Yesterday, Josh wasn't feeling good, so he came to my house and now he was still sleeping. He was very tired when we arrived, so he went in bed right away. But he wasn't able to sleep. He kept waking up. Probably some bad dreams or something, but he didn't want to close his eyes. He kept me in his arms, searching for comfort, even though he couldn't. So, I stayed up with him until he fell asleep.
I slept two hours last night. I was tired like never before. I wondered why he was so depressed, like what happened? His mother and sisters weren't home when I went there yesterday. I didn't want to ask Josh about it. Maybe something happened between them. Family fights probably.
Josh was finally up and he was feeling better, "You look happy today." I walked towards him and he took me in his arms, "That's because of you." he told me, kissing my nose, "Sorry if I disappointed you. I didn't mean to.." he was looking at the ground, embarrassed, "Josh, look at me." he lift his head, "I'm proud of you Josh. You didn't do it yesterday. You didn't cut! I'm proud of you. You make me so proud." he hugged me, "What would I be without my amazing girlfriend?" he whispered in my neck, "The same as me without you." I answered back. Josh and I weren't like all the couples. We didn't make out, well not often. We weren't fighting, yet. And we cried in each other's arms more than we kissed. We were unique and I liked it. I loved it actually.
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"I'm going to see my Dad, are you coming?" I asked him, "Yeah sure, it's been a long time since I haven't seen him." Josh took my hand and got in the car. "He's very sick Josh. You'll probably be surprise when you'll see him." I warned Josh about my fathers transformation. Stupid cancer.
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"I told you." I said to Josh who was looking at my Dad, "Is he always sleeping?" he asked, looking at my dad, sleeping. "Yeah, most of the time." I told him. Josh walked up to me and I went straight in his arms. He stroked my hair and kissed my head. "I'm here for you Aly. I will always be here for you." Josh said, "Thank yo-" I stopped talking when my Dad woke up, "Hey you two." he wasn't feeling okay, really he wasn't, "Aly, can you please go see if the doctor is around here. I'm not feeling so good." my Dad told me, "Yeah sure." I was running the halls and I couldn't find a doctor. I was freaking out. My dad needed one! "Doctor! Wait!" I yelled at the first doctor I saw, "What's the matter sweetie?" he asked, worried. "My dad needs you. He's not feeling good, hurry please." I told him, "Okay come with me." he told me and we ran towards my Dad's room. The doctor called the nurses and they took him in another room. I followed them everywhere. I tried to entered the room to be with him, but I couldn't. The nurses were trying to calm me down but there was no way I could calm myself down, my Dad could die right now! So, Josh took me in his arms, even if I was punching him in the chest, he didn't let me go, and I gave up trying. I cried in Josh arms until they took my dad out and bring him back in his room. He was okay. He wasn't breathing alone though, some machine helped him. After, Josh took me back at home.
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Josh needed to pick up some things at his house, so I was home alone and I knew what I was going to do. I went in my bedroom and took one blade and walked in the bathroom. I close the door and sat on the floor. I was wearing some shorts so, I lift them up and started cutting my thighs. It was that easy to relieve the pain. I looked at the blood falling down my legs. I also made some cuts on my wrist. I couldn't control myself, but I didn't care. I couldn't careless about my actions at the moment.
I washed my legs a little, but continued right after since I wasn't feeling quite okay yet. I was crying at the same time. Not because it was hurting, but because I was pathetic. The only way to feel better was by cutting. I didn't car- "What are you doing?" he asked. "Why didn't you tell me?" I wasn't able to speak. I didn't tell him about it.. I didn't want to tell him that I cut. But he caught me. "I-I'm sorry.." I cried. He took my blade in his hand and slit his wrist. "Josh, what are you doing?!" I screamed, "It hurts to see someone doing it, uh?" another cut, "Stop please!" I was crying and screaming, I didn' know what to do. He threw the blade on the floor and got out of the bathroom.
I was still crying in my bathroom while washing my cuts. I didn't know if Josh wanted to talk to me, but I was going to talk to him anyway. I opened the door and made my way downstairs with the aid kit and put it on the table. I went in the living room, where Josh was, and looked at him, ashamed. "Josh, I-" he didn't let me finish, "Don't talk to me." he said. My heart almost stopped, "I wanted to tell y-" he really didn't want to talk to me, "Don't fucking talk to me!" he screamed, again. I made my way in the kitchen and took the aid kit and came back in the living room. I sat down next to Josh, and took his wrists. I cried harder when I saw how bad his cuts were. I washed them and put a bandage. "I should have told you before. I'm so sorry." I cried, "I didn't know how to tell you.." he wasn't talking to me still, "Talk to me please.." I whispered, "I love you Aly." he said, looking at me. I was shocked. He didn't want to talk to me five minutes ago, and now he told me the words I was waiting to hear since we started dating, "I really love you, Aly." he was the one whispering now, "I-I love you too, Josh." I told him before kissing him.
I really did love him, and now I knew he loved me too.
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Teen Fiction''What are you doing?'' He asked. ''Why didn't you tell me?'' I wasn't able to speak. I didn't tell him about it.. I didn't want to tell him that I cut. But he caught me. '' I-I'm sorry...'' I cried. He took my blade, and slit his wrist. ''Josh, wha...
