Can we do it all over again?

The concert.

Harrys POV.

"Ed she didnt even tell you where she is?' I asked shocked with the fact that she changed hotels. Yesterday I made her cry and 24 hours have been passed with no clue of her existence, Ed went and knocked on her door and found out she checked out after midnight. Just now he recieved a reply her telling him she is living in some other hotel. No details about the city or area.

"No Harry she didnt reply after that, she is fine isnt it enough?" He was really annoyed from me, since yesterday he has been rude.

"I think you should be with him"

"Yea but I am stuck here with you instead" see?

"I am leaving now. Go to her"

"I didnt mean that Harry" He suddenly turned towards me just realizing the fact that he is hurting me since 24 hours. 

"No I really should, I came here to apologize to you and now I owe you some more. I just cant ever make things work. Never" Why I always mess up? Why do I have so many issues? Why cant I get what I actually want once?

"No you dont, I know youre tensed for her too. Just dont think much. Focus on your work, I will take care of her" he assured me.

In an hour, I packed stuff and booked my flight back to London. 

Liam's Pov.

Its been 3 days since Harry came back, he has been terrible. He doesnt answer us, he never laugh or responds to jokes or any rude comments. The most he has spoken up in three days is told us to ask the details from Ed. He remains in his bed all day, his diet is ridiculously decreased, its nothing compared to before. Its our first concert tonight after his arrival, I just hope he gets better. Music always makes him more energetic, I remember it has always helped him.

We were going for soundcheck and this will prove us if we have to take extra care of Harry on stage later.

The sound check went awesome, Harry even laughed at one point, we were all really happy with the fact Harry would be all fine on stage like before, he has to be. I am sure he wont do anything to disappoint our fans.

Harrys POV

I wish I could have concert everyday, just standing here singing Up All Night gives me the pleasure. Ilove my job it makes me forget about so much stuff. The next was "I Would".

Liam started singing, and everything was fine until the chorus came.

"Would he say he's in L-O-V-E?

Well if it was me, then I would I would

Would he hold you when you're feeling low?

Baby, you should know that I would" 

FUCK! Do not think about her Harry, Do not. I kept scolding my self but fuck Niall's part.

"Back in my head we were kissin'

I thought things were going alright 

With a sign on my back saying 'Kick Me'

Reality ruined my life"

After that I was out, imganing stuff and trying to do my best not to cry. No Harry you cannot, forget about her. The next time I realized I was on stage was when it was my solo singing the chorus. I never sang it with more feelings, NEVER

Who fucking planned this tracklist? The next song felt like written on my and Taylor's story. Heart Attack.

I started, and again never felt this much before about this song.

"Baby, you've got me sick,

I don't know what I did.

Need to take a break and figure it out, yeah.

Got your voice in my head,

Saying let's just be friends,

Can't believe the words came outta your mouth, yeah."

Zayn's lines explained my condition.

"I'm trying to be okay,

I'm trying to be alright.

But seeing you with him,

Just don't feel right"

After the end of the song all I had in my mind was "Never thought it'd hurt so bad".

FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE. More than this people. Do I have to explain ?

I dont want to talk about any of the lyric and how the hell it killed me, I dont want to talk about how deep were my wounds hurt again. If I could fly back to her.

Loved you first.

It was next in the line, as if someone was trying his best to make me cry on the stage, by the end of more than this I was done wiping few tears, trying my best to hide before doing it.

"Harry, you can do this, just this song please then its all fun I promise. One thing, cmon cmon. Everything is great after just this song" Liam assured me while I was shaking my head trying to get her out of my head.

He was right, I did get through that song, and later everything was better, way better. She was never out of my mind, but at least not the rest of the songs were sad. Then came Moments, Over again type of songs but I was well in to all the rest that they didnt cut me deep.

We were done with the concert and were in the tour bus.

"You have to stop sleeping, talk to us" Niall insisted after a long time, I mean they didnt try to push me until today, now they see me being better after the conert so of course they will.

"Niall please dont take me back where I was before today, I will be back soon I promise"

"Harry move on. Thats all I can say. Go out. Do whatever you can to get her out of your mind, yes WHATEVER YOU CAN. just try. "

he is right, I have to try, I can get drunk and sleep with girls and I will forget about it, can it be this easy ??

"Take me out, Niall take me to clubs" I asked him and his lips turned in to a beautiful smile.

"Lets go" He stood up to tell the driver.

(A/n this chapter is mostly about how every song reminded him of her, I mean just try to be at his position and you will understand how much he must be hurt, I will use a lot of songs in this novel because to me feelings make more sense explained by songs, so thats how I will explain their conditions. Through songs :D do comment and vote because I update fast after that:) )