that has filled that empty hole in me is Ethan... It's bad to say it is cause it's is brother, and plus I am still with Grayson...

He hasn't found out about it, and I really hope he won't so he wouldn't take it the wrong way if he found out. The only reason I'm being with Ethan for now is so he could have his chance to be with me, and for me to have someone there for me again. But there's still a part inside me constantly telling me this is wrong, which I obviously know. It's telling me that this is a really bad choice to take, and I can tell.

I'm betraying Grayson really bad, which is making me feel like a terrible girlfriend. I really need to stop being around Ethan like that so it won't make this situation any worse, but I don't wanna hurt him cause he's still my friend. But I'm also hurting Grayson even if he doesn't know. I keep telling myself that I'm gunna leave Ethan to stop acting like a couple around him, but my body just can't because of those reasons.

Anyways, Ethan wanted to go to the pier today, but I wasn't so sure. But he kept leading me on to go, so I just decided to go so it'll shut him up. I was already changed in something nice, and Ethan was on his way over to come get me. I just finished looking over my notes for school until the time had came, and Ethan and I had soon headed over to the pier. "Are you excited?" he asked me.

"Yeah," I tried my best providing a smile, and hopefully he bought it. We had talked during the ride, but all I kept thinking about was this bad decision I took... After about a 10 minute ride, we had finally shown up to the pier. We both got out, and met each other in the front of the car. "Ready?" he asked, grabbing my hand. I felt a small spark feeling as he touched it, but I instantly pulled away. "We can't act like this in public," I told him. I can't have Grayson and I's relationship ruined by the media.

"Oh," he said. "I understand." He gave me a wink before we headed for the entrance, and I just rolled my eyes, but I ended up letting out a little laugh. Once we made it to the entrance, we went over to the ticket booth. Ethan finally let me pay for some tickets, and I gave him a smirk once I finished paying. He just laughed, and asked, "So what ride do you wanna go on?"

"How about that one?" I pointed towards a Pirate Ship ride. It was the big one, and it goes back and forth. We then walked over in line for it, and Ethan agreed with me on sitting in the way back. More people piled onto the ride, and we were lucky none of them came into our row. The worker started the ride, and it slowly started to go back and forth. As it became faster, I looked over at Ethan smiling a little, and he did the same.

Once the ride was going really fast, it went back all the way, literally at like a 90 degree angle. It felt like I was gunna fall over in the seats in front of us. It was a little scary, but it was still very fun. After a few times of going back and forth, I felt Ethan's hand be placed over mine as I gripped onto the bar. I looked over at him, and I saw him blushing a little. We both smiled towards each other as he did that. It did that a couple more times, but it started to slow down. We soon got off, and Ethan and I searched for another ride.

The next ride was called the Scrambler, and you all probably know how that ride goes since I go on that ride every time when I come here. We had went on tons more rides that had collected most of our tickets, but we both had just enough to go on the Ferris wheel for last. Ethan and I got in line for it, and soon enough, we both got a seat for us. Ethan let me in first, so I got sat on one side. He followed in right behind me, and sat right next to me. We were the last people to get in, so the worker started the Ferris Wheel to go around.

"Are you having fun?" he asked me, and I nodded.

"Yeah, I love the carnival rides," I giggled, and I saw him smile. There was then a moment of silence between us, and I stared out into the view of the ocean since we were pretty close to the top. The Ferris wheel had went around a few times, so we were probably gunna get off soon. "Is everything okay Adriana?" Ethan asked me, breaking me away from my thoughts. "You don't seem like you are."

Oh, it's just that I'm cheating on my boyfriend with his brother, and I have no idea what I'm gunna do about it when they find out.

"I'm fine," I told him, trying to provide a sympathetic smile. "Just tired that's all," I lied. It's kinda bugging me about this, and I really need to break Ethan away from it. And also tell Grayson the truth...

"But can I tell you about something..." I started.

"How about after this," he replied, and the next thing I saw was him leaning in. I suddenly felt my body shift into panic mode, and fill with fear. I didn't know to either lean in or pull away, but I felt for sure to pull away. It led me to feel like this because it's reminding me of Grayson's and I's first kiss on the Ferris wheel, and it's making me feel guilty if I kiss Ethan in here.

But as our lips were centimeters apart, I pushed my body back. Ethan stopped leaning in, and stared at me a bit confused. "What was that for?" he asked. The next thing I saw was that the ride had ended, and the worker was gesturing for us to get out. I stared back at Ethan, and faintly said, "I'm sorry." I then rushed out of the ride, quickly walking away from Ethan and that ride. Tears were streaming down my face by now, and all I was feeling was guilt and fear. I tried wiping them away, but it was no use.

I suddenly felt a hand grip onto mine, turning me around. I saw Ethan in front of me, and asked, "What's going on?"

"I'm sorry, it's just that... I couldn't feel myself kiss you up there," I told him.

"Why not?" he asked a bit desperately. I should tell him the truth, but I don't wanna hurt his feelings... "I-I don't know..." I told him, crying a bit more.

"Hey," he said, causing me to stare up at him. "Don't cry," he said putting his hands on my cheeks, and having his thumbs wipe away the tears. "It's my fault, I shouldn't have done it up there and I'm sorry."

"I understand why, and we should just stop doing this if you want," he added. "It's my fault to make you feel like this, and I completely understand if you wanna wait to kiss me, or just stop what we're playing." I saw how hurt he looked as he finished, and it made me feel a bit more bad for him...

I then quickly leaned up towards him, planting my lips on his. I felt those small sparks as our lips touched, and I pulled away a few seconds later. I let out a small smile, and I saw him do the same.