I See You. (Camren)

Chapter Thirteen.

Camila.

Harmony crashed out on the sofa around an hour ago, so Lauren moved her into her bedroom, leaving the door slightly ajar so that we would hear her if she called out to us, but I doubt that'll happen, once that little girl is asleep, she doesn't wake up for no one.

"So tell me more about you" Lauren says wrapping her arm around my shoulder.

"What would you like to know?" I ask resting my head on her shoulder, tucking my legs underneath me.

"Tell me about your childhood, what was your best memory as a kid?"

"The day my little sister was born" I answer truthfully, feeling a pang in my chest as I think about her, I haven't seen her in nearly four years, she would be twelve now, I can't believe I have missed out on so much of her life.

"I didn't know you had a sister" Lauren says softly pulling me away from my thoughts.

"Yeah she was born when I was Ten, I remember going with my father to the hospital, I had this little stuffed puppy that I wanted to give to her, I got to the room and my mum was sitting in the bed holding her in her arms, my dad picked me up and put me onto the bed and I curled into my mothers side, and looked down at my sleeping sister in her arms, that's when she asked me if I wanted to hold her, of course I jumped at the opportunity" I smile remembering everything so clearly.

"She was so tiny, and I was so scared that I was going to break her, but the second she was in my arms, her eyes opened and we locked onto each other, and she just stared at me with this look of wonder on her face, I was hooked from that moment, every second I could be around Sofia, I was; From the second I got hom from school all the way until I had to go to bed, that little girl was my best friend, I taught her how to walk, how to talk, how to read, everything, I took her under my wing and taught her everything she needed to know" I choke up and quickly wipe at my cheek as a tear slid down my face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry" Lauren whispers pulling me in closer to her and kissing my temple.

"You didn't, I just miss her, it's her twelfth birthday on Tuesday"

"Have you ever tried to go back and visit her?" Lauren asks and I shake my head.

"I send her a card and a present every year, whether my parents give them to her I don't know"

"Where do they live?"

"Just outside of town" I sigh.

"Would you like to go and visit her? I'll drive you" Lauren offers and my heart pounds in my chest.

I haven't seen my parents in four years, I haven't even spoken to them, I don't know how they would handle me showing up on their doorstep with my daughter, and a woman I am persuing a relationship with, it's bad enough their daughter had a child at eighteen, let alone turn around and have a girlfriend now.

"Camz?" Lauren probes.

"I don't think I can" I shake my head.

"She's your sister, they can't stop you from seeing her"

"She is also their daughter" I whisper.

"So are you" She says softly running her fingers up and down my arm.

"Not anymore" I shake my head.

"You'll always be their daughter"

I don't have anything to say to that, so I don't say anything at all, and I am thankful for Lauren on not pushing the matter.

"Let me know if you want to go okay, I'll leave work early on Tuesday just in case you do change your mind" Lauren kisses the side of my head once more, leaving me with my thoughts, not pressuring me to talk, but not leaving me alone either.