[Unexpected]

7 - Confused

KATE'S POV

"Umm.. guys.." Bumalik na si Khlea. "Sino daw yun?" Darius asked at nagulat ako nang nakita ko si Zander.

I looked down and Darius suddenly held my hand. "Zander, nandito ka pala?" He said.

"Ah, sorry di ko nasabi. Bumisita lang ako since nandito kayo lahat." He said with a smile.

Kahit na ni-reject niya ko kahapon, nakangiti pa rin siya.. Ang daya naman oh. Ako, sobrang broken hearted ko habang ikaw ang ganda ganda ng ngiti mo.

Biglang tumahimik ang paligid. Pero agad na nagsalita si Lia. "S-So.... Nag breakfast ka na ba?"

"Yup. Kakagaling ko lang sa Starbucks kanina e. Guys, practice tayo mamaya ha?"

Mukhang nasa mood siya ngayon ah? Parang walang nangyari kahapon.

"Sige dude. Huhugasan lang namin yung mga plato." Jake said.

"Sure. Maghihintay na lang ako sa Living room." He left and they all sighed in relief.

"Kate, umakyat ka na sa taas, kami nang bahala dito." Khlea said.

"Thanks." I stood up and went to the rooftop alone.

Alam nila ang nararamdaman ko kaya pina-akyat nila ako dito.

Biglang humangin ng malakas at nagulo ang buhok ko. Agad kong inaayos ang buhok ko at may narinig akong footsteps from behind.

"Nandito ka lang pala. Gusto kasi kitang kausapin."

Ba't nandito siya? Ba't nandito si Zander? Anong gagawin ko? Ayokong nanamang mag mukhang tanga sa harapan niya.

ZANDER'S POV

I actully feel so bad for rejecting her confession. Pero, kaibigan lang talaga ang turing ko sa kaniya.

Ayokong mag panggap na may gusto rin ako sa kaniya dahil sa huli, mas lalo siyang masasaktan.

"Galit ka ba sakin?" I asked her and she slowly shook her head.

"Ako naman may kasalanan nito e. Kung sana lang.. di na ko umasa pa.."

I can feel her sadness. Should I leave her alone? But, I don't feel like leaving her again tulad ng ginawa ko kahapon.

"Bakit kaya ang daling ma-fall in love pero ang hirap mag move on?" She suddenly asked.

"I don't know either. I never fell in love before. Mahirap ba ma-fall in love? Ano bang feeling ng ma-fall inlove?"

She suddenly smiled. Honestly, it was a different smile. It was a beautiful one, I suddenly felt.. strange?

When she smiled, parang nag sparkle bigla yung aura niya.

"It's the best feeling ever, Zander. But, it will also give you the worst feeling."

"Oh.. like when I rejected you?"

She sighed. "I hate to admit it but, yes. And.. honestly.. I'm trying to endure it."

I looked down. "How about.. paano malalaman kung nag ka-gusto ka na sa isang tao?"

"Um.. Pag nakikita mo siya, lagi kang sumasaya kahit gaano ka man kalungkot, lagi siyang nasa isip mo, laging siya ang bukang bibig mo, pag naririnig mo ang boses o pangalan niya bumibilis ang tibok ng puso mo, pag kausap mo siya medyo ninenerbyos ka.. basta, marami pa."

I slowly nodded my head. "Have you moved on already?"

"Not really.. that's not that easy."

"Ganiyan ba talaga kahirap mag mahal?" I asked.

"Oo, pero masarap." She smiled again.

She looked up at the sky, smiling while the wind is blowing up her hair. "I hope.. na magkaroon na ko ng true love. Masakit man sabihin pero, sana maranasan mo na ring ma-fall in love." She looked at me with a beautiful sad smile on her face.

I didn't know that she have this kind of smile. Her eyes are like crystals and her cheeks are rosy, her beautiful lips are pink and her eyelashes are perfectly curved.

This is the first time that I really looked at her face directly.

It's strange, because it feels so different.

It's like.. I'm feeling what she told me last time.. about how do you know if you're falling for someone.

Hindi.. Baka naaawa lang ako sa kaniya.

But, if this is "falling in love" then, bakit ang bilis naman? I have to know what I'm feeling right now. I have to know, I'm so confused.