-Lilly's pov.
I looked at the ground
Van and my argument hurted me
Cause he would be gone tomorrow and we are wasting time.
"So yeah that's what happened" Anna laughed telling the boys a story about her.
I looked infront of me seeing Van smoking.
I stood up and walked in my room.
I sighed snd sat down.
I lay in my bed and closed my eyes
I could sleep, it was probably late
But I could still hear Anna and the rest laughing.
I heard my door open softly
My room was dark so I couldn't see who it was.
I felt someone laying next to me hugging me
It was van.
I felt a tear roll down my cheek.
We couldn't do this anymore, it was too much for me, the arguments, the missing,
"We can't do this anymore" I whispered
Closing my eyes
My heart broke when i said that
"Don't say that" Van whispered
"You know it's true" I whispered
I stood up and turned on my light.
I looked at Van, I had tears in my eyes
On my cheeks, I was a mess
I loved him, but we just couldn't live together, his life and mine just didn't fit sadly, it broke my heart.
"Please don't say that" he whispered standing up
I closed my eyes
"Why did you came into my life? Why did you walk into that damn record shop? Why did you asked my phone number? Why did you ask me to the gig? Why do you love me? Why did you messed my life up?!" I raised my voice
He looked at me, I looked at him
I wanted to kiss him, tell him how much I loved him and needed him
But I couldn't.
"Cause some people are just meant to be" he whispered waking towards me
I started crying softly "Van we can't be together" I whispered he sighed
"We can make it work" he spoke
"You know we can't Van, you are always miles away, you are never home, even if your home you live miles away, your life is different then mine, much different, we don't call when your gone" I said he swallowed "I love you and you love me but when your gone I struggle to sleep at night and when your here we always argue" I whispered
Tears rolling down my cheeks
He walked closer "in 8 months I'll be home-" he started "home but not here, Van you know you have family across the country and your house is there and -" I started but he cut me off "fuck sake Lilly! I fucking love you and I don't want to argue but that shit sometimes happens but fuck I want you and love you!!" He yelled i looked at him
"I don't want a boyfriend I love who's always away van" I whispered
"Then come with me!!" He yelled
"Stop screaming!" I Dias raising my voice
He run up to me and kissed me roughly
After seconds I broke away "you can't just kiss-" I started but he cut me off
"I, love, you" he whispered with tears in his eyes
"I love you" I whispered tears rolling down my cheek
We lay down on my bed
We didn't spoke
Only said a goodnight nothing more
I woke up hours later
Van was leaving in a few hours
I stood up and walked into the kitchen
I saw bondy Larry, Bob and Benji laying on the floor and couch
I sighed and smiled
I grabbed some food and walked on the balcony
"Goodmorning" Van whispered standing next to me
"Goodmorning" I whispered looking at him
"I'm leaving in a couple hours" he whispered
I closed my eyes
"Listen you can tell me today if you are going with me or not Lilly, don't worry" he said
I nodded
I thought about it
I had to give up my work
Anna
Matty
My town
I walked back inside seeing all the boys awake "goodmorning" I said walking into the kitchen "goodmorning" they said
Larry walked towards me looking at me
I stopped doing what I was doing and looked him "what?" I asked "come with us" he whispered I sighed "everyone wants you to be there, even Anna" he said looking at me i looked at him
"Wait what?" I said
"Yesterday we talked about it a little with Anna, and she said she would be happy for you" he explained "and she really said that?" I asked he nodded
I sighed "I have a job" I whispered
He nodded "I know, but you'll find another or maybe they are going to keep ya" he said "why are ya worried? You only get to live ones mate" Larry said I nodded "I think I'm going but I have to talk with my work" I said he nodded and hugged me "thank you thank you" he said I smiled at him
I walked across the street to the record shop i was working in.
"Hello Lilly" my boss said
"Hey, I have a questions" I whispered
"Tell me Lilly" she smiled
I swallowed and looked at her
"I'm maybe going on tour with my boyfriend, but i have this job here and I need to money really, so I don't know what to do or say really" I said
She looked at me "how long are you gone?" She asked "7 months I think" I said she nodded "listen, I'm not saying you can't come back here cause you are the best working I have, and I know you so I'm not going to pay you 7 months long, you can work here again when your back yeah?" She explained
I looked at her "are you actually serious oh my god thank you" I whispered hugging her "yeah yeah no worries" she chuckled
I walked home and saw all the boys and Anna sitting on the couches
"I have news" I whispered
"Tell us" bondy said
"I'm, I'm going on tour with you guys" I said they looked at me smiling
Van looked at me confused
Anna run towards me and hugged me
"I'm so happy for you FaceTime me every day and text me-" she started I laughed "yeah yeah" I chuckled
"Matty" I exclaimed
"Fuck" I whispered
I grabbed my phone and walked into my room
"Hello?" He said
"Matty" I whispered
"What's wrong love?" He asked
"I'm going to be on tour for 7 months" I whispered I closed my eyes waiting for an answer
"Wow" he whispered
"I-I don't know what to say" he said
"What if you'll get in a fight with him and you don't have enough money to go back? Lilly are you sure?" He spoke
I shook my hand "I am" I whispered
"I'm going to miss you Lilly" he sighed
"I'm going to miss you more" I said
"You'll come back here in Liverpool after your right?" He asked "yes ofcourse matty" I said "when are you leaving?" He asked "tonight" I swallowed
He sighed "I'll come to the airport" he said "I don't want to say goodbye to you matty" I whispered "me either" he whispered
It was around 10 in the evening as we waited for our plane, matty and Anna came
I hugged matty "stay safe, and if he does anything, call me, it doesn't matter where you are I'll get on a fucking plane and pick ya up yeah?" He whispered in my ear I nodded "don't worry matty that's not going to happen I wouldn't stand here right now if I didn't want to go or wasn't about that" I said he nodded and hugged me again
"Call me yeah?" He said "ofcourse" I whispered
I walked towards Anna and smiled at her "oh come here" she said hugging me
"You'll be alright right? You have matty, Zachary" I said she nodded "mate don't worry, you are going to travel the world with someone you love, stop worrying about me" she chuckled I nodded and hugged her
I walked towards Van and hugged him "I love you" I whispered he smiled "I love you" he said
I waved as we walked towards the gates
"I love you!" Anna said "love ya" matty said I blew kisses and looked at Van
"You'll be alright, I promise and if you don't want to go tell me" he whispered I nodded
Goodbye Liverpool.
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