Can we do it all over again?

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Eds POV

"What?" Is all I could say, struggling if I can lie here.

"Tell him Ed" Taylor turned towards me giving me the most obvious look.

"Ed, do you have feelings for Taylor?" Harry asked again.

"I don't know" I said in almost a whisper.

"What?" They both said at the same time and I looked up to meet Taylor's eyes.

"Tell him you don't have feelings for me Ed" she begged me but I couldn't say.

"Tell him!!!" She raised her voice.

"Taylor...." I was searching for words.

"You don't have feelings for me do you?" She came close and said in a low voice, her eyes begging me to speak while harry was just standing at a distance, his arms crossed over his chest.

"I do"

And bam ! There's one lyric in Taylor's song that says "I have never heard silence quiet this loud". This was the moment of that silence. Everyone was quiet and it was hard to even hear the breathing sound of us all three.

Seconds felt like hours, and slowly Taylor's feet started to move backwards, my eyes were on the floor, ashamed of my feelings.

"See?" Harry asked her.

"I didn't know okay? I fucking didn't have a single clue about this shit" she sat on the bed holding her face.

"I am sorry" I said the three words that I know won't make it for my feelings.

"I can't believe you would do this to me" Harry came close to me.

"I didn't do it purposely" I assured him with pleading eyes.

"No not this! You purposely told me about Mathew, didn't you? To make sure everything is finished between us?"

"What!! No Harry i didn't. You took it in wrong sense. We discussed this shut before. I never said anything wrong about that, you just took it another sense" I tried to remind him about our conversation.

"You told him?" Taylor's voice asked me, I couldn't meet her eyes again. But for sure I knew, she wasn't going to cry. She was strong and at this moment she only has hate for me.

"Yes"

"And lied. Why Ed..? I never expected any of this from you? Why would you do that to me?"

"I am sorry, I know I fucked everything. Just forgive me please. I will leave the tour and I really want to see you both together"

"Together?" Harry scoffed.

"I am not lying harry, I've been struggling for you guys a lot. And you know that"

"I don't know Ed, you have feelings for my girlfriend, the person I love. What do you expect me to say? All in my mind is that call about fucking Mathew."

"I didn't do it purposely!!" I argued and he just shook his head.

"I am leaving but please forgive me both of you. I don't know what I would do without you guys" I said and moved the curtain.

"Don't Ed!" Taylor yelled.

"What?"

"Don't go please. Stay" she got up from bed.

"Taylor?" Harry gave her the questioning look.

"He is my best friend harry, I am not ready to lose him. It's just his feelings that will go away. It doesn't have to ruin our friendship" she stood beside me again.

"Taylor don't take my side here please" I told her, I don't want harry to go out thinking more wrong.

"No let her, it's so clear that she has feelings too"

"Fuck it harry I don't, I just don't wanna lose a friend here." She yelled at him and turned to me and added "just go now and find a driver, we have to reach Newark by tomorrow."

"Find a driver?"

"Just go in the arena and talk to the crew, anyone would help you" she explained and I nodded.

"I am sorry"

"Just go ed"

Harry's POV.

"You have to leave him for me taylor" I told her once he was out.

"He is your best friend harry, it's not his mistake if he has build the feelings, he never showed me. And I am sure he won't, he will forget about that and we can live happily"

"I have compromised a lot for this relation, you just have to do this" I begged her.

"I won't ask for anything else I swear, let's forget this. Please. I swear I won't ask anything else from you"

"Lets see. I need time. I don't like seeing you with him"

"I know it would be hard but try to ignore that please?"

"I said I will try"

"Thank you" she smiled coming closer.

"So are we like back on?" She asked me.

"I really don't want that but I want you. You're my worst weakness taylor. I wish I could say no, but I have no choice" I replied honestly, I might be hurting her but its not fair for me to leave her alone her with a person who loves her and stay countries apart while she's in the same room as him.

(A/n I honestly don't like this chapter, I don't know why. So I won't ask for good comments, you can criticize. But yea they are back on. Less drama for next few chapters I hope. I am sorry for this stupid chapter, maybe I just don'tfeel really well today)