IM ALWAYS BESIDE YOU

TODAY

CATES POV
Today started out like any other day january 22nd is the date im just over 2 months. I woke up on top of Luke for once I dident have to puke today which was weird. I was grateful though so I showered once I was finished I headed over to lukes closet. I put on his red stripped t shirt and some of my shorts I topped it off my white converse."funny seeing you in here" Luke chuckled"I was gonna wear that t shirt today" he pouts.

"Im sorry you can your white one" i suggested"no I dont feel like matching" he replied. Luke grabs his white blink 182 shirt shorts and his snapback"wanna get some coffee" he asks" yeah lets go" I smile. Luke held my hand tightly"I thinks its a girl" he whispered as we walked"you want a girl" I say"I do. I want a girl so I can spoil her teach her things braid her hair and help her with make up. Fend off any guys" Luke smiled"aw thats really cute and girly" I tease he glares at me.

I find us a table and Luke orders for us suddenly a sharp pain ran through my stomach. I brushed it off im sure its nothing"are you okay catekins" Luke handed me my coffee"im fine" I reassure taking his hand. We sat in silence drinking our coffee"I start rehersals for tour in a week no pulling a Lucy on me and staying here i need you on tour" luke told me firm. we were walking back when my dad called but I hit decline I don't want to hear from him. I can't stand mandi if I was still living at home I'd get my own place so I don't have to deal with her.

My dad called again"someone's popular today" luke chuckles"its just my dad" I sigh. Luke smiles so big as we walk home his dimple showing so cute I wonder why he's so happy. He looks down at our hands and smiles my hands are always sweaty he's always holding my hand tightly. Luke's so cute hell always like look around to see if anyone's watching before he kisses me you know how many wake outs we've had behind buildings cause luke doesn't like PDA.

Too fucking many luke was still so smiley and now he's all giggly "luke" I question"yes" he looks at me"why you so giggly" I ask. "I was um not giggling nope not at all" he said awkward why did I marry this boy just why. "Why do you like hand holding so much" I blurt out"thanks kinda random Cates" he laughs. "Um I guess I ah like it so that if were like mobbed or there's paps or something. I um won't loose you yeah I won't loose you and cause it makes me feel reassured" Luke sighs.

"Today's going to be a good day I can feel it" luke said chipper. "Okay any particular reason why" I questions"um no no phish no reason there's absolutely no reason nope none whatsoever" luke stammers awkwardly and scratches his head. I reach up to steal his snapback but I can't cause he's too tall luke laughs at my fail."shut up luke" I roll my eyes he glares at me"fuck you" he mouths I giggle"I'm headed to Michael and angels today for video games" I tell luke. "Babe you went to calums yesterday and Lucy's on Monday I've hardly seen you" luke pouts.

"Hmm too fucking bad I promise tomorrow I'm all yours" I grin at him"fine have fun playing video games" luke mumbles. He doesn't talk to me for the remainder of our walk he's an idiot. luke gets mad at the dumbest shit"lukeyboo I'm leaving I love you" I kiss his cheek"I love you more Mrs hemmings" he sighs. I leave him on the couch "did you get the beer" I ask Mikey"yeah i got it mikes peach flavored. Are you sure this is allowed" he questions.

"Yeah I asked my doctor two days ago she said that I can drink one beer once a month so I've been pregnant for almost 3. I'll start showing soon I wanna get a bit tipsy Luke's been annoying me a lot gotta destress" I tell them. "I get it I mean I can only handle him in small doses" angel chuckles Mikey puts in a horror film called the uninvited. "It tastes soooo good" I comment man I've missed alcohol angel and Michael are both on their second one.

I chugged down my 3 so fast now I'm a bit tipsy"heyy guys I wanna parrtayy" I giggle. "Yeah let's partay" Mikey agrees so the three of us head out I was stumbling around and laughing. "God Cates you're even more of a light weight when your pregnant" angel teases"whatever shut up girly" I tease back giggling. "Guys why are there guys with black cameras up ahead" I half shout"shush it babes those are paps. Fuck we cant let them see you like this" michael scolds"well they seem friendly I'm gonna go say hi" I run off. "CATES GET BACK HERE" angel yells they follow me"Cates over here why are you stumbling".

"Why aren't you with luke" "oh I'm not with luke he's fucking annoying" I say. "Cates are you drunk aren't you pregnant" one asks" YOU KNOW WHAT I AM PREGNANT AND I MIGHT BE TIPSY. BUT IT BE MY FRUCKING CHOICE TO DO SO" I yell"cates shut the fuck up god damnit look what you've done. Lord knows what stories they'll come up with now" angel dasses me. "Scuse me must puke" I throw up on the sidewalk"alright time to go let's get you cleaned up" Mikey states. I drink water to sober up"oh my god Luke's gonna kill me" I say.

"We tried to run after you weren't fast enough" angel said"look it'll be fine luke will get over it. You should um wait to go home though" Mikey smiles"yeah I plan too let's go see the girl on the train" I suggest. It was a good film love me some good murder mysteries twitters gone mad the top stories are all about me. "Cates and luke divorcing why she's drinking" "luke hemmings wife wants to kill their baby" the FAM was sending tons of hate to me they are dissapointed.

"Do I have to face him" I whine"yes you do he loves you keep that in mind" Michael hugs me and so does angel. Luke was sitting on the couch resting his hands on the table his phone was in pieces by the wall. Hot damn he's pissed"hey lukey" I chuckle"don't. Just fucking don't with me. I'm so mad I can't even talk to you about why I'm mad. I'm gonna go downstairs. I'll come talk to you." Luke glares at me hard core his blue eyes filled with anger hurt and a hint of concern. "Okay" I sigh he leaves.

@cateshemmings I know you guys hate me right now.....but luke and I aren't getting a divorce....also I did drink while pregnant.
@cateshemmings my doctor said I could have one beer once a month....today I had 3 cause I'm almost 3 months....it was stupid and I regret it.

I'm hoping those will put the fans to rest for awhile ash's giggle played letting me know he was calling."hey ash"I answer"hey are you okay is the baby okay" he asked concerned"yeah I'm fine so is the baby. Luke's hella pissed though he won't even talk to me" I tell him"aw cheer up cates it was a mistake I know it won't happen again. I'm gonna come over I'll be there in 15 with Carmen and some ice cream" ash giggles"alright sounds good ash" I say. "Carmen so big at one years old" I coo "cat" she exclaims "aww what a cute nickname for me" I laugh ash and I sit and watch project runway. "Ash why are you here with carmen where's Lucy" I ask"at home she wanted alone time" ash smiles. "Awe so sweet ash thanks for cheering me up too" I smile back.

"That outfit is horrendous" ash laughs"right I was just thinking that" I say laughing also. Luke pops up"just getting food. Don't fucking talk to me. Just pretend I'm not here" he grits and glares ash looks at me sympathetic. "Holy shit cates I've never seen him this mad" ash comments"yeah same" I mumble we watch a few more episodes. I fall asleep on ash in the middle of the third one and dident wake up til morning still cuddling ash"hey Mrs hemmings what a beautiful day it is" he said chipper.

"What's the time" I yawn"8:30 am" he replies"oh damn that's early" I groan"yeah wanna get coffee. I know luke always brings you coffee or you guys go get it together. This morning he left at 7am said for me to tell you to not expect anything I'm sorry cates" ash says softly. "Its my fault coffee sounds nice let's go" I smile and change my clothes then we head out I drop off ash and carmen afterwards. Ugh I feel so guilty and bad luke still hasn't returned I think I know where he is though.

I walk over to our park he was there smiling and signing things for fans he seemed happy. The fans are mending all the pain I've caused him I don't know what to do so I continue to stare. God he's so handsome I wanna touch him and cuddle him and kiss him so bad the fans leave and then he goes back to the swings. I approach him slowly he sees me huffs and leaves"luke don't walk away from me please I feel so bad" I call out. He doesn't turn around I start to cry I need my husband.

I stay at the park for awhile he won't answer my calls or texts I'm so desperate I might tweet him. I spend the rest of the day alone binge watching netflix until I fall asleep on the couch again.