Harmonic Sync

Chapter 11: Our Choices

                  

When I woke up later no one was in the room. I thought about Yulia's words once more but decided to push it out of my head for the time being. I wasn't in the mood to get a headache because of something I didn't yet understand.

I rose from the bed and started heading towards the door.

"Arietta, I understand you want to see her, but right now she isn't in the most fit position for visitors." I heard Sync say from outside of the room.

"But Sync, she's my sister and if anyone should get to see her it's me." I opened the door and the two looked at me quickly.

"You two don't have to worry about me. I'm fine." Sync frowned a little.

"Are you sure you're ready to move around?" I nodded once and then started heading for the stairs to go up to the deck. "Van wanted to see you when you woke up. He's on the bridge." I waved back lightly and headed to the bridge once I was on the deck.

Legretta and Largo had turned when I walked in and then finally Van looked at me.

"How are you feeling?" He asked lightly.

"Better. What is it you wanted to see me about?" He signaled for Legretta and Largo to leave, once they were gone he looked at me harshly.

"I felt Yulia's presence when you collapsed to the ground, what happened?" I sighed.

"To be perfectly honest I don't know myself. I mean I heard Yulia's voice, but what she was saying made no sense to me. She continued to say that I had to stop what I was doing or the entire world would be destroyed, but I knew that when I joined your cause. I don't want anything else." Van nodded once and then put a hand on my shoulder.

"Zora, I know everything has changed for you, but with what you are supposed to do in the Score I know you have two destinies that you could follow. This one and the Score's one. It's entirely up to you which one you choose. But remember that every choice has its own outcomes." He walked out of the room and I was left to process what he had just told me.

"Our choices have their own outcomes and mine have the outcome of what happens to this world...Yulia, I understand now what you were telling me, but I don't know what to do anymore. Do I continue to follow Van? Or do I go to help Jade and the others? All these questions but with no answers yet..." I turned and started heading towards the door.

"You do realize you have other choices than just those." I turned and saw Asch standing there.

"So you heard that entire conversation between Van and I. So what do you think I should do?" I asked. He shrugged his shoulders.

"You see, my life has already been decided for me, but I still have choices in my life. As do you, but the think is others can't make those choices for you. Sure we can place our opinions but in the end only you can decide what it is you want to do in your life. Either way, there's going to be consequences to your actions." He walked out of the room before I could say anything else, but his words stuck in my head along with Van's and Yulia's.

The only question I had left to answer was what do I want to do.

I shivered as I walked outside and into the blinding sunlight. I saw Arietta, Legretta and Sync all talking by the railing. I looked out at the world around. It was beautiful, but was it truly what should be here? I didn't know anymore.

"You, poor little child, so much on your shoulders that you can't decide on a course of action." I rolled my eyes as Dist appeared next to me.

"Dist, I'm not in the mood for your annoying mouth." He chuckled.

"What if I told you there was a way to uncover the truth?" I looked at him and shook my head.

"I would call you an idiot, because I know you Dist. All you want is to follow whatever ideals you have and I don't trust you." He glared at me.

"Now why wouldn't you trust me?" I rolled my eyes and started walking away.

"I could only imagine." Once I was by Sync and the others I felt the wavering fears come back to me.

"Hey Zora, what was it Van wanted to talk to you about?" Sync asked.

"I can't say, forgive me." I went to the railing and gripped it tightly.

What should I do...do I continue this life or do I abandon it entirely? I don't know what to do anymore...

"Zora?" I turned my head and saw Arietta looking at me worried.

"Yes?"

"Are you feeling alright, you look like you're going to be sick." I nodded and let go of the railing.

"I'm fine, just a little tired still. I think I'm going to go for a walk." I walked away from them and looked at the ground as I walked.

"You look terrible." I looked up at the voice and saw Asch again.

"Thanks...girls love hearing that..." I joked lightly.

"There you go again trying to act tough, I know you're conflicted, why can't you just trust us enough to ask us for help?" I sighed.

"It's not that I don't trust you all, I have to decide for myself. You said so yourself, but it's so hard to figure out what I should be doing. I mean what if everything I'm doing right now is wrong and I will destroy everything that I should be protecting?" I wondered.

"Well that's just something you'll have to figure out as you go, but how will you know if you are going by idly like this? You look like a zombie right now. Eventually everyone is going to find out something is wrong with you, so figure it out soon." I rolled my eyes.

"Thanks for the pep talk." He chuckled.

"That's more like it." I walked to the back of the ship and looked out at the land disappeared behind us.

I have to make a choice, but I know I have to think carefully about it, because if I choose wrong then everything will go to hell literally. But what is the right choice? The God-Generals or Jade? All I know at the moment is I have a big choice to make and I have to make it soon.