A/N hello queers and supporters of queers welcome back to my oneshots y'all already know this shits gonna be based on my life so enjoy or don't. I actually dont give two shits but ily anyway :)
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"Why are you all of a sudden caring about my social life?" I question my Mum, leaning as far back as I could in this crummy car seat.
"Troye, you don't talk to anyone outside of that phone and I swear it's not healthy," She answered. I could tell she rolled her eyes at me as if I already knew that. I did. But even so, she was wrong because health wise, I knew I was perfectly fine.
I didn't need friends that I had to be awkward around.
My phone took that awkward away.
Queer club was not the answer to my imaginary problems.
It was the problem.
I am okay.
I am.
"It's not going to be that bad Tro, your psychologist says that they're are all very accepting and exploring there sexuality too," she says as she parks her car.
I was gay. I wasn't exploring gay.
I hugged my mum goodbye and told her I'd text her when I wanted to leave. She said she would pick me up at 3:00. It was only 1:00.
I sighed and walked towards the door as a boy with bright dark green hair and makeup opened the door and smiled. "Hey you must be Troye is it?" He said. "Yeah hi," I said quietly. "Hi my name's Joey, I'm one of the councillors here. I'll introduce you to everyone but first can you just fill out your age and pronouns?" He smiled as he handed me a clipboard.
No one ever asked me of my pronouns.
I gave Joey an awkward smile as I handed him the clipboard and he showed me into a small room that looked like a little apartment which screamed pride. Literally, there were pride flags of all sexualities, non-gender bathrooms and a little closet full of rainbow clothes.
As I walked in I felt at least 15 pairs of eyes on me. Or they could've been looking at Joey but I suspected otherwise.
"So this is our crew," Joey said. "There's Ben J. and Alexis who are like the most hilarious dorks ever," He said pointing to a boy wearing a pink sweatshirt next to a girl with short hair and a red flannel.
"And Dan and Phil, who we're all pretty sure have thing going on but they won't tell," He whispered in my ear as he pointed out two boys with almost the same hair cut that were scrolling through Tumblr together.
"And oh here's Connor, he's kind of obsessed with photography and music, it's adorable," He said as Connor looked up and gave Troye a cute smile.
"And I'm sure you'll meet everyone else soon enough, I've actually got to head out but my boyfriend Daniel, who's also a councillor, is just over there if you need anything," He said, leaving rather quickly.
"Hi there," Connor said. "What's your name?"
"I'm Troye, with an e," I said giving him a half hearted smile.
"That's so cute, sorry if Joey was being a bit to enthusiastic, he just loves it when new people come," Connor said giggling.
"No it was fine at least I sort of know some people's names now," I said.
I looked beside him and noticed a really expensive camera.
"Is that yours?" I whisper.
"Yeah," He giggles again "I kind of really like photography but it's just a fun hobby I do, nothing that really earns me anything,"
"Can I look at your pictures?" I asked quietly.
"Well of course," He said opening up a
file on his computer.
The pictures were breath taking. Surely Connor didn't believe that his photo's wouldn't make him any money, did he?
"You're really good, I wish I had your talent," I mutter as I scroll through the photos.
"It's not much of a talent but thank you, do you have any "Talents" as you would say?" Connor said swinging the strap of camera around his neck.
"Well I sing and song write a little," I say quietly, embarrassed.
"Would you sing something for me?" Connor asked.
"I don't think I could," I say sinking
into one of the seats in front of me.
"Sure you can, no ones really listening except me," He smiled, his teeth shone like little white diamonds.
I hated being so introverted. This guy, that I had known for less then a few minutes, was actually trying to get to know me and all I could do was be shy and blush like I didn't know what the hell he was on about.
I really wanted to sing for him.
"Please Troye," He said placing his hand on my thigh making me blush a shade that was quite unknown.
I coughed," I could try,".
He smiled his gorgeous smile as I opened my mouth.
Take me back to the basics and the simple life,
Tell me all of the things that make you feel at ease
your touch, my comfort and my lullaby
Holding on tight
We're sleeping at night
"I've never heard that song before," Connor said when I had finished.
I blushed even more deeply then I had before. He didn't even say if he liked it.
"Um well it's actually my own song," I said.
"Troye that's actually incredible, would you every consider showing other people your talent," Connor asked, his eyes locked on mine.
"I don't think so, singing is such a personal thing for me," I blurt out without thinking.
"Well then I guess you'll just have to sing for me then," He smiled.
"I guess so,"
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Hello I know that was extra especially shitty
I promise I tried
Anyway
If you are bored or just regular decent people it would be great if you could check out my new book , baby boy
I'm really excited for it
I love you all
