The Bad Boy I Once Knew | G. D.

Chapter 34

"You got this," Julia assured me, with a smile. I was finally making that move to try and talk to Grayson, but I kinda have a bad feeling about it. But yet, I have a lot of hope inside me. Julia even came with me, but she was gunna stay in the car when I head up to Grayson's apartment.

"Are you sure?" I asked her.

"Yes," she replied. "Now go! Don't waste any more time." She smiled towards me, and I gave her a determined one right back. I then took my seatbelt off, and headed out of the car. I waved Julia goodbye, and started walking into the apartment building.

I started making my way towards the twins' apartment, feeling a bit of fear inside. I felt myself get even more nervous by the second every step I took towards their apartment, but I still felt myself be able to do this. All these thoughts about doing good or bad on this got cleared away once I stopped right in front of their door.

I took a deep breath, and told myself that I can do this. I then quickly knocked, and waited patiently for the door to swing open. I even looked towards the ground, shuffling my feet waiting for the door to open. Soon enough, it did open, and Grayson stood there looking a bit shocked. "I- uh, I'm busy right now," he said. "Sorry," he said starting to close the door.

But just before he could, I stopped him from closing the door with my foot. "Can we please just talk?" I asked him.

He looked into my eyes, and replied, "I told you I'm busy..."

"Just please," I begged. "It won't be long." He looked away, then back towards me. He licked his lips, then answered, "Fine..." He soon opened the door wider, and I made my way inside.

I awkwardly walked in, until he said, "Here, sit." He gestured me towards the couch, and I gladly sat down. Soon enough, he sat down next to me. "What do you wanna talk to me about."

"I wanna tell you that I'm sorry," I told him. "I know, I've said it a lot, but I really mean it."

"I know," he replied, and didn't say anything else after that.

"But I really mean it... I know that I messed up a lot about lying and cheating on you, but I promise you it won't happen again."

"How can I keep that promise?" he asked a bit rudely in his tone. "I trusted you."

"I know and you still can!" I told him. "I just missed you so much when you left to film that movie... You don't understand how sad and depressed I felt when you were gone... And now it's even worse this time."

"So your point is?" he asked.

"My point is that I can't stand us being like this," I told him. "I miss you so much Grayson... I keep telling you I'm sorry and I really am. I don't know how else to tell you to make you know that I really am sorry, but I want you back Grayson."

"I...I don't think we should get back together..." he started, and I felt my heart break into even more pieces.

"Wha- Why not?" I asked a bit louder. "Why not Grayson? I messed up really bad, but that doesn't mean that I don't deserve a second chance."

"It's cause you don't deserve a second chance," he spat, and I felt hurt inside.

"Why not?" I said even louder. "You don't get it! I miss you so much, Grayson! I'm a complete mess without you! I really wanna make this up to you, but you don't want me to! Now why can't I get a second chance?"

"I can't trust you!" he yelled. "I can't trust you anymore Adriana after what happened. I put all my trust into you, and you just tossed it away like some old toy," he explained. "I loved you. I loved you so much, and knowing that you did this made me not love you so much. I'm sorry that I feel like that, but after what you had done to me, I don't think you deserve a second chance to be with me again."

He stared into my eyes, and I felt them get watery. But I can't show my weakness out to him, I need to show him my strength. I took a deep breath, and held back the extra tears.

"I understand that you can't trust me anymore..." I started. "But that's not me... And I'm not going to give up on trying to win you back. I'm not going to have it end like this... I'm going to try my best to get it right."

"No Adriana, just stop," he answered. "I think you should just give up, and leave."

I stood up, and said, "Excuse me? You're telling me to just give up on this?"

He stood up also, and said, "Yes, that's exactly what I'm telling you. Just leave me and you behind, and move on."

"I am not going to give up," I told him sternly. "I was literally broken after you broke up on me that day. I didn't have any ability to do anything anymore, and I felt horrible and guilty. I literally just wanted to die... But once I gained hope and faith in myself, I told myself that I'm not going to give up on you." He looked back at me shocked in my words, and I felt a bit confident in myself.

"Well..." he said speechless. "You can try your best, but I don't think you'll ever have the chance of being with me again." I suddenly felt myself feel heartbroken inside, since he keeps reminding me about how I won't have a chance with him again...

"You just need to move on from me," he said guiding me towards the door. "Sometimes these relationships aren't for real, and ours probably wasn't meant for that." He then opened the door, leading me out of it. He stood in the doorway, and I stood outside it. "I'm sorry Adriana, but I don't think I can ever be with you again."

"Why do you keep saying that?" I asked him with hurt in my voice. "What if we are? What if we are meant for each other?"

"Adriana, we aren't!" he said almost yelling. "You lied, cheated, and played it off like I didn't even know! How can we be meant for each other if you're like that?"

"But Grayson, I'm telling you I'm not-" I started, but he cut me off.

"Just shut up!" he said angrily, and I felt myself become terrified at that moment at how he reacted. "I'm done with you Adriana! Just stop coming to me and acting how convinced you are about trying to win me back! Well guess what? We're done and over with! Just move on from me like I have with you! I don't want anything else to do with you anymore!" he finished, and slammed the door right in front of my face.

I was in tears by now, and it's a lot more now than before. I started heading out of his apartment building, making my way towards Julia's car. All I kept doing was sobbing at this situation, knowing that Grayson doesn't want anything to do with me anymore...

I can't believe he actually said all that stuff in front of my face. I kept crying at the cause of it, and I don't think it'll ever stop. Maybe he's right on how I should just give up and leave him alone. But it's hard if I still love him...

I felt less courageous in myself at trying to get it back, and maybe it should just stay like that. I don't even know how I could ever get over him by now, knowing he said he has moved on from me.

With all my thinking and crying, I finally arrived back at Julia's car. I opened the passenger door, and got in. Julia then looked up from her phone, looking so surprised. "Oh my gosh, what happened?" she asked startled.

"Grayson..." I started. "He doesn't want anything to do with me anymore..."

"No, no, he can't say that," she said.

"Oh yes he did," I told her. "He definitely told me, straight out."

I heard her sigh, along with my sobs. "I'm really sorry."

"It's okay," I assured her. "Maybe it's for the better."

She didn't say anything for the next few moments, until she said, "Hold on." I looked at her for her to continue. "What if we planned a friends night out, mainly for you two to get closer together."

"Julia, I don't know..." I told her. "He doesn't want to be any where near me anymore... We should just leave it at that."

"No," she protested. "We need to do this. I can't stand seeing you like this, and I bet he feels the same, but he's just not telling you," she explained. "I'm doing this for you two. And no exceptions." She said sternly, and I nodded. Maybe she is right, and this night out can help us grow closer. I just hope nothing bad could go wrong at it though, but hopefully something good could come out of it.