STAY · Thomas Sangster x Reader

- six -

A/n
Listen to skinny love while reading this. 😣

Your pov

2 months have already gone. You're starting to love it here. And you're happy you're doing what you love with the one you love. Well, in secret cause you haven't told anyone else besides your mom. Thomas, you got closer the past couple months. And today while walking in the hallway making your way to his room, his doctor was outside waiting for you.

"His getting worst." The doctor said looking down. Those 3 words felt like it just stabbed your heart a million times. Your stomach dropped and tears streaming down your face. "No.." You whispered. "N-no!" This time louder. The doctor calmed you down. He pulled you to a hug while you continue to sob on his chest. He knows how close you are with Thomas and how you hid your pain so Thomas would be strong. But this time you can't. "I'll have to go now y/n. You have to see him. Go in when your ready" he pulled out and left. You can't see Thomas now. He can't see you like this. You went to the bathroom and calmed yourself down. You washed your face and put on some make up.

Thomas' pov

2 months, wow. She's the reason I smile everyday. Beth visits me once a week and check how I'm doing. She said I've changed. Well, its true. She said I was happier than before and I smiled alot now. 2 months. And still, everytime I see her I have butterflies going wild in my stomach.

This morning I woke up with blood surrounding my a part of my hoodie below my neck. I coughed hard last night but I didn't know it would be this worst. And just on cue, the doctor who always took me to chemo went in. He was shocked. He took me to his office after I put on a new shirt. After the tests, He took me back to my room. I got back to my bed while he stood beside me looking down. "Why? What did you find" i said looking at him confused. He stared at me for a while. "You're getting worst, Thomas. I-its, getting bigger." I froze after what he said. But how? I begin crying then suddenly I saw her. My mom. She was standing at the end of my bed with her arms ready to get me. But no. She's dead. Is she taking me? And all of a sudden I thought of her. Y/n. She's the reason I'm alive. The reason why I'm keeping myself alive. I shook my head trying to get my mom out of my mind, refusing her offer. I shut my eyes for a couple of minutes. Then I opened them slowly. And I realized the doctor already left. And also my mom. I decided to tell her how I really felt about her today. After the news I heard, I still wanted to be strong. And I want to spend the time I have left with her. Knowing I wouldn't waste any if I was with my angel.

Your pov

Trying to be strong, you knocked and entered his room. Keeping every piece of sorrow to yourself. But failed. He noticed you.
"Don't worry love. I'll be fine." He said with a slight grin. You knew he was trying to be strong. For you.
"Y/n, I have to tell you something." He avoided eye contact, beads of sweat forming in his forehead. He was nervous. I could tell. What could this be? Is it another bad news? I cant take too much bad news in a day. "What is it Tom?" "Y/n, love, when I first saw you, you caught my eye. And when we met I think you stole my heart. I've been keeping it to myself and realized that I want you to know before I'm gone. Well I'm getting worst and I want to spend every moment with you. You're the reason I'm strong and why I'm trying my best to stay alive. I love you, y/n" Tears streamed down my face again. But this time with mixed emotions. He put his hands on your jaw while his thumb wiped away your tears. "Tommy. I-i love you too." You smiled and he smiled back. He removed his hand on your face opening his arms gesturing for a hug. You put your head in the crook of his neck while you whispered "since we met, i always did. I love you." You felt safe in his arms so you want him to feel the same. You hugged him back.

After dinner~

He layed in his bed. He shut his eyes but he wasn't sleeping, just maybe thinking. Of what might happen to him. You pulled the chair from the desk and put it beside his bed. You sat down beside him. Then you put your fingers on top of his. He opened his eyes and gave you his warm smile. He shuts his eyes again. He intertwined his finger with your warm ones. For a while, you started crying again. Thinking of the worst things that's going to happen to Thomas. He saw you and wiped your tears with his other hand. "I can't let you see me like this, tom. Im s-sorry." "Well if it wasn't for me then you wouldn't feel pain. Im the one who needs to say sorry. Forgive me. Please." Why is he saying this? Does he want to go? Does he want to give in? No. Not this time "Tom. Do me a favor then?" "Anything fory angel." "Stay alive. Please." Tears coming out again. "Don't leave me. Don't give in. Dont give up. I-i love you tom" He stayed silent. Like he was thinking of something. "I promise you, if you survive, we'll do what you always dreamt of. A family, your own house, and a-a happy life tom. Just don't leave me" you sob while he pulled you into a hug once more. "I'll live for you. I'll be strong. I'll survive." Then he kissed the top of your head. Shivers went down your spine. You kissed him in his cheek then went back to his chest. You were happy hearing the beat of his heart. You were happy with his breath. Those little things made you happy, it mattered most to you.