Boyfriend Scenarios: Hetalia

When You Die

A/N:  Okay, this chapter will be depressing but it will be paired with the one after as a special.  Warning that this does get a bit dark at times but mostly depressing.  The second part will be "When He Has A Nightmare", so don't worry, reader chan is not dead :)  And yes, this chapter & the next are necessary for the next special chapter~  This is told from his view point.

Warning:

There will be depressing and/or graphic stuff mentioned and/or implied in this chapter.  For those not comfortable or take issue, please skip to the next, happier chapter.  Author-chan also does not recommend any of the ways mentioned to deal with grief.  Author-chan is in no way responsible for making anyone cry.

You have been warned, on more than one occasion.

America

I just curled up on the bed, hugging her pillow tightly as the tears began overflowing again.  I just buried my face in my pillow in response.

'It smells like her...'  I thought, breathing in her comforting scent.  It was then that it really hit me; I'm never going to see her again.

"Why?!  Why?!"  I cried out.  Why did she have to be in an accident, a plane crash of all things!

She was just coming back from a concert, I had been talking with her just before it all...  Damn it!  I was talking with her before some alarm went off and the people on the plane began panicking and-!

God, why?!  She didn't even live a full life!  I was looking forward to it all; going to McDonald's with her, partying, gaming, enjoying a nice ice cream, laughing together, holding her close, being her hero...

... But in the end... I couldn't even save her!

I rolled over and placed the pillow on my face as her last words replayed over and over again in my head.

'I love you Alfie, you'll always be my hero.'

How could she say that?!  I couldn't save her, I can't even call myself a hero if I couldn't save the most important person in the world to me!

I continued to sob as Mattie came in quietly and began trying to comfort me.

'Why... Why couldn't I have saved you [name]?'

England

I just stared blankly at the cup of tea set before me.  I knew Francis, Alfred, and even my other siblings were nearby, watching me, but I didn't care.  I just couldn't care.

"Dudes... it's been five days since that happened... when's Iggy going to realize-"  Alfred was cut off by Francis saying,

"Non, he needs time to come to terms with what 'as 'appened.  When zhat time comes is when he will need us most."  I vaguely heard Allistor [aka Scotland] say something, but I didn't care to hear it.

I got up and went over to my desk, noticing a book that was out of place.  Upon reaching the book I realized what it was; it was the book that I had been reading to her.