The New Boy: Phan High School AU

Chapter 46 - Phil's POV

"Jamie and Danny broke up," I say.

"Really?" Dan asks, sitting up a bit.

"Yeah, that's why I was late."

"Oh, that sucks," he says. "Is she okay?"

"I think so," I answer. "She was kinda lying on the floor but she seemed okay with it. "

"Yeah, she kinda just deals with things by lying on the floor until they go away or she feels like bothering with them," he laughs. "What was she singing?"

"How'd you she was singing?" I ask.

"She's always singing. She says she does it to 'compartmentalise her feelings' or some shit."

"Well, I'm not really sure what she was singing. It sounded sort of like a lullabye? Something about brushing away your tears? And maybe cobwebs and dirt?"

Dan hums a few bars of a soft melody. "That?" he asks.

"Yeah, actually. How'd you know? And how'd you know she was singing?"

"She's always singing. I think she does it subconsciously to kind of sort out her feelings. And the song is Step In Time from Mary Poppins, it's her favourite musical."

"That's why it sounded familiar, I guess. I loved Mary Poppins when I was little." I sigh. "Poor Jamie. And Danny. Breakups suck."

"I wouldn't know," Dan murmurs. "I've never really broken up with anyone. Have you?"

"Yeah," I answer softly. And so I tell him about Blaise and how I really thought I loved him and then how much it hurt when he just dumped me and how I ended up here.

"He's an asshole," Dan says when I've finished.  "And he doesn't deserve you and also I hate him."

I laugh. "Eh, I like you better, anyways."

"I should hope so!" Dan says, just slightly affronted.

"So...am I your first boyfriend?" I ask after a moment. "Sorry, that was nosy of me. I'm just curious I guess."

"It's fine." Dan pauses. "But, yeah, you are actually." And then it's his turn to explain his past lovelife.

When he's done, I take a moment. I can't believe something like that even happened to him. "Wow.  They're all assholes.  And none of them deserve you and I really hate all of them." I mimic Dan's earlier response.

He laughs. "Glad we're on the same page."

"Mmm. I don't want to break up. I'm having too much fun. "

Dan squeezes my hand. "Me too. I don't know how Jamie and Danny can break up that often."

"Me neither. I would go crazy." 

"I love you," I say, even though what I'd almost rather say is 'let's never break up'.

"I love you, too," Dan answers and I feel his thumb rubbing small circles across the back of my hand.

I'm so in love with love itself like just the concept and being in love is so nice and also platonic love but also romantic love it's all just so nice I love love

I also love being a costumer because it means I can dress my best friend up as a 'satanic sex god' (no really that's his actual character description in the script) and it's so much fun.