I woke up in an empty bed.
I got up and walked into the kitchen.
"Good morning" matty said I smiled at him slightly.
Anna walked in with Zachary seconds later "hello" she whispered Zachary waved.
"I made y'all some food" matty said
I laughed "you?" I chuckled
"I did look!" Matty said I walked towards him and looked at the food
"It looks good actually" I chuckled he nodded "I know" he whispered
We all sat down eating the food and had a conversation "your going on tour?" I asked Zachary he nodded "yeah in Japan and just here in the uk" he spoke I looked down
Japan.
-Flashback
I laughed at Van who was dancing with a towel around his hips
"People can see you!" I laughed as he stood in front of the window with a smile from ear to ear on his face
Larry walked in and looked at Van
"Mate, are you okay?" He asked with a laugh Van kept dancing and Larry walked out.
I laughed and laughed until I couldn't breath.
He picked me up and I screamed
We both fell on the bed and smiled at each other.
"I love y-"
"Lilly are you okay?" Matty asked me
I nodded and realized I was thinking about the times I had with Van and the lads.
"What you thinking 'bout" he asked I shook my head "nothing" I said with a smile as I grabbed my plate and put it in the sink.
"I'm going to shower" I whispered
"Alright!" Anna said
I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.
I started crying.
I missed Van, I wish everything was normal.
I put on the water and popped in.
I started sobbing "I miss you so fucking much" I whispered crying
Soon I heard a door open.
"Lilly? Lilly I heard you crying are you okay?" Matty said walking in
I didn't answer, I couldn't speak
"Alright Lilly I'm coming in" he said opening the door.
It isn't he hasn't seen me naked, when I was drunk and trowing up he washed me and my clothes, all stuff like that.
He tilted me up and grabbed a towel
He carried me to my bed and made me dry with the towel.
He tugged me in and looked at me.
"Oh Lilly" he whispered brushing my hair with his hands.
"You should've told me you felt like this" he whispered
I was numb, I couldn't talk, couldn't think.
He walked out and made me some tea.
He turned the water from the shows off and walked into my room.
He handed me the tea and looked at me.
"Is it about Van?" He said i nodded
"You don't gave to talk about it you really don't have to, I just want you to be okay, should I ring him?" He asked i shook my head closing my eyes.
"Alright" he whispered laying next to me
"You'll be okay, I promise you'll get over it okay?" He whispered
- flashback.
"I had a great night" I whispered Van undressed himself.
"Me too" he said laying next to me
"I wish everything could be normal" I said "what?" He asked "I wish you and me could live together, in a house, not worrying about anything" I whispered
he sighed "I know but it isn't like that, it will be in a couple years I promise, but now we are living on the road and nothing can change that" he whispered I nodded "are ya still mad?" He asked
"I'm not mad, I'm just getting over the fact that you slept with other girls when you asked me to be your girlfriend a couple days after" I sighed he looked at me "you'll be okay, I promise you'll get over it okay?" He whispered I nodded
"I love you" I whispered crawling into his chest.
"I love you more" he said hugging me tightly
- van's pov
I closed my eyes and sighed.
Tomorrow I was going home.
I lay on the small leather couch in the bus.
I missed Lilly laying next to me.
"Good night mate" Larry said "good night lad" I whispered
"You'll be okay Van I promise, I miss her too, she was funny and a great person overall but we have to move forward" he whispered "I know mate but I can't help it, it always be her you know" I whispered he nodded "I know Van, I know" he whispered
I closed my eyes
And that night, I fell asleep with her in my heart, I hope she did the same.
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Hey guys very short chapter I know I know.
But new chapters are coming up.
Lots.
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Thank you for reading my book, means a lot !
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