A Little Piece Of Heaven

Fourty Five

                   *James POV*

"Jimmy man, That shit that happened earlier was crazy, but you have to admit that it is your fault" Matt sat next to me
"I know Matt!" I kinda raised my voice, I took a deep breath
"But I was drunk, I swear if I wasn't I would of stopped myself I fucked up Matt I don't think I will be able to live with myself" I put my hands on my face
"Maybe you just need to talk to her, Find her and talk to her Jimmy... Just not right away she needs to cool down" He patted my back
"Jimmy do you want to have a beer with me?" Brian asked with two beers in his hand, I sighed and rubbed the back of my neck
"I don't know man, uh I guess" I held my hand out and Brian placed a bottle in my hand.
"Fuck I am going to regret this" I popped the cap open and took a big shot, this is what got me in this fucked up place. This is how it fucked up in the first place, Matt kinda gave me a look but shook it off with a smile
"Okay, thats fine. Its your life dude" He patted his knees as he stood up
I got up and went into kitchen and took a seat, there was a bottle of Jack Daniels and Captain Morgan sitting next to a case of Budweiser. I don't even know what I am doing, I am just going to do what I do best...
Sale drugs, drink beer and play wicked in my band. I don't know what I am going to do about Jamie, I don't want to let her go but I fucked up so bad. I have no words to explain this pain I am feeling, it's almost heartbreaking. I hate this and wish I never did What I did, If I could take it back I would. I just want her here with me now-
"Yo, Earth to Rev where are you at bro?" Brian was staring at me
"Oh, shit aha yea?"
"Your really spaced out man, you sure your okay?"
"Yea-..... Actually can you tell me what happened that night?"
"Uh.. Are you sure you want-"
"Please it will give me alittle closure" I took a shot of my beer
"You were piss drunk when I got there, you were with Leana and she offered to go back to her place. Matt and I tried to get you to stay but you blacked out and tried to fight Matt then left with her anyways..." He sighed
Fuck man, I hate this shit. I put down my beer and got up, Brian looked at me
"Everything okay?"
I wanted to drink with my best friend to get my mind off all this but at the same time I want to go find her, I need it to just be us. To talk with her, I have to make this alright so I can have my girlfriend back. I sighed
"Jimmy?.." I looked back to Brian and took a seat, I started drinking my beer again. I will find her in the morning, I mean it is late.
"Talk to me man, it aint the same drinking with you when your like this"
"Sorry, I am just so emotionally fucked up from what happened I don't want to lose Jamie, I love her.." I sighed
"You man, I know how you feel. That was me before..."
"What no way"
"Yea man, before I moved out here I cheated on Michelle... But we got through it after a year of being apart, it might take some time Jimmy but good will come your way"
"Oh shit aye, I never knew that bro" I took a sip of my beer.

The next day

I woke up to a knock on my bedroom door, I just rolled over but the knocking did not stop.
"WHAAAAAT!"
The door opened and I rolled onto my back and saw Matt walked inside with an envelope, he held it up and took a seat on my bed. I sat up and stretched, taking the envelope from his hand. It had my name written in handwriting on it.
"This was on the door.." He got up and was walking towards the door
"Matt wait" he stopped and turned around
"Look I am sorry for what happened in LA-"
"Look dude its all right, you were just drunk" he smiled and I nodded, then he turned around and left the room.

I started opening the envelope, the scent of roses and candy. Its Smelled like Jamie.. Could this be from her? I got the envelope opened and two pieces of paper were inside, I grabbed the first one
'Jimmy,
I am leaving You, I am leaving Charming. I can't live in this hellish town, It killed my best friend and It hurts me just as much that you broke my trust.
You don't have to apologize It was my fault for trusting you, I mean your a drug dealer that goes to wild parties and has wild concerts every weekend. I loved you, Now I don't know cause all I feel is pain. Please don't look for me cause I can't go back living like this, I am pregnant.
I am not going to raise our child in this place, Maybe some day I will tell her who you are. But We won't interfere with your life and work, live a happy life and I wish you the best. Goodbye James'

I wiped the tears from my eyes, I fucking knew it I should Of left last night. I got out of bed leaving the envelope on my bed, I changed into from fresh clothes and put a hat on top my messy hair, I grabbed my phone, wallet and keys.
I dialled her number hoping for an answer but the line was disconnected, I got in my car and started driving to her house.
As I got there I could see a motorcycle parked in the driveway, I parked and walked up to the door. I knocked and waited for an answer soon someone answered the door, I don't know who he was
"Uh I am looking for Jamie" I took off my sunglasses
"Jamie left this morning" he spoke
"Do you know where she went?"
"No, you could check at the clubhouse" I nodded and put my glasses back on and went to my car. I left the driveway and turned my radio on, Without you by Motley Crue came on. It was the song that reminded me of her I felt tears whelming but took a deep breath as I pulled into the driveway of the Teller Morrow Auto repair shop. I parked and walked up to the door where I met up with Tara
"Hey looking for Jamie?" I nodded
"Look come over here" she grabbed my arm and walked with me into an empty office, the same one Jax and I talked in.
"Jamie is gone, she packed her things this was gone by this morning"
"Oh..do you know where?-"
"No she left me a note saying she was moving away, she doesn't want to be bothered by anyone" she sighed
"She left me a note too, I thought I could of met her before she left but I guess not" I sighed and rubbed the back of her neck..
"Can we pretend this never happened?" She nodded and I turned and left the office, so this is it. I lost the women I never thought I would lose, I can't believe this....What now?