The Problems in Life. Book One: Helpless (Completed)

Chapter Thirty

After two weeks we finally get everything sorted out with the police. Graduation is next week and I can't wait. Since I'm ninth grade it's not a bring graduation like the seniors get, but it's just a little something. What happened to me has been all over the news, which is why I haven't been to school recently. What happened with my mother and Derik had really shaken me up, and I didn't need other people talking to me about it.

Hayley has been over to see me, and I talked to her about. She listened to what I had to say and told me that she was sorry. We cried for awhile, and then she decided to stay the night.

One night Ash came over. He apologized first for what had happened to me. Then he told me that he didn't mean a single word that he said to me that day. He told me that he was just jealous. I forgave him of course. I've missed him.

I try not to think about Derik, but sometimes I do. I might have had a few feelings for him, but I didn't love him. The damn bastard. I learned that from Kendall.

Oh yeah! Gwen and Kendall have announced their marriage. I'm so happy for them. I invited Ash and Hayley to the wedding and they agreed to come.

Also, I wrote a letter to my father and told him what all had happened. Of course I didn't get a response, but I didn't expect to. I hope that he's happy, wherever he is.

The voices in my head haven't spoken since that night. I have put away my razor. I plan on never using it again. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel more free then I have ever been.
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"The wedding was beautiful," Ash says walking up to me. I smile. "It really was," I say. "Hey Ash I have to tell you something."

"What is it?" He asks with a smile. I don't want to tell him, but I know that I have to. It's been a few days after graduation, and I've been putting it off until now. "I'm going to be living with Kendall and Gwen," I take a deep breath. "Which means that I'll be moving to California."

The smile disappears from his face. "You're leaving...?" He says in disbelief. "Well I hope that you are happy. You'll still stay in touch with me right?"

"Of course," I give him a sympathetic smile. "I love you Ash." I give him a hug. "Could you do me a favor? Could you tell Hayley? I didn't have the heart to tell her."

He pulls away and wipes tears from his eyes. "Of course I will," he smiles a little. "I love you too Amanda."

I feel a tap on my shoulder and turn around. "Mr. Williams," I smile at him. "What are you doing here?" I already knew that Gwen invited him. She told me.

"Could I have this dance Ms. Kelly?" He laughs a little. I glance at Ash and he nods. "Yes," I say and he pulls me out onto the dance floor.

"So you'll be living in California?" He asks as a slow song starts to play. I place my hands on his shoulders and he puts his hands on my waist. We sway along to the music.

"Yeah I will be," I say smiling. "Maybe I can show you around," he blushes. "If you'd like."

"I would love to," I smile at him. "Now shush. I want to hear the music." He smiles at me.

Maybe my life won't be so bad. The past is the past as they say. Memories left to be forgotten. Some of them I know I won't forget. Some of them I want to remember. Ash's smile, me and him listening to music on the bus. Hayley's laughter and positivity. The bus ride early in the morning before the sun comes up and it seems like the world is covered in fog. I'm going to miss all of this things.

I would say the end, but truthfully it's not. A whole new adventure is waiting for me; all I have to do know is go out after it and I'm going to make sure that it's a good one.