Fading Scars.

Chapter 10

Josh's P.O.V

Her Dad died. He was gone now. Forever. I knew what it was like. I knew how she was feeling. I lost my Dad too and I missed him everyday of my life. Alyson was a strong girl and I knew she could get through this. Maybe not soon, but she would someday. I knew she could. I told her that I would help her with everything. I loved that girl, I would do anything to help her. But now she locked herself in her room. She didn't want to see anybody, she wanted to be alone.

I tried many times to talk to her, but she always ended up crying or sreaming at me. I didn't care when she screamed at me. So, I tired again to talk to her a little. I entered her room and sat next to her, puting my hand on hers, "Go away.." she cried, "Aly.. You can't be on your own right now." I told her, laying on the bed, "I don't fucking care! Go away!" and again, she was screaming, "Aly, calm down. I'm here for you, okay? I love you." I told her, touching her shoulder, "As if that would bring my dad back." she was harsh with me, "No, but I just want you to know that I'm here for you." I whispered, "I don't need you. Now leave." it actually hurt to hear that, but I understood. I did the same thing, I couldn't get mad at her, or take everything she said personnally.

 So, I was about to leave like she told me to, but she put her amrs around me and started to apologize, "I'm sorry Josh, I-I didn't mean that. I'm so sorry. I do need you, I'm sorry please don't be mad at me. I love you, I-I'm sor-" I took her head and put it against my neck and hugged her, "Shhh... It's okay, Aly. It's okay." I breathe in her hair, "I acted like a bitch and I didn't mean to, you don't deserve t-"  

"It's okay Aly. Don't worry. I love you." she looked at me with her brown eyes all puffy and red with some tears in them, "Now stop crying please, it's killing me. I hate seeing you crying when I can't do anything about it." I kissed her forehead and she rested her head on my chest for a little nap. Naps were good you know. They made you forget about whatever was going on for a while.

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Aly was upstairs in her room, till sleeping. So, I went downstairs and cleaned the house a little. I stopped when the door bell rang. I walked towards the front door and opened it. Ben. "Hey, what's up?" I asked him, "I came to talk to Aly, is she here?" he asked, "Yeah, but she's sleeping." Ben and I became good mates now, even if he told my girlfriend to kill herself, "Can I come in to wait for her?" he asked, "Yeah sure, but she's in a bad mood. I don't think she'll be happy to see you, you know.." I told him. If Aly saw him right now, it wouldn't be good, "What kind of bad mood?" he asked, worried of the answer, "She screamed at me earlier because I wanted to comfort her." I said, he looked at me with big eyes, "I don't think it's a good idea then." he laughed and got back in his car.

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"Josh?" Aly called from upstairs, "Yeah babe?" I answered, "Can you come please?" her voice was shaking, that meant she was crying. I ran up the stairs and got in her bedroom and walked towards her and immediately hugged her. She was sobbing in my shirt, "My girlfriend needed a hug, yeah?" I asked stroking her back and she nodded her head and kissed my cheek, "I'm sorry to be like that, it must be boring.." she breathe in my chest all wet now, "Be like what?" I asked, "Always crying." she answered, "Babe, don't be sorry for that. It's okay to cry, you know?"

"Yeah, I guess." she said, "I'm really lucky to have boyfriend like you Josh." a smile grew on my face when I heard that, "And I am lucky to have a girlfriend like you." I replied. She was smiling, even if she didn't want to, she was smiling for me. I loved her smile. Her laugh. And her eyes were just beautiful. She was perfect.

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I woke up this morning and Aly was still sleeping. So, I got up and showered. I was thinking about what I could do with her today. Cinema? She loved cinema. Beach? Yeah, it was raining. I didn't know what kind of activity she would want to do. Maybe it was too soon. I should probably go easy on her. When I got out of the shower, I called my mom. She wanted to talk to me.

"Hello?" she answered, "Hey mom." I said through the phone, "Hey Josh, how's Aly? "my mom asked, "Yeah she's fine. She's sleeping right now." I said, turning the tv on, "Would you like to come over for dinner? I really want to see Aly and apologize to her." my mom felt really bad that day, and now she was trying to win Aly back, "It's a good idea. I talk to her about it." I said, "Well, okay then. Call me later, I'll be home." she said, "Okay, bye." and I hung up.

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"She doesn't hate me?" Aly asked me after I told her about the dinner, "No. Not after your little fight. She wants to apologize, I guess." even if I knew she wanted to apologize, I would let my mom tell her. "Well, okay then. It's a good idea." she smiled. She was getting there. It was probably one of the first time she smiled since her dad was gone. But hey? My mom solved my problem. I knew where I was taking Aly now. To my house, for dinner. It was kind of boring, but it was a good start.

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My mom made some pasta and they were really good actually. Aly didn't eat that much, but she talked with my mom. They made things out and now they were fine. We haven't talked about Aly's Dad because she was still emotional, obviously. We were now eating our desert and it was as good as the pasta. 

"So Aly, how's school going?" my mom asked, looking at her, "Great. Yeah I have good grades." she replied, "Yeah well, not in history." I said, laughing at Aly's expression. I was still helping Aly with her History, but she was so bad at it. After our little laugh, Aly and I went back home. 

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"You had fun?" I asked Aly, we were sitting at the table, "Yeah, your mom likes me now." she laughed, "Yeah." I laughed with her, "It was nice of you two. I was thinking about something else for few hours and it felt good. Thank you." she said, taking my hands in hers. I leaned in to kiss her cheek but she turned her head so my lips were touching her softly ones. I loved that feeling. The feeling of her smile on my lips made me so happy. She made me happy. Just being with her. We were actually making out. We didn't do that really often, but we should. Really. She was now on my lap and she was kissing me like never she did before. She broke the kiss and looked at me, "I'm a virgin." she said, "Okay? What's that suppose to mean? Y-You want to do it? Right now?" I said, she laughed and answered, "No, no! It's just that I didn't want you to think I wanted to do it. Okay this is awkward. Um, yeah. I'm not ready, sorr-"

"Aly, it's okay! I don't want you to feel like you have to do it. Don't worry, you're not ready and it's okay. There's no hurry here." I told her. I didn't want her to feel sorry for that. "Would you still love me if we haven't done it yet in 5 years?" she asked, laughing, "Yeah. Always. I will always love you Aly. There's no rush." I took her waist and hugged her, "I love you, do you know that?" she asked, wrapping her arms around my neck, "Kinda." I smirked at her. She laughed and kissed my nose before getting off of me and walking in the kitchen. I followed her and took some chips, "I don't wanna bring the subject back, but I was wondering when the funeral was.. ?" I asked her, "Don't worry it's okay. And it's next Saturday." it was Wednesday today. "Okay. And do you want me to come with you?" I didn't know if she wanted there, "Are you really asking me this question? Yes you're coming with me. I'm going to cry and you're the only one who can stop my tears now." her Dad used to before he passed away, now I was the only one. "I'll be there then." I smiled and kissed her head. 

We ended the night by watching some movies in the living room. We were cuddling on the couch and she fell asleep on my lap. She's so beautiful, I thought to myself. 

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