Harmonic Sync

Chapter 10: Forgive Me

                  

For a few days I went without speaking to Sync, unable to comprehend all the emotions building up inside of me every time I saw him. I mean there was a part of me that just wanted to forgive him and go back to being friends, but after everything he said and about everything he said about himself.

Finally, I knew today was the day I had to tell him everything about myself. He was going to probably think I'm messed up and never want to talk to me again, but he had to know the truth. He's been my friend since I was a kid.

"Hey Sync." I said lightly after he had finished speaking with Arietta and Legretta.

"Hey." He said lightly, probably not wanting to mess anything up now that I was speaking to him.

"Can we talk?" I asked. He nodded and we walked to the edge of the ship looking out on the land around us. "Look I'm sorry for how I've been treating you for the last couple of days, but I needed to sort everything out in my head before I did anything stupid." He looked at me.

"Did anything stupid?" I nodded.

"I'm going to tell you everything I told Asch." He looked shocked.

"Zora, if you don't want to you don't have to. I saw how it made you feel when you told Asch and how you almost threw yourself off the Tartarus. If it's going to cause you that much pain, I- "

"I want to." He went silent. "Well to start I guess I should tell you about my Fonic Artes." He looked at me confused.

"Your Fonic Artes? I thought they were just normal healing artes?" I shook my head.

"Unfortunately not. My fonic artes are said to be those of the Goddess herself. In the Score it is said that I will be the savior of this world. But I never wanted to be this world's savior after my mother and sister died. I guess that's why they disappeared, because I had lost faith in humanity. My mother and sister were everything to me, I blamed the future husband of my sister for their deaths, but more than that I blame the Score. That's when I was confined to the castle, I wasn't allowed to leave after my mother and sister died. It was also then that I asked Jade to teach me how to use different styles of fighting. But then...it started."

"What started?" He asked a little scared to hear the answer.

"The drinking and the hitting. My father became distraught with their deaths, he started drinking which in turn led him to take that anger and frustration out on me. I wasn't good enough for him even when Lily was still alive. I could never live up to what she was, I could never be her and that is what infuriated him. In a sense I was nothing more than a replica of my sister, but a flawed and imperfect one. One that couldn't do the job she was given...that's why I didn't want to live any longer. I knew the longer I was around the worse it was going to get, but then Arietta came and I knew I couldn't abandon her, so I endured the pain and suffering for years. I guess along the way I lost myself as well..." I finished and looked at Sync. He had a straight face and then a sharp sting appeared on my cheek.

"The hell are you hitting her for?!" I heard Asch growl from nearby.

"You, idiot! You know damn well that you're more than just a replica for Lily!" Everyone froze on deck and looked at us. I smiled lightly and touched my cheek.

"I guess you're right, but is it really fitting for you to call me that when you're a bigger idiot than I am?" He rolled his eyes and then smiled a little.

"I wouldn't know anything about that." I giggled a little.

"Of course you wouldn't." I rubbed the sting away and looked at the sky.

"Zora, I'm sorry about everything." He said finally and I smiled lightly.

"Asch was right you know. When you see yourself differently then you'll see why I was angry enough to care." I looked at him lightly.

"Yeah I see it now, I saw how you were treating yourself and I couldn't help but be angry with how you saw yourself. I get it." I looked at the sky.

"Then you understand why I hate seeing the way you see yourself, you're more than you think you are and more important than you think, at least to me you are."

"Zora." I looked to my left sharply and saw Van standing there.

"Van."

"I want you to do something for me." I looked at him confused. That's when I felt pain in my head. I dropped to one knee gripping it tightly.

"Zora!?" Sync called out but his voice sounded so far away. Everyone had disappeared from my vision and all I saw was light everywhere.

"Where am I?" I wondered as I looked around.

"Welcome, Zora. Or should I say the light of the heavens."

"Who said that?!" I called out looking everywhere for the source of the voice.

"My name is Yulia."

"Yulia?! As in the one who read the Score to the world?! That Yulia?"

"That is correct, I must tell you of what is to come for this world..."

"I don't care what happens to this world, it is because of your damn Score that my mother and sister are dead." I growled.

"Zora, you must understand that, that was all for the purpose of letting humanity continue. You have a powerful role to play in this world and if you destroy the world then everything will be thrown off...forever."

"Don't know, don't care. Let everything get thrown away that's what the point of this journey has been."

"At what cost? The deaths of your mother and sister? Or the deaths of every living person on this planet?"

"Life and death are two sides of the same coin, what does it matter if people die before their time? They are just going to die anyways in some pointless war or another fall of a land."

"The one who seeks to seize glory really has corrupted the best of the world..." And with that the light vanished and when I could see straight again I was looking at Sync and Asch, who were leaning over me as if I was dead.

"Are you alright?" Asch asked when he saw I was awake.

"Yeah, I'm fine. What happened?" Sync helped me sit up.

"We should be asking that question, you just knelt over like something was causing you pain and then you were out like a light." Sync explained. I touched my head lightly, a slightly aching pain was there, but other than that nothing.

"I don't know really. I just got a really bad headache all of a sudden, then black." I lied a little. I mean who would have believed me if I had said that Yulia had spoken to me other than Van and something about what she said bothered me.

The one who seeks to seize glory really has corrupted the best of the world...could she have been talking about Van? If so, then Yulia wasn't on the side of Van, someone who using her Fonic Artes.

"Sync, take her below deck to rest. She looks pale." Van said lightly and looked at me worried. Sync picked me up and started to carry me down below.

"I'm alright really." He shook his head.

"You look about really to pass out again." I felt sick to my stomach and for some reason all I could think about was my mother and sister and about their deaths.

Was Yulia right? Was I really making the wrong choice? Or was Van right? The Score truly was a horrible thing, but was it so horrible as to kill everyone to do away with it? I don't know anymore. I need to sleep; I'm going to be sick if I think any more about this right now.