Fading Scars.

Chapter 24

Josh's POV

''Where are you going?'' I asked Aly, who was about to go out without telling me where, ''It's none of your business.'' and she went out. What the hell was going on? Did I do something? I was the one who was suppose to be mad, not her. She was hiding such a big thing from Tom and it wasn't right. She couldn't just keep that between her and Kylie. She told me, but I wasn't the one who was suppose to know that. Tom was! When the girls were outside, Tom talked to me about Kylie. He said that he was worried. She wasn't acting right. Something was wrong with her. She wasn't eating properly and he was worried about his little daughter. She meant the world to Tom. Aly didn't understand when I told her Tom needed to know because, she wasn't the one talking to him earlier. She wasn't the one who almost saw him crying. She wasn't the one. I was. I knew how he felt about Kylie. It got me mad. Just because she cut, it didn't mean she knew everything about self harm. I self harm too and I wasn't acting like she was. Aly and I had our fights, she made me mad once. When I caught her cutting in the bathroom. But now, for me it was the worst. I thought about moving out. Not just because of tonight, but also we were always fighting over little things not even important. Maybe I should have moved in Italy with my mom and sisters. Maybe we were just not meant to b-What the fuck am I saying? I loved Aly more than anything. I couldn't leave her. The thought leave my mind fast enough to calm myself and waited for her to come back. I really needed to apologize. She didn't deserve anything I did to her. I was harsh with her for something she didn't do. She wasn't the one who didn't tell her father about her self harm. She did that a long time ago. What if this time, it went too far?

Aly wasn't here yet. She has been gone for 2 hours now. I was getting worried, obviously. But, I shouldn't be worried. I trusted her. She wasn't going to do something stupid. I would call her soon though. Just to make sure everything was okay.

It has been 3 hours. Now I was freaking out. Aly never went out for such a long time. So, I took my phone and tried to call her. ''Pick up, pick up..'' I mumbled to myself. ''Hi! Sorry I can't tal-'' her freaking voice mail. Maybe I was overreacting. She needed time alone after what happened. I would try to call her later.

It has been 4 hours now! Something happened for sure. I tried to call on her cellphone but she never answered it. I thought she might be with Ray, so I called her too. ''Hello?'' Ray answered, ''Oh god Ray, is Aly with you?'' I asked in a rush, ''No, why? Something is going on?'' she asked, ''Don't worry everything is fine. Can you just call me if you see her please?'' I asked, ''Yeah sure, no prob-'' I didn't let her finished her sentence. I hung up. I needed to do more calls. Ben. Her brother.

''H-Hello?'' he asked, he sounded tired. I watched the clock on the wall, 12:45am. Oops. ''Hey Ben it's Josh. Are you with Aly?'' I asked again, ''She's not home yet?'' he asked. He was awake by now. His tone sounded more concerned, ''No, she left after our fight and she-'' he cut me off, ''Yeah, I know. She called me. I went to see her like 3 hours ago. I told her to go home with you and work things out.'' he said, getting worried too. ''Do you think something happened to her?'' I was scared of the answered, but asked anyway. ''I don't know, man. She was at the cemetery when she called me. But, did you tried to call her?'' duh. ''Yeah! Many times. She never answered me. I'm freaking worried Ben.'' I said, trying to calm myself down. ''Look, I'm getting ready. I'll meet you at the cemetery. Go check for her.'' he told me. I didn't say anything. I grapped my car keys and ran out of the house. I got in the car and was about to start it when my phone started buzzing. I looked at it and someone was calling me.

''Hello?'' I answered, ''Am I talking to Josh Havrey?'' my heart stopped when she said my full name. ''Yeah. What's wrong?'' I asked, ''Your girlfriend is in the hospital. She just had an accident. She's fighting to stay alive right now.'' what? My girlfriend had an accident because of me? This couldn't be happening. ''I'm on my way.'' I finally said. I texted Ben to join me at the hospital instead.

I drove fast enough to be there faster. I ran the halls looking for someone to help me. ''Sorry, um can I have some information about Alyson Miler?'' please be good news, please be good news. ''Yeah, are you family?'' I was talking with the receptionist, ''No, I'm her boyfriend. I just got a call saying she just had an accident and she was fighting for her life.'' I needed those information. I needed to know what I've caused to my beautiful girlfriend, ''Okay, wait.'' she said, taping something on her computer and looking at me with sad eyes, ''Alyson was in a big car crash. We were surprised to see her alive when she got here. She's in surgery right now. So, all you can do is wait in the waiting room.'' she said, looking sorry. ''Thanks..'' was all I could manage to say. I was shocked. My girlfriend could be dead right now. What did I do?....

''Josh.'' I turned around and saw Ben running towards me. ''What happened?'' he asked sitting down beside me. I could feel the tears in my eyes, ''S-She had a car crash.'' I stopped talking before bursting into tears, ''She's fighting for her life right now... because of me.'' and I couldn't keep the tears in my eyes anymore. I started crying in my hands. ''Hey mate. It's alright. It's not your fault. She was fine when we said goodbye. It was an accident. It's not your fault.'' Ben said, patting my back. I didn't say anything. What could I say anyway?

Ben and I were still in the waiting room and the doctor finally came to see us. ''Alyson's gonna be okay. She did a great job. Her body will still hurt for a few days. But, everything is alright now. She's safe.'' when I heard those words, I started crying again. But, it was tears of joy. I couldn't be more happy to hear that. My girlfriend's gonna be okay. ''Can we go see her?'' Ben asked, taking me out of my thoughts. ''Yeah, sure. She's sleeping now though. But, she should wake up soon.'' he smiled and told us her room. I ran into it, but stopped in the door frame. I looked at the ground. I couldn't look at her. She looked so hurt. I was still thinking it was because of me. Even if Ben told me it wasn't. It was my fault. ''Come on, Josh.'' Ben whispered, I entered her room and walked towards her almost dead body. She had scratches and bruises all over her. I sat down in the chair beside her bed, and took her tiny hand in mine carefully. I didn't want to hurt her any more. I put my head on her bed and cried. I couldn't look at her like that. It was hurting me to see my girlfriend like that. She must had suffer. I won't never forgive myself for what I did to her. ''Do you wanna talk to her?'' Ben asked. I lift my head up, looking at him. I nodded and wiped away the tears. ''I won't be too long, I promise.'' I said, ''Don't worry Josh. Take your time.'' he said, smiling and got out of the room.

''Hey Aly.'' I started, ''I'm so sorry. It's my fault. You're here, hurt, because of me. I'm so stupid! I love you so much, Alyson. It's unbelievable. If I could be the one in this bed right now, trust me, I would be. I don't like seeing you like that baby.. It's so hard. I hurt you. I'm such a bad boyfriend.'' I put my head down on the bed, and let out my tears. I took her hand and put a soft kiss on it. ''You could be dead by now.. What the hell would I be without you, Aly? You can't leave me. I'm nothing without you. I hope yo-'' I stopped talking when I lift my head off of the bed and saw Aly looking at me, with tears on her cheeks. ''A-Aly? You're awake. Oh thank God you're awake.'' I cried and put my heaad on her stomach. She put her hands on my face and made me looked at her. ''Please baby don't cry.'' she said, wiping away my tears, ''You could be dead by now Aly. Because of me! I'm such a pr-'' she stopped me by putting her soft lips on mine. I kissed her back. I could feel her tears on my cheeks. I pulled out of the kiss and hugged her. ''I love you so much, Josh.'' she cried in the crook of my shoulder, ''I love you too, Aly.'' I said, before kissing her cheek.

We should never stay mad at someone. We never know what could happen to them.