i exist [as the definition of nonexistence]

Seventeen

A Poem For Kate: the sequel

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One.

See you have this way of--

How do I explain it?

Taking over a room,

spinning webs of words.

You're

(for lack of a better word)

intoxicating.

Two.

I think I really like you.

I think we'd be good friends.

I think

alotofthingsbutInevertalktoyou,

because I'm too shy and

you're super cool and

and

Three.

You're creative.

Creative like an artist who

looks at a canvas and sees a galaxy,

or a new world,

or

or something.

You're creative like

imagination comes easy.

You put pencil to paper and

I don't even know the words.

Your art--

It's something else.

Four.

Everyone needs people

who are there for them.

Someone to

love.

Someone to

know.

Someone to

listen.

I'm not much of a listener,

but I try.

So,

I may not be a very good choice,

but I'm still

here,

and you've got other friends,

this plethora of people who,

you know,

give a shit about you,

you nerd.

Five.

You probably have a lot of other special

things about you but

I'm not near perceptive enough

to fill every number.

I'm trying

though.

Six.

Your laugh.

It needs to stop.

Seriously.

You could stand in the center of a room of strangers

and laugh,

and every one would turn to see who had spilled

a chorus of angels into the room.

Okay, so

that's a bit much,

but you know what I mean.

You laugh nice.

(ugh, is this even a poem anymore)

(shut up, you weren't invited)

Seven.

Ten more numbers.

You're really old.

I think the word is:

A- altruistic

N- necessary

C- creative (you said that already)

I- indestructible

E- effervescent

N- needed (seriously, where's the creativity!)

Fine.

N- nebulous (the sky's the limit, sweetheart)

(I'm so dumb)

T- totally worth wasting time on

(by the way, that spells ancient)

(anciennt)

Eight.

Ya got a nice face.

That's all.

Nine.

We have a lot in common

(a lot, you mean a few things

don't get cocky)

and by that I mean

you're really awesome

and

I'm super jealous that you're seeing tatinof.

I kind of

hate you.

But that's okay!

Ten.

Hey, congrats, the big one-oh!

Lets invite all your friends over for a big shindig

We can have pie, and hot dogs, and...

Hmmm... wait, something's not right.

You don't have any friends

(I'm so sorry, I couldn't think of anything else)

(please tell me you know what that's from)

Eleven.

Seriously,

I'm dying over here.

I think

Uh.

I think your cosplays

are definitely some of my favorite.

Specifically

Dave.

(but only because he's my baby)

Twelve.

Watching you go from

Awkward nerd

To

This super hot

Aesthetically pleasing nerd

has given me hope

that maybe one day I'll be happy

with how I look.

So,

thank you.

Thirteen.

Todays Friday the 13th

That's totally important

I'm not stalling.

Fourteen.

If you're still reading

then

confession time:

When I first found out who you were,

I had this huge crush on you.

Because, I mean, come on

who wouldn't?

I actually gushed about you

So much

That my ex got really jealous.

(don't worry, its just a platonic crush now

I wanna hug the heck out of you--

You deserve hugs)

Fifteen

I hope that

One day

You achieve the sort of happiness

You deserve.

The kind that wakes you up at three a.m.

And you're sitting there, maybe staring at

The person you love sleeping beside you

And you think

¨I'm actually happy¨

And the feeling kind of leaves you

Breathless.

Sixteen.

My age.

Fun fact:

This is taking up nine pages.

Oh!

I also loved when you cosplayed

Cecil, from Welcome to Night Vale

It was awesome.

Just saying.

And when you put on cat whiskers

Because you looked like Dan,

I had a religious experience.

Basically,

You're the coolest person

I've ever had the pleasure of stalking.

SEVENTEEN.

I'd like to wish you a happy birthday!

And I hope that this year is even better than the last.

Which might seem impossible,

because I've watched you grow into yourself

this past year,

but trust me.

Great things will happen for you,

I'm sure of it.

You deserve the stars.

(that sounded really cool and poetic in my head

but I'm tired and this is,

well,

Id just like to apologize)

Happy birthday, Kate!

(hope tatinof was fun)

(and I hope to see more cosplays soon!)

Also,

You're kind of an inspiration,

Just saying.

I've always liked the idea of cosplaying,

But I'm better at special fx makeup.

Eh.

Okay, I'm gonna go now.

Bye!

(eleven pages)