Fading Scars.

Chapter 19

Josh's P.O.V

''She wanted to do it again.'' I was with Ben and he didn't know that Aly tried to kill herself again. ''Please, don't be serious.'' he looked hurt. More than I imagined. ''I'm dead serious, man.'' I told him, shaking my head, ''Why?'' his voice was breaking, ''She misses your Dad.'' I didn't know how to comfort him. I didn't want him to start crying in front of me.  ''Is she okay now?'' he asked, ''Yeah, I'm with her like 24/7.'' I said. I wanted to reassure him. He knew how much effect I had on Aly. I could make her feel better just by hugging her. ''Yeah, I appreciate it mate. You do so much for her.'' he said, patting my shoulder, ''Do you think it's okay if I come see her?'' he asked, ''Yeah sure.'' I replied. Maybe Aly would be happy to see him... or not.

We were in the house and Aly was upstairs. ''Babe?'' Aly called, getting downstairs. ''Yeah, I'm in the living room.'' Ben looked sad but also stressed. He was about to talk to his sister. I didn't even know about what. ''Ben? What are you doing here?'' she said, walking towards me and pecking my lips. ''I needed to talk to you.'' he responded. He was almost whispering. ''I leave you to alone. I'll be upstairs.'' I smiled and kissed Aly's cheek.

Alyson's P.O.V

''So, Josh told me.'' Ben started, ''What happened?'' he finished. What happened? I didn't know to be honest. I just wanted to put an end at my life. I was tired of living in this hell. ''I was tired of everything.'' I answered, ''Alyson, you could be dead by now!'' he yelled, ''Why are you yelling at me?'' I shouted back, ''Because Aly! I don't fucking want to lose you! I love you. You're my little sister. You mean the world to me. It doesn't look like that, I know. I've been the worst brother ever lately and I'm sorry about that..'' he wasn't screaming anymore. No, he was crying. I walked up to him and looked at him in the eyes. Tears were starting to form in mine. I took him in my arms and he cried harder on my shoulder. I couldn't take it. I cried too. I felt bad. He cared about me for all these years and I was just ignoring him and telling him to go away. I never let him the chance to talk. I couldn't know how much I meant to him. ''I'm s-sorry Aly..'' he sobbed in my neck, ''I-I'm the one w-who should be sorry Ben.'' he pulled off of our hug and looked at me in the eyes, ''Why are you saying that? I'm the one who told you to kill yourself.'' he said, ''Yeah, but now look at you. Look at us. We're crying in my living room. You care about me and I care about you. I haven't see that until now. But you care about me. I love you Ben, you're my brother! I never let you the chance to explain yourself.'' I said, wipping away his tears and laughing, ''I thought you were stronger than that bro.'' he laughed and hugged me again, ''I'm glad I could finally talk to you. We're fine now?'' he asked. I smiled and said, ''Yeah. We're fine.''

My brother stayed for dinner and went home right after. Josh was happy to see us like that. Like brother and sister. I missed hanging out with him. ''I forgot to tell you, my mom is doing a little party before she leaves. She invited you and Ben actually.'' he said, ''She knows Ben?'' I asked, surprised. How could she knew him? ''Yeah, it surprised me too.'' he laughed.

-Next day.-

Josh's P.O.V

I woke up with an empty bed, again. I trailed out of bed and got down the stairs. ''Yeah sure.....I'll be there.....But I don't understand..... I don't have depression anymore......What?.....I told you, I'll be there...... Have a good day.'' I heard Aly talking on the phone. ''Who was that?'' I asked. She jumped when she heard my voice, ''You're awake.'' she smiled, ''I made breakfast, you want some?'' she asked, trying to change the subject, ''Aly, who were you talking to?'' she looked at me, ''Um, Ray. Yeah she wanted to see me for some reason.'' she said. ''You talked about your depression with Ray?'' I looked at her with a 'Don't lie to me' look, ''Okay fine. My doctor called and he told me I haven't took my depression pills at his office.'' she said, ''You've stopped taking your pills?'' I asked, ''Yeah. I don't need them.'' she answered, looking at the ground. ''Aly, you're still in depression. You can't just stop taking those pills!''  ''I know! Stop yelling at me.'' she hissed. I was yelling? ''Sorry, but I just want you to be okay. You still have it, baby.'' I whispered, ''But I don't feel like I still have it.'' she was harsh with me and I just got up. The day was going to be awesome. ''Don't be harsh with me, Alyson. I'm just trying to help.'' I said, ''Yeah well, I don't need help.'' she looked pretty serious. ''Do you want me to stop helping you then? Will it make you happy?'' I asked. I couldn't just stop helping her. She needed me. ''Yeah, I will appreciate it. Thanks.'' she said, walking in the living room and leaving me alone in the kitchen. Should I listening to her? Maybe she wanted to help herself. She wanted to get through this by herself. But she wouldn't be able to handle it. I would let her try. ''Are you sure about that?'' I asked her, ''Yeah.'' she simply answered, ''Promise me you will tell me if someting's wrong.'' she needed to tell me if something wasn't right. I didn't want to find her in the living room with pillsin her hands again. ''Yeah, promise.'' she said. I smiled and kiss her forehead. ''Are you going to see your doctor?'' I asked, ''Yeah. I have to.'' she said, getting up. ''I should get ready, he's waiting for me.'' she said and kissed my cheek.