Nicki&thePips

Chapter 74

Leigh-Anne sat up in bed, her head swimming. She felt like throwing up but when she gagged nothing came up. Her arm hurt from being stretched in an uncomfortable way as she had the IV hooked up to her. She had been in a drug induced sleep, filled with nightmares she couldn't get away from.

She breathed, taking deep breaths as if there wasn't enough air in the world. Her heart was beating fast. It was like it was trying to get away from her, trying to escape her chest. Jesy. She needed Jesy. Living without her Princess wasn't living at all. It was a sort of agony she wouldn't wish on anyone.

Leigh weakly got to wobbly legs. She felt like she was going to fall. She wheeled her IV towards the bathroom. It was a painfully slow process –made even slower by her desire to be quiet as she didn't want to wake Nicki who was fast asleep and Perrie who she couldn't tell was awake.

The light in the bathroom nearly blinded her. It made her head hurt horribly. How long had she slept? It had to be several hours. Her mouth was dry and her stomach gurggled. She wondered if it was eating itself.

"I can't go on like this." She mumbled looking at her face in the mirror. Her face was noticeably slimmer. She had bags under her eyes. She looked like she was wasting away. She lifted her shirt which was now just a little loose on her body. She could almost see her ribs. At this rate she'd probably die. Yes. She'd die. She almost looked forward to it.

Then a thought stabbed her mind taking her breath away. Jesy was probably worse off. Jesy was living in a nightmare. Her poor best friend, sister, was probably stuck in a white padded room. There was nothing Jesy feared more than that. Jesy was in there plus away from Leigh-Anne. Leigh couldn't imagine how painful it must have been for her poor Jesy.

The words of the people who took Jesy away ran through her hurting head. 'Jesy needs help', they'd said.

"Well f*** it." Leigh-Anne grumbled surprising herself with the profanity. But Jesy was in London while she was in Austria. She needed to be where Jesy was. "Leigh-Anne Pinnock I believe you're in the wrong country." She whispered at her reflection.

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It took two days to set everything up. It was the end of the European tour. Nicki's last show was in Dublin, Ireland. The next day they were going to head to New York where Nicki would spend her Christmas vacation.

At one in the morning Leigh-Anne was up. She was packing a backpack of nessecities. Tomorrow when Nicki awoke she would be gone. She was going for Jesy.

"Okay Leigh-Anne you've organized everything. This is going to work. Soon you'll have Jesy in your arms." She whispered to herself.

Earlier she'd made Sophie take the IV off of her by complaining that it made sleep uncomfortable. She was going to have to eat actual food if she was going to survive this for Jesy. Even as she shook in apprehension for the task she was about to do she repeated that it was for Jesy in her head. That line of thought made everything seem possible. Jesy was the ultimate goal.

Leigh-Anne silently moved out of the room with her backpack so that she wouldn't wake the exhausted Nicki. She headed to their suit's livingroom and opened up the minifridge. She pulled out a plate containing what she was supposed to have eaten for dinner. Even now it made her naseaus.

"For Jesy." She whispered sitting in front of the now closed fridge. She held a piece of chicken with her hand. Her stomach lurched. She took a huge bite as her body both rejected and welcomed it. She swallowed harshly to surpress a gag. She had to keep it down. For Jesy.

She heard a noise that wasn't from her now upset stomach, as she stuffed her face against her body's will.

"Leigh-Anne? What are you doing?" It was Prodigy's sleepy voice.