IM ALWAYS BESIDE YOU

TERRIBLE THINGS

CATES POV
My mum still hasent returned any of my calls its seriously stressing me out. First thing when we get back to aussie im seeing her Luke keeps telling me that its fine she just dosent wanna bug me. He tells me not to worry at all mostly I believe him theres still that small part of me thats scared. Luke was at soundcheck right now Lucy was tending to Carmen and Angel was skyping Sadie I called Liz maybe she can help. She usually can think of something what I needed was motherly advice.

"Whatever Luke did he dident mean it hes just stupid and he loves you" Liz greets me. I laugh"for once im not calling about Luke im calling about me" i tell her. "Whats wrong Catekins" Liz is the only other person besides Luke who can call me that. "My mum hasent returned any of my calls or texts in the past few weeks im worried about her. Luke keeps telling me not to be though" I explain"hmmm I see well I do think Luke is right however if itll ease your mind ill stop by today" Liz offers.

"Really thank you so much " I tell her "your welcome sweetie and you call me if Luke is annoying you more than usual." Liz told me I chuckle" call me when you find out more" I say and hang up I go to the backstage area. I watch old videos of the boys "Luke's just ready for marriage. He sucks at dateing just ask his girlfriend I feel bad for her" Mikey said. I laughed "why are you watching the atrosity that is my life" Luke questions."Cause I needed some cheering up" I state sadly Luke makes a bunch of faces at me.

It certainly helps"Catcha on the flip side" he does his eybrow trick"stop that was so awkward" "you love it"he sing talks away. Liz calls me back"hey liz" I greet I hear sniffling"Caitie honey idk how to tell you this" she starts. She was crying"whats wrong with her" "I went into the house and it was empty there was blood. It was all over the bathroom floor I called 000 Cates your mums been dead for 2 weeks. She killed herself" Liz said through tears just like that my seemily perfect world came crashing down.

I went to the corner of the room pulled my knees up and cried my mum....was gone....I never got to say goodbye....did my dad know....was there a funeral....so many questions. Why why did she do it why dident she say goodbye I was sobbing uncontrollably. "Cates are you okay" a voice asked I looked up it was Mikey I just kept crying and shook my head. "Do you want me to get Luke" he asked I shook my head no"hey talk to me is it Luke ill kill him"Mikey told me.

I shook my head no I couldent repeat it"go back to soundcheck" I tell him. "Hang in there whatever it is you can beat it" he kissed my cheek then left me to cry. Mikey understands that sometimes you just need to be alone and cry it out. Why my mother why her this is all my dads fault and my fault for believing Luke and Luke for convincing me she was fine. I was so angry and hurt more sobs came out ive never cried so much in my life. Why do terrible things happen.

"Calum Ash lets take the long way" I hear Mikey say. "Ok why" Ash questions"ill explain on the way". I hear footsteps I know its Luke "Catekins" he asked softly I just shook my head and cried more tears."Babe whats wrong" he asked I could see the worry and concern in his eyes nothing could stop my tears. Luke sat beside me and pulled me to his lap he dident say anything he just held me tightly. I cried into his ches still trying to process everything Luke kissed my forehead.

"What kind of cheese cant you take wait no shit what kind of cheese isent yours" Luke asks. Usually his jokes and funny faces worked to make me smile but i was so sad it dident. "Not even my jokes must be awful whatever it is" Luke mumbles I've been like this for a good 20 or so minutes. I just cant stop crying I cried until i fell asleep in Luke's arms. When I woke up were still on the floor Lukes scrolling through instagram."Hey you youre awake you doing okay" he asks still that same love and concern I looked into those pretty eyes of his and took a deep breath.

"I had Liz check on my mum when she got to the house there was blood all over the bathroom floor. She called 999 shes been dead for two weeks" I say tears falling down my face cold and sad. "Oh my god.....babe im.....holy....im so.....this is horrible" he finally got out. I felt tears hit me they arent mine theyre Luke's we just sat there forever Luke sometimes kissing my cheek or my forehead. He barely made it through the show without falling apart.