Just say it - a smosh fan fic ianthony boyxboy

Just say it - part 3

(Anthony's pov)

Our lips were centimetres away from each other.

More tears slid down my face. This is what I had always wanted...and it felt so... Right.

Ian gasped. He seemed worried about the consequences...and he was right. We both had girlfriends...

What was I thinking? I couldn't be with Ian. It would just be so,
hard.

I felt tears grow behind my eyes and my face tense, in a rush I flung my head over the side of Ian's shoulder and tightened my arms around him.

He was stiff, as if he hadn't expected me to hug him, and I don't blame him, it's not his fault that we can never be together.

I'd crushed both of our dreams.

I felt a single tear roll down his cheek.

"Anthony" he said, for the fith time.

"I'm sorry" this time I said it as a whisper, less angry with myself.

I stood up, not wanting to look back, and drifted silently out the door.

My mind was racing with a thousand thoughts. What had I done? Why is Ian so upset in the first place? Why do I feel differently about him now then I ever did before? So many unanswered questions...

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The TV was blaring on the wall in front of the bed, but I was barley listening.

Ian was lying next to me, with his head in a book on his pillow. He was so perfect.

I didn't know what to say to him, if I should say anything at all. It would only be a few more days and we'd be back at Ian's house, and everything would go back to normal.

"I missed you" Ian said, his head still in his book.

"I don't know what you mean" I lied, forcing a laugh.

It's only now in a long time that we'd been alone together, and we'd changed as much as each other.

Ian bit his lip. I could tell he didn't want to cry. And he was trying not to.

I didn't want to upset him, it pained me to see him so upset.

"Ian" it was such a familiar name. But now it had a whole new meaning, and it felt so different when I said it.

I slipped my hand into his, and wiped the tears from his eyes.

"Ian... I'm so sorry, whatever happens just know that..



I love you."


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I looked away from Ian, amazed at what I just said, and scared of what his reaction might be.

Both our
eyes were fogged with tears. I had a feeling that he understood me, that we were so alike. I always got that feeling when I was with Ian.

Ian slid his hands on my cheeks, and pulled my face towards him. We stared deep into each other's eyes.

His were beautiful, soft and blue, eyes I knew I would never forget.

I felt his hands tighten across my face, then let go all together.

"Anthony..." His voice trailed off and he landed with a soft 'thump' onto the bed.

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"Ian" I whispered.

"Ian..."
I could hear the concern strengthen in my voice.

"Ian?.... Ian?!"
I was panicking.

"Ian!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. Not knowing what else to do but yell.

I heard commotion in the room next to me, and then a yell.

Mari flew into the room, followed by David, Matt and Joshua.

They all looked tired but well alerted. Mari screamed.

"What did you do?!" She seemed so angry, and convinced it was my fault that Ian was like this. Matt was staring at Ian, petrified. David was red and frantically dialling 911.

"Ye...yes. Hi... Ambulance, tw... 23 Park a..avenue. Room 62 floor D. D...David. Okay uh...bye"

David finally finished the call and came over to the bed. Mari and Joshua pushed Ian over and were attempting to find his heartbeat.

I was still sitting on my side if the bed, a new stream of tears were flowing down my face. I leaned over towards Ian, Mari just pulled him away.

Joshua and Mari now had Ian's arm across their, shoulders, dragging him through the door.

I could hear sirens outside, and pulled myself out of thought and made my way out of the building.

Ian was now lying on the gravel in the car park, with Mari crouching over him. In the weak light from the moon, I could see that his face had rapidly lost colour.

Mari must have seen it too. She looked up at me. Her face was red from crying. "What the hell did you do to him..."

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A/N

Thanks for reading! I have a habit of finishing off chapters at the good bits. (muahahaha!)

I know half the things the characters said in this chapter were each other's names... But single words can be powerful!
Bye! See you next chapter!