I walked away very fast.
"Lilly" I heard behind me
I turned around
God why did I turn around!
I looked at him
He looked tired
I swallowed and turned around continue walking again
He run and stood infront of me
I looked at him again
I wanted to walk, but also stay with him
"Lilly, listen, I know I am a dick, I know it was my fault, I'm just not very good with girls, I'm so sorry Lilly I swear to god! I waited for you the whole night because I knew your friend would come and bring you, she told me why you were so upset so easily over a guy-" he started "wait what?" I whispered he looked at me "she told me about your ex" he said I swallowed
Anna is fucking getting it.
I tried to keep it cool and let him go on
"I'm just, I'm fucking sorry alright? I like you and I'm not that guy! I like you Lilly! It was just a mistake it is not going to happen again" he said
I didn't respond
I kept looking at him, I was tired
Tired of love
Tired of Anna
Tired of everything and everyone
"I need time" I whispered
Tears were forming in my eyes
Why?
"Lilly" he whispered
"I'll call you when I'm ready yeah?" I whispered
A tear rolled down my cheek
I walked away
That was the best I could do right?
I walked into my apartment
I saw Anna and matty on the couch
"Hey Lilly" she said with a smile
"Are you kidding me?!" I yelled
She stood up and looked at me
"What happened" she asked
"What happened? What happened?! You fucking told Van about James! I cannot believe you!" I yelled
She looked at me "I thought maybe if I told him he understood why you are so mad and upset-" she started
"You know how much I hate talking about it! And you fucking told a guy about it! The guy I liked!" I yelled
She had tears in her eyes
Anna and I had been friends since primary school
We were always best friends
We didn't fight like this, not ones
But she crossed the line...
"I can't trust you" I whispered with tears in my eyes
"Lilly I didn't know, I love you you need to calm down" she whispered
Matty stood up as well
"Fuck you" I snapped and walked into my room
And again I cried and cried
Why was I being like this
I was hurt, again..
I lay on my bed
I haven't slept
It was 11am
I stood up and grabbed some clothes
I walked into the kitchen seeing matty and Anna
I didn't talk
I made myself some food and sat down
"Hey goodmorning" matty whispered
I gave him a sad smile
I wanted to go out today
Forget everything for a bit
"I'm heading him in a bit" he whispered I nodded "till when will you stay? I asked him "2 weeks" He whispered I nodded.
I walked away and did my hair and make up a bit
After that I walked towards matty and gave him a little peck on his cheek
"I'm going to walk around for a bit don't worry about me, love ya" I said
Matty was like a brother to me
I coudn't imagine myself with him as a couple
I known him for a very long him s
Matty nodded "alright call me when you need me have fun" he whispered
I walked out of the door and sighed
I walked to a park near by and sat down on a park bench
I lighted a cigarette and looked around
I wasn't the type to sit in a park and at 3am thinking about life and all that
I sometimes needed space
Time also
I thought about Van
I coudn't decided to forgive him or not..
I told him I needed time so that's what I'm giving myself
Time.
When it was around 6pm I walked into one of my favorite restaurant
It wasn't anything very fancy
But it was class
"Hey Lilly!" Luke said
Luke was a man who worked at the restaurant
He knows me very well
It's because I come here very much
"How are you?" He asked with a smile as I sat down
"I'm doing okay I guess yeah" i said
It was a lie, obviously
He nodded and smiled "and you mate?" I asked "doing great thank you" he said with a smile
I ordered my food and waited
I felt better then yesterday
It did me good spending some time alone.
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Hey everyone
How are ya?
Anyways I hoped you enjoyed this chapter
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