døg/rabbit~~tysh/jøshler fic

Breathe Me

CastawayJoshler wrote SOME GOOD SHIT RIGHT HERE SO BLESS HER FUCKING SOUL OK

It's been a week.

A whole fricking week since I seen Josh. Well I mean I did fucking jack off to the thought of him while screaming his name. Fuck I'm so stupid.

Dr. Martinez has been the one to bring me my pills every morning, Josh never made me take them. I don't like being so doped up I can't think straight, and he knew that.

The door clicks and I look up in hopes of seeing Josh, but I'm disappointed as I'm met with split blonde and black hair. Time to be drugged up.

"Here. You know the drill," she says handing me a plastic cup of water and a my pills. I'm done with her, I'm done with this place, I'm done with myself, I'm down with being controlled, I'm done.

I take the pills and throw them across my cell as she turns to walk away along with the cup of water," I'm not taking them."

She turns on her heels and stares at me, "excuse me?"

"You heard me. I'm done with you drugging me and controlling me. I refuse to take the pills," I scream as I feel my vision blur.

I don't even try to fight blurry. Josh isn't here to help me and I want blurry to take control. I want these people to see what they're doing to me. I want them to see.

I feel my soul start leaving as I fall to my knees screaming in pain. Doc. Martinez falls to her knees next to me and I can faintly feel her rubbing my shoulders. I raise up and grab her by her throat smiling wickedly.

She gasps in surprise and I feel my grip tighten as she squirms under the pressure.

They should have never took Josh away from me.

She screams for help and I tighten my grip at a deadly pressure. Her eyes become wide and frantic as the sirens sound. I'm smiling as I look into her eyes and see the fear that resides in there.

I want her to feel this pain. I want her to feel like I feel. Hopeless and scared.

I have no power to fight blurry because I want this. I want him to create fear through this whole building and its staff. I don't want to stop. They haven't seen what blurry can actually do. I've never let him run freely before.

"Tyler, stop. Please stop. Please," I look up to see Josh and he's approaching me slowly. His hair's red now, but he's still beautiful.

I feel myself wanting to fight blurry as I begin to shake like I'm undergoing an exorcism; which I kind of am.

"Tyler, please don't do this. This isn't who you are. You're a good person, Ty. Blurry's the one you're not, you can fight him Tyler. I'm here to help you take him out,"

I gasp for air as I quit breathing and Melanie's limp figure falls along with mine. I fall to the floor coughing and spluttering tying to breathe. I claw at my throat in attempt to unclog my airway, but I still can't breathe.

"Tyler, are you okay. What's wrong? Why can't you breathe? Tyler!" He says wrapping me in his arms as I continue to struggle.

I lock his gaze and silently beg him to do something, anything. He leans down and starts blowing air into my lungs. My lungs are forced to take in his air as they start to feel and deflate.

His lips taste like mint bubblegum and I let my eyes flutter shut.

"Tyler, are you okay?" He says leaning back and staring into my eyes. My heart beat quickens, but I feel bile in my throat.

I quickly scramble out of his arms and to my small bathroom. I can hear him follow close behind. I sit on the back of my heels and haunch over the toilet emptying whatever contents may be in it.

I spit up blood. The water is stained a dark red and I can't help but to shake as my body becomes limp.

"Oh my god, Tyler," Josh says as he grabs me and carries me to my bed and holds and close. I tremble as he wraps us in a blanket and whispers soothing words.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," I whisper repeatedly as I cling to him as ugly sobs erupt from my throat.

"It's not your fault, Ty. Hey, it's not your fault," he says softly running his hands through my hair.

"Josh, I didn't want to fight him. I wanted this to happen. Josh I'm a horrible person. You keep me from going insane. I'm sorry. I'm sorry," I cling to his shirt as he traces patterns on my lower back.

"Shh, Tyler you just had enough. It's okay to lose control sometimes."

"Josh! Tyler! What in the fucking hell is going on here?" Doctor Urie screams as he lowers himself next to Melanie's limp body that's barely breathing.

"You. I told you, you couldn't fucking drug him. He had enough and he exploded. This is all your guys fault. You asked for it and you got what you deserved," Josh seethes as he lets go of me and stalks towards doctor Urie's smaller frame.

"You're fucking fired," Doctor Urie seethes as he holds Melanie's limp frame in his arms.

I fall to my knees screaming even though my throat is already hoarse.

"You can't do that! I need him," I yell as I cry on the floor hopelessly.

Brendon shrugs his shoulders with an unamused face, "I can and I just did. You need medical help kid, not a good fuck."

"If you fire him you're going to have to kill me. I refuse to fight blurry without him. I will quit fighting and let him consume me. I don't want to lose Josh," I say shaking violently.

Brendon looks at me in surprise as I stand my ground,"What?"

"I'm not fighting blurry anymore if you take someone I love away from me. He's the only one that hasn't left and he helps me.He makes me believe I can get better. Please, I'm begging of you, don't take him away from me."

Doctor Urie just shakes his head and looks at me in shock,

"Fine, lover boy can stay. I can't afford to have anyone else getting hurt," he mutters as he leaves holding Melanie in his arms.

"Tyler, I love you too," Josh smiles at me showing the crinkles by his eyes that I love.

I blush and I swear I can't stop embarrassing myself in front of this man.

"Would you mind if I kissed you?" Josh says hovering his lips above mine. My heart beats dangerously fast and my eyes flutter close, "please."

He doesn't hesitate and our lips collide with the purest intention. Our lips work together in perfect sync as we explore each other. He sucks on my bottom lip and catches it between his teeth; softly biting it.

I gasp at the subtle gesture and wrap my arms around his neck as our tongues fight for dominance. I finally give in and let him win as he gently pushes me back against my bed and hovers above me. Our lips only part for a single second to take in air.

We're engaged in a full on make out session as he hovers above me and kisses me. I kiss back with as much passion as I can and he accidentally juts his hips into mine. I moan loudly into his mouth as I buck my hips to meet his.

Josh's small moans and pants during our kissing sessions was enough to get me hard, but now I'm painfully throbbing against my boxers.

"I, uh, Josh," I try to say but it comes out as a desperate whine in his ear. I can feel his shaky breath against my neck. With him laying between my hips I can feel his erection poking my thigh making me want him more than ever before.

"Josh, we need to stop," I pant heavily as he kisses the skin right below my collarbone.

"Yeah, we do," he agrees and falls beside of me panting heavily.

We lay there with our hands in between us and he slowly takes my hand into his.

"Thank you Josh."

AHHH AGAIN CastawayJoshler is actually MY DAD SO HAPPY FATHER'S DAY LMAO