Fading Scars.

Chapter 22

Alyson's POV

This morning when I got up, I wasn't feeling any better. I tried to hide my feelings about the bad news Ben told us yesterday, but I wasn't as good as I wanted to be. I cried myself to sleep that night. I didn't cut. I wanted to, but I didn't for Josh. I thought she had changed for real. I thought it was the last time she put herself in there. But I guess I was wrong. I wasn't the strong girl Josh thought I was. No, I was weak. And I hated it. I looked for my phone in my bed, but I couldn't find it, so I checked on my nightstand and I saw it. But, I also saw my box. Remember the box with all my blades in it? Well, that one. I had the urge to cut right now. But, I kept thinking about Josh. Just him. He was the only one who could stop me from doing it. I just needed the strength to ask for his help.

Josh's POV

I was downstairs, waiting for Aly to wake up. I was wachting some tv show. I got tired of it, so I turned the tv off. I walked in the kitchen and started making breakfast. I was starving. I wanted to wait for Aly, but I would just leave her some.

When I finished making my food, I sat at the table and ate it. It was delicious. I, actually, took my time and made a good breakfast for once. I was taken away from my thoughts when my phone buzzed. I took it and looked at the text I just received.

' Hey Josh! It's Tom. Wanna hang out tonight? '

Wow. I haven't seen this guy since I moved! I was happy he texted me to hang out.

' Hey! It's been a long time since I haven't heard of you! I'll call you tonight. '

I wasn't sure if I could go. Aly's mom just got back into jail. Even though Aly seemed okay with it yesterday, I still wanted to make sure it was okay if I spent the evening with Tom.

I got my empty plate and put it in the sink and washed it. Usually, Aly was the one washing the dishes. I hated doing that. But, she was sleeping and it was just one plate. I wasn't going to die because of it. When I finished, I was walking back in the living room when I heard a noise upstairs. I stopped myself from walking and waited. ''J-Josh.'' Aly screamed in panic. What the fuck was going on? I ran the stairs and got in the bedroom. She wasn't in here. ''Josh!'' she screamed again. I was scared now. What happened to her? I ran to the bathroom door and opened it. Aly was on the floor with her box beside her. She already had her blades in her hands. I walked towards her and took the blades, slowly. She looked at them with her eyes wide opened. I threw them away and put her in a hug. She hugged back. She was holding tight on my t-shirt. But, I didn't care. I didn't care at all. I was just so happy she asked for my help. She screamed my name. She wanted me to help her. I was so proud of her right now. ''Baby, I'm so proud of you.'' I whispered in her ear. I didn't know she was crying until I felt her tears on the skin of my neck. I pulled away of the hug and looked at her. I cupped her face in my hands and just waited for her to say something. ''Babe, talk to me.'' I said, still whispering. ''I didn't know what do to..'' she trailed, ''You asked for my help, Aly. That's the perfect thing to do. You did so great.'' I smiled at her, but she didn't smile back. ''I-I want to do i-it so bad..'' she sobbed, putting her head in her hands. ''Aly, you don't need those cuts.'' I said, trying to make her understand that she was worth it. She didn't need that. But, I felt bad telling her this. I cut like two days ago. I felt like it. I hadn't tell Aly and wasn't going to. ''Yes I do!'' she yelled. I wasn't expecting her to scream, so it made me jumped. She regretted the second after. ''I didn't mean to scre-'' I cut her off, ''No, don't worry it's fine. I understand.'' I said, taking her hand in mine. She took it like she never wanted to let go. ''I'm getting tired of feeling like this Josh.'' she said, looking at the ground. ''Are you taking your pills?'' I asked, ''Yeah. Everyday.'' she said, ''Maybe we should go talk to your doctor and check that with him.'' I was trying to help, but I was scared of getting her mad again. ''I guess.'' she said, letting go of my hand. I sat next to her and put my hand on her thigh. I rubbed it and looked at her. She closed her eyes and started crying. ''Shh... Baby, it's okay.'' I said, putting her closer to me. She put her head on my lap and I stroked her hair. 

A while after, she stopped her tears and looked at me, ''Thank you.'' she whispered, ''It's my job to take care of you.'' she smiled and got up. I followed her and we went in her room, on her bed. I kissed her and cuddle next to her.

After what happened this morning, I decided I wouldn't see Tom tonight. I needed to stay with my girlfriend. So, I called Tom. ''Hello?'' he answered, ''Hey, it's Josh.'' I said, ''What's up, man?'' he asked, ''Look, um, I won't be able to do it tonight. My girlfriend needs me.'' I replied, ''Oh it's okay. I guess we can hang out another time.'' he said, ''Yeah, no problem. See ya.'' and I hung up.

''Babe?'' Aly called, ''Yeah?'' I replied, ''Who were you talking to?'' she asked, getting closer to me, ''Tom. My old friend.'' I answered, ''Is he coming over?''  ''No, I told him I wanted to stay with you.'' I said, taking her waist in my hands. She was so small. So tiny. So fragile. So beautiful. She was mine. ''You're sweet.'' she smiled, putting her hands on my cheeks and pecking my lips softly. ''Guess what?'' she said, smiling. ''What's up?'' I asked, ''I love you.'' she said, wraping her arms around my neck. I leaned in to kiss her and smiled. Her lips were so soft. ''I love you more, Alyson Miler.'' I replied, pulling off the kiss and taking some air. She smiled and kissed me again and again. 

At this moment, I wasn't thinking about anything else but my amazing girlfriend and how much I loved her. I wanted to show her that she meant a lot to me. 

And, I knew exactly how I was going to do that.