i exist [as the definition of nonexistence]

negative space and white noise.

i am trying to exist in a way that does not take up too much space. when you tell me you like your coffee black as the night sky i glare into the depths of my sugary concoction and wonder if that is a thing that is wrong with me. if you are as easily annoyed by my five packets of sugar and sticky masses of caramel as i am by the sight of roadkill on a highway. you sing along to old songs on the radio as you drive and when i don't sing along you look over at me like it's my line, like i should be jumping in to continue the narrative and when you look away i think about every word i could have said to fill that moment of silence.