Fading Scars.

Chapter 15

Josh's P.O.V

I told Aly about my mom's job. I should have told her sooner. I regretted it. I couldn't handle seeing her crying yesterday. But at least I could come visit her. It was only one hour from here. It shouldn't be that hard to see my girlfrend. I thought about asking her to come with me, but I knew she wouldn't want to leave her house. Her dad's house. She lived in it all her life. Anyways, I was going at my house to pick up a couple things because I would be living with Aly until I move out.

I parked my car in my driveway and got in my house. My sisters ran over to me and hugged me, ''Josh!'' they said, ''Hey girls.'' I smiled, ''Mommy wants to talk to you Josh.'' the older one said, ''Where is she?'' I asked, looking around for her, ''In the kitchen. But please Josh, don't scream.'' that didn't look good. It meant it was a bad news. I hated bad news.

''What's up mom?'' I said to my mother. She turned around and looked at me with sadness in her eyes, ''I don't know how to say that, but there's bad news.'' she told me, ''We are still moving, but in another country.'' she finished. What? Another country? Just for a job we had to move in another country. Just for a fucking job! It was ridiculous. Seriously. ''Why do we have to go in another country just for a job? I don't understand. There are plenty of jobs here. We can stay here. I don't want to leave Aly.'' I was controling myself from screaming because my sister told me to. She hated it when me and my mother yelled at each other. ''I know Josh. I know that, don't worry. It's just a big or oportunity for me and I always wanted that job.'' she said, almost crying in front of me, ''How am I suppose to say that to Aly. I told her yesterday that we were moving and she was crying! You don't know what it's like to see the girl you love crying in front of you.'' I said, holding back my tears, ''I know. But we're still moving.'' she wasn't looking like crying anymore. She wasn't feeling bad or anything. ''Well, I'm not.'' I said, harsh. I didn't care at this moment. I just wanted to go see Aly. So, I started walking towards the door with my mom screaming at me. I wasn't listening at what she was saying. I kissed my sister's cheeks and went in my car. I needed to calm down because I was really mad. I started the car and headed to Aly's house.

I got there and started screaming. I let out my anger. I was losing control. I always had some anger problems. I threw objects on the floor. Aly was terrified, she tried to calm me, but it didn't work. ''Josh you have to calm down, please.'' she took the glass in my hand and put it on the table, ''Aly, please back off.'' I told her. I didn't kow what I could do. So, it was better is she kept her distance. But she didn't. She took my arms and tried to calm me. I took her arms back and pushed her off. She was surprise to see me this angry. I never touched her when I was angry. I didn't want to hurt her. She took some steps back, holding her forearms in her hand and looked at me. I saw tears in her eyes wanted to come out. but she didn't let them. I was starting to realise what I just did to my girlfriend. I hated myself right now. I hurt Aly for no reason. She was just trying to help. ''Baby, I didn't mean to do that.'' I started to walk towards her, but she kept a distance between us. I understood. I would do the same thing if my fucked up boyfriend hurt me. ''I'm sorry, Aly.'' I whispered, ''It's okay. Don't worry. You warned me and I didn't listen.'' she said, getting closer to me. I took her forearms in my hands to look at what I did. There were red, and there would be some bruise by tomorrow for sure. I let go of her arms and ran my hand through my hair, ''Josh, it's okay.'' she kept saying that to me. It wasn't okay. I hurt her. She was going to have bruise because of me. Her boyfriend. What kind of boyfriend was I? ''No, Aly! It's not. I harmed you. I fucking harmed you.'' I told her, taking steps backwards. I didn't want to be close to her right now. I didn't deserve to be with her. In the same house as her. ''Look at me.'' she said, putting her fingers under my chin. I lift up my head and looked at her brown eyes, ''Don't be upset about it.'' how could I not be upset? ''It wasn't your fault babe.'' a feeling in my stomach appeared when she called me babe. She never said that before. I said nothing, I just hugged her. She hugged me back, putting her head on my shoulder. I pulled off and she kissed me. ''Are you okay?'' I asked, ''I'm fine.'' she answered, ''Are you scared of me?'' I wanted to be sure everything was okay, ''No, Josh.'' she answered again. ''I promise not to hurt you again.'' I said, putting my forehead against hers, ''I hope so.'' she laughed, which made me laughed too. We finished the day cuddling in her bedroom. I didn't tell her why I was mad. She didn't ask. Maybe she just didn't want to bring the anger back. I knew I had to tell her soon. Like tomorrow. I would have the whole night to think about the way I was gonna say that to her. It would be hard.

It was going to be a long night.

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