I See You. (Camren)

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Camila.

I lay down on the bed upstairs, allowing myself to escape from the madness for a few minutes before we all leave to go for dinner, I haven't even put on my dress for the night yet, which is probably a good thing, because I wouldn't be able to lay here on this bed if I were, I wouldn't look very presentable in a creased dress.

I sigh and close my eyes, running my fingers across my bare stomach, I'm not really in the mood to go out if I'm honest, but I don't have much of a choice if I want to eat, though I could probably get away with not eating, but I highly doubt Lauren would allow that.

I sigh and run my fingers through my hair before stretching my arms above my head, I am so thankful that I was invited to be here on this holiday with Lauren and her family, but it's just making me depressed, knowing that I'll never be able to go on a holiday with my own family, because my family is now nonexistant, the only person who I can now call family is my mother, but even she doesn't want me, it's never really bothered me before, but being here with the Jauregui's is really tearing me apart. 

"Babe, hey you okay?" I look up and see that Lauren is standing at the end of the bed watching me with her brows furrowed. 

"Yeah just thinking" I fake a smile. 

"About what?" She asks sitting down on the end of the bed facing me.

"Nothing in particular" I continue to smile and move into a sitting position. 

"Camz" Lauren says seeing right through me and I sigh. 

"Talk to me" She says placing her hand on my knee squeezing it softly. 

"I'm okay Lauren, honestly" 

"Do you not want to be here?" She asks. 

"It's not that, I love that I am here, I love that you invited me on this holiday so I could be with you and your family" 

"Then what is it?" 

"I'm just thinking Lauren, that's all honestly, you know what I am like with my mind you have nothing to worry about" I kiss her cheek softly and stand up off of the bed walking over to the closet where my dress is hanging. 

"Babe" Lauren is behind me, turning me aorund to face her. 

"Please Lauren" I whisper feeling my throat start close up and tears brimming in my eyes. 

"What's wrong?" She asks wrapping her arms around my waist and resting her forehead against my own. 

"I miss Sofi" I whisper, letting a lone tear slide down my cheek "I miss having a family, I miss being able to talk to my mum whenever I had a problem, or cuddle with my dad just when I am having a bad day, I miss going out as a family and having meals, I miss spending all day in bed with Sofi watching Disney movies, I just miss having a family, when it was just me and Harmony, I was okay, I could survive you know, it never bothered me, but then you came into my life, you brought me into you world and around your family and showed me what it is like to be a part of a family, and it just hurts to know that I'm never going to have that again, I'm never going to be a part of a family Lauren, my sister is dead, my dad isn't actually my dad and my mother wants nothing to do with me, and being here and witnessing all of this, how close all of you guys are, and how your family accepts you so easily, it breaks my heart, because I want that, I want my little sister back, I want my family" By the time I finish my speech I am a complete sobbing mess, my make up now completely ruined from the tears streaming down my face. 

Lauren looks so sad and sympathetic, she quickly pulls me into her arms holding me tightly as I bury my face into her chest completely ruining her white shirt with my make up, but she doesn't seem too bothered about it.