Fading Scars.

Chapter 6

Today I went back to school. I got suspended the day I beat Rachel. I wasn't sure about it, but I had to. "Ready?" Josh asked, "Yeah."

I jumped in the car and he drove at school. I was nervous, like very nervous, maybe Rachel would take her revenge. When? I didn't know. How? I didn't know, and that was the scariest part about going back to school.

In no time, we were there and we walked in the building hand in hand. People didn't know that Josh and I were dating. They didn't care about it anyway. We still got some strange looks by some people. I stopped at my locker and Josh went at his. I put my things in it and closed it. "I have to go see my teachers, I'll see you later okay?" I must had a thousands of works to do, so better start now. "Yeah sure." he kissed my cheek and I went at the first class, which was English. "Hey, I came to see if I had some work to do." I asked my teacher, "Yeah, give me one minute." she went to her desk and took out some papers, "I want it back next week." she said harshly, "Okay." at least I had something to do when I would visit my Dad. I hoped my other teacher wouldn't be that hard on me. It wasn't like I was in a fight every week. In fact, it was my first fight ever. At least I think it was.

I went to all my classes and got my work. I couldn't believe it. My math teacher understood my situation better than anyone else. She didn't even give me works, she just hugged me, and appologized for my dad. But all of  them though, were fucking insane, I had so much work to do. I didn't mind some homework everyday, because that was school. But, they freaking gave me what was worth like 5 weeks of school! And I had to give it back in like one week, some teacher gave me two tops.

It was already lunch and I met Josh outside of the school, on the bench actually. "So, how is it going so far?" he asked me when I sat down next to him, "I had some work to do. A lot actually. But I haven't seen Rachel yet." I said kind of sad, I wanted to see how bad her face was, "I saw her. Were you mad that day? She was beaten hard Aly!" he exclaimed. That was so sad. "Poor little girl." I was emotionless. To be honest, it was a good thing, maybe she would stop making shit in this school.

"Anyways, I have to be home tonight to watch the girls, would you come with me?" what if his mom saw me, "I don't know.." I hesitated, "Come on! My mom won't be there." he really knew me, "Okay then. Talking about your mom, does she change her mind about us?" I wished his mom changed her mind, because I wasn't anything close to what she thought I was, "We haven't talked about it." he said, eating his sandwich, I nodded and smiled, what else could I do?

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The rest of the day was awful. First of all I saw Rachel. Her friends were looking at my every steps. If look could kill, I'd probably be dead by now. My teachers were disappointed in me. Nobody seemed to know the reason why I did this, and it was pissing me off. It was a pretty bad day in general, but it was over and we were in Josh's car, ready to go check on his sisters. When he got in his driveway, there was a car. "Is your mom home?" I was starting to panic, "Yeah, but she was supposed to be at work, I swear!" he didn't understand why his mom wasn't at work. We got out and got in the house, "Finaly Josh, I was about to be late if you didn't come home so-" she saw me, and she stopped talking. It was really awkward, "I think I should go.." I whispered to Josh, but she heard it too, "Yeah, that's a good idea actually." Josh was looking at her with disgust, "I'll text you, or call you, whatever." I was becoming mad by the way she was talking to me, she didn't know me, she couldn't talk to me like that, "Or just don't. We don't need someone like you in our lives." okay now that was it, "Okay what did I do to you?" I started. She was surprised and she didn't answer my question, "You can't answer that, uh? Well, it's just because you don't have a fucking reason to hate me. It's not fair. I'm only making Josh happier. This is not what you want? Your son to be happy after everything he has been through? Then shame on you." I laughed, but continued anyway, "Tell me I'm a bad person if you want to, but Josh is the only friend I have. He was there when I needed him, he made my tears turn into laughs. He made me smile. Still today, he's the reason why I smile. He helps me to get through the fact that my Dad is dying. You know what is like to lose someone you love. You know it's hard. I can't get through this alone and Josh his here to help me. I'm saying that to you because I want you to know that Josh is very important to me and I need him in my life. I'm not letting him go." I didn't realize I was crying, so I wiped my tears away and made my way toward the door, and said my last words to her, "It was nice meeting you." and I walked home. I went to Josh's house many times before, but she was never home, or she just didn't mind me. But, now that I was Josh's girlfriend, she had to hate me.

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I ate dinner alone tonight since Josh didn't call me or text me. He wasn't coming here tonight, I guess. I walked in my room and checked my phone for the thousandth time and went to sleep. Should I feel bad about all the things I said to Josh's mother? Maybe he was mad at me. Well, I was about to find out tomorrow at school, hopefully he wasn't mad.

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It was really weird to wake up in an empty bed this morning. I was feeling very bad, but she needed to hear that. I checked my phone and still no text. He was definitely mad at me.

I had to take the bus this morning, so I was in school earlier. I stayed at my locker, waiting for Josh to come, but he never showed up. The bell rang and I took my things for my first period which was English. I gave my teacher some work she gave me the other day, not all of it, but a few. Josh was not in the class, maybe he was late. "Hey, whore!" someone said to me, I turned around and the only thing I remembered was some girl punching me hard in the face, making me fell on the ground and my head hit the floor. I blacked out.

I woke up in the nurse's office, "Hey sweetie, how are you feeling?" she asked, "My head hurts." my head did really hurt, "You have a little concussion. You fell hard on the ground." I knew that, thanks for the reminder. "Can anyone come to pick you up?" she asked, "No, my dad is at the hospital, but I can finish my day." I said, getting up. She stopped me, "You have to stay in bed sweetheart. No school for you today. I'll take you home." she said, "Thanks." I smiled.

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"Oh my god." I said to myself in front of the mirror. I had this big black eye. I couldn't go see my Dad looking like this! The nurse said I had to stay in bed, so that was what I did. My eye was all big and puffy, blue and purple. It was hurting so I put some ice on it. The nurse also gave me some pills to take when it was hurting, like now, and I was sleepy, so I fell asleep on the couch. I woke up two hours later, hungry.

I got up, feeling a little bit dizzy and made myself some food. It wasn't as good as Josh's meal, but I was okay with it. I went back on the couch and laid on it. I closed all the lights in the house to calm my headache. I was kind of happy that Josh was mad at me, he wouldn't see me like this. I didn't even know who punched me. Rachel's friend for sure, but I didn't know her. I didn't want to either.

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"Aly?" I knew this voice too well, "Yeah I'm in the living room, don't turn on the lights please." I said, "Why? Aly it's dark in here!" really? That was the point, big boy. "What's going on?" he asked me, I just wanted to be alone, no sounds around, "Nothing, I just have a headache. Where were you today?" I asked Josh, "I had to take the girls a their doctor's appointment." Josh said, sitting next to me, "I thought you were mad at me." I told him, "Why would I be mad at you?" like he didn't know the answer to his own question, "You know, yesterday at your house." I was still feeling bad, "What? Aly come on, I'm not mad! I really like what you did yesterday, it's was very nice. Thank you." he said and kissed me. "Now can I turn on the lights?" he asked, "You will regret it." I warned him, "Why are you saying tha-Holy shit! What the fuck happened?" and he saw my eye, "Nothing I told you." I needed a lie, I needed something right now, I couldn't tell him a girl punched me, "Aly, don't play with me, tell me what happened." he was so serious, almost mad, "I felt in the staircase." I lied. I watched One Tree Hill way too much. "Aly! Don't lie to me. Just tell me the truth."I was really bad at lying, "Someone punched me." I said, looking at the ground, scared of his reaciton, "What? Who?" he was almost screaming, "I don't know her, but please stop scremaing, my head hurts." I told him, "I'm sorry babe." he sat down and took me in his arms, "Are you okay?" he whispered, "Yeah, don't worry about me, I'm fine." I kissed his cheek and put my head on his chest and fell into a deep sleep.