The Skin I'm In: New Problems, Old Scars (Urban Fiction)

The Finale

(Kalifa)

Walking into that school, where nobody noticed me
Seeing the same faces that judged me,
Nobody asked me if I was ok, I don't think nobody cared
It all makes sense now, I'm was a nobody,
walking in the halls full of everybody's
Nobody seen the scars underneath my long natural thick hair
Nobody noticed the small cuts upon each of my wrist
Nobody heard the voices in my head telling me to let go, give up on life
Nobody cared, nobody paid attention
Even if I yell, scream, kick, scratch
Nobody cared that I've been raped almost every single day, since I was 12
This body I developed makes the man I called dad, dig deeper, pull harder, grab tighter, care lesser
The more I cried, the more he drives, shut up Kalifa, just be quiet, he'll move quicker
Don't cry, no Kalifa shut up, he's almost done
Not being able to express my pain verbally, so I cut
In the beginning they were small and steady and painful
Back then I cut to see flesh tearing away, it' was almost my high
I no longer cared about life itself, I prayed nightly that God would end it all
Help me God! Why am I still here?
But then again, nobody noticed me
nobody cared

Then bam, taking me right out of my thoughts, I'm stopped in my tracks as I collided with one man, boy, beast, who I've wanted to notice me for 3 years...

Ve'Quell...

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"I am so sorry!" He said while Picking up my books.

"It's ok, I think we ran into each other. Thank you." I grabbed my books and quickly turned away.

"Wait a minute, I'm Ve'Quell, what's your name?" He lightly pulled my arm so I could face him.

"Who doesn't know who you are? Kalifa." I smiled.

"Nice to meet you. What class you heading too?" He asked simply to keep our conversation going.

"Humanities, Mr.Leon."

"Me too." He smiled. "Walk with me?"

Ve'Quell and I spent the whole day getting to know each other. I always thought that he was cocky, concieted and grand, silly me.

"So what made you decide to talk to me? I mean I thought after you apologized you would just walk away." I blurted out, being honest.

"Well, they say a good opportunity nevers comes twice." He smiled at me.

"I really enjoyed you today Kalifa." He said while walking me to my locker.

"Same here." I smiled at him.

"Can I get your number? Maybe we can talk later?" He asked anxiously. I put my number in his phone and we said our goodbyes.

"Wow, what a day." I thought to myself as I headed to my bus.
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Now I'm sitting here looking at life drain from your body, My heart raced nearly pounding from my chest

My body shook uncontrollably as I breathed my last breath

You dying felt like I was dying too, the more I looked at you the more I felt a pull

I knew I had to stand straight and not fall, the baby girl in my hands could not lose it all

I have to live for her, I have to love through her

My daughter would never see daddy's handsome face or experience his loving ways

Damn how I wish she could get just one kiss, one hug, one warm touch

But until then I'll lay her on his chest, so maybe he will feel her

My baby cradled under his neck, drifting off to sleep

The way she stayed silent, the way she laid perfectly

I knew that she loved him

"Fuck! I don't want to let you go. We could've made it Q." I laid across his stomach, while Heaven's feet occasionally kicked my face. It didn't matter because this is what I want, what I need.

As I laid there, I knew I had to been seeing things, feeling things that weren't there,

I swear I saw his chest move, something isn't right

"Look! It happened again." I spoke to Heaven. "What is going on?"

I kissed his lips feeling some breeze hit my cheek,

"Ve'Quell, stop playing tricks on me." I smiled. I picked my daughter up, rocking her even though she's already sleep. Then I see his finger move then I screamed. "Nurse! Somethings happening in here!" I yelled into the halls.

"What is it?" Vince asked with a worried expression.

"Ve'Quell isn't dead, he's breathing, I saw him." He looked at me like I was crazy.

"Kalifa, we all wish that was true." Michele intercepted.

"Doctor just go look! He's still alive!" I yelled. Dr. Smith went and checked his vitals, the look on his face showed confusion and disbelief.

"She's right, he's breathing by himself. His heartbeat is normal, blood pressure is good. All I need now is for-" His eyes went bucked and I took a few steps closer. He flashed a light in his eyes. "His pupils are dilated. Come look! He's waking up!"

Yes, I knew he would fight for us.
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With love always, KarmaJane ❤️

This is the end of Kalifa and Ve'Quell's storyline as of now.