Two weeks it's been
Two weeks since I saw Van
Since Anna and my fight
Anna and I were good I guess
I forgive her but I didn't forget what she done, she knows I'm still a bit mad at her
Matty was leaving tomorrow
And I decided what I was doing with Van.
I forgive him
I liked him, obviously
I'm giving it a change
It was 8pm currently and I was bored
I walked towards my room and sat down
I grabbed my phone and called van's number
"Hello?" He said "hey" I whispered "Lilly?" He asked "yeah" I said "I'm sorry I didn't call or text or anything you said you needed time so that's what I gave you" he said
"I forgive you" I whispered
"You do?" He asked me
"I do" I said
"I like you" I said
"I like you too" he said with a chuckle
"Do you have time tonight?" I asked
"Lilly, I'm in America" he whispered
I swallowed and closed my eyes
I forgot that he was on tour
"Shit" I whispered "I forgot" I said again
"It's fine" he whispered "for how long" is asked scared for an answer
"I'm coming back to Liverpool in 7 months" he whispered I shook my head "no no no" I whispered shutting my eyes tighter he swallowed "I'm sorry" he said I nodded "we have a break, like a week off in 2 month" he whispered
"Maybe you like to come? As a holiday" he asked I nodded I would love too "I'll see if I can do that Van" I whispered
"Would be class" he said i nodded opening my eyes "goodnight" he said "is it night there?" I asked "your seven hours behind" he said "oh" I whispered
"Goodnight Van" is said "goodnight love" he whispered
I hang up and turned around
Matty stood in my room
"Sorry it was on speaker" he whispered I chuckled "come here" he said
He gave me a bigg hug "don't leave tomorrow" I whispered sadly "I can't stay" he whispered I sighed
I woke up with matty next to me
I was sad that he left so we just cuddled until we slept
He is leaving tonight
I looked at my phone and saw some notifications
4 Hours ago
Van x :
Goodmorning love x
Van x :
Sorry I forgot that you are sleeping, goodnight or sleep well ? Anyways have a good day tomorrow I miss you lots x
I smiled and got out of bed
I quickly texted him back saying I missed him too
"Goodmorning" matty groaned
I turned around and walked towards him "Goodmorning" I whispered he looked at me "I don't wanna leave" he whispered "me either" I whispered with a sad smile "but I have to and I really want to see my fans" he whispered and got up I nodded "yeah yeah I get that, I'll just, miss you" I sighed he hugged me "you'll be alright love, call me anytime no matter when, I'll be there when you need me" he said and kissed my forehead I smiled with my lips and walked into the kitchen with him
"I'm going to make food" he said I shook my head "I'm not hungry" I whispered "you have to eat some" he said I shook my head "I can't" I giggeld
It was 9pm, time to say goodbye
Anna matty me and the rest of the band arrived at the airport
We waited for a hours, then it was time to go...
We walked towards the gates
"Lilly, please promise me to call me when your sad or need someone to talk to, I'll always be there for you, always alright? Be kind for Anna and call me about your plan with Van, I love you" he whispered and hugged me
I coudn't help but felt very sad
I didn't cry, I wanted to though
"Don't cry, I can't see you cry" he whispered in my ear I swallowed and kissed his cheek
I said goodbye to the rest of the boys and Anna did aswell
Matty hugged me one last time and kissed my cheek "a few months and I'll be back, I promise" he whispered "okay" I whispered "thank you for everything" I whispered he nodded and walked away with the rest of the boy
He waved at us
Anna stood next to me with an arm around me "you really gonna miss him aren't you?" She asked I nodded
Matty looked at us a final time and turned around
He was gone.
I sat on the couch the whole night
I called Van "ello?" He said "hey" I said "love your alright?" He asked "I am okay" I sighed "what happened" he asked "my friend left for tour tonight, we are as brother and sister, I miss someone to talk to" I whispered "who is it?" He asked "matty Healy" I said "matty Healy! He's a legend man! Love em" he said I swallowed "yeah" I whispered "but I feel sorry for you, call me anytime you feel alone love don't worry" he said "thank you" I said "no worries" he said "I miss you" I whispered "I miss you more" he said
We talked and talked
It was getting late
"I'll speak you tomorrow" I whispered with a smile on my face
Anna walked in
"Alright love goodnight try to rest" he said I nodded to myself
Anna was smiling "thank you, goodbye" I whispered "goodbye" he said
And with that i hang up
"Had a nice conversation yeah?" Anna smiled sitting on the edge of my bed I nodded and smiled "I actually did thank you" I said "Lilly can i sleep here for the night? I actually want to spend time with you like the old days" she whispered "ofcourse you can" i said with a smile she smiled and lay down next to me she was cuddled in my chest
"I'm not sleeping around with guys anymore" she whispered "why?" asked "I realized I was being a slut" she whispered "your not" I sighed "not for you but in people's eyes I am" she sighed "I made this change because it's saver for me and I feel better" she whispered I nodded "you just need to get a real boyfriend, you are not looking for love, but for attention, and with this, you'll get the wrong attention" I whispered she nodded "that's true" she whispered
"Goodnight Anna" I whispered
"Goodnight" she whispered
I felt alright even when matty left
I'll miss him though
I miss Van also, but I'll see him soon
I felt alright
Anna was alright
I was alright
Matty was
And Van
I coudn't be more thankful
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