Unexpected Turn. [h.s. & n.h.]

Chapter 31

Day 13/Part 2

ALLIE'S POV

He lay peacefully, I could see a new white bandage had been wrapped around his head, yet his brown curls still managed to drape slightly over his face. Seeing him lay so still without stirring made me think about all the night's I spent with him, we both always had trouble sleeping, I am always the one with awful night mares, I would wake up crying, to scared to go back to sleep again, but Harry would always get up out of bed to get me a glass of water and a cold cloth to cool my burning forehead down, then he would pull me closely into his arms, stroking my cheeks with his thumb, whispering "everything is going to be okay Allie, you don't need to be afraid, I am right here." and "I will hold you so close that no demons can get into your head, you're safe with me." Of course I was always able to fall asleep again, I would be safe in his arms, his head would be nuzzled into my neck and he would always hum quietly to help me fall asleep. Then there were nights where Harry just wasn't able to sleep, no matter what. I would be sound asleep and then he would whisper in my ear, "Al if I can't sleep then you can't either, it's unfair. Wake up." I would wake up to see these green eyes, full of life and energy, and a small smile with bright dimples, on these nights of no sleep we would binge watch a Netflix TV series, or we would pull of the guitars and write short songs. Even on the nights Harry could sleep, he almost always stirred. But when he was curled up with me he wouldn't stir a bit, legs tangled, arms draped and my hair in his face, we wouldn't move at all.

I felt Louis grip on my hand tighten, and just like that I was snapped back into reality.

"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly at his pale sight.

"I just, I never thought this would ever happen to someone I know, and now it's happened and I still don't even know how to process it, and I am terrified one day I am going to receive the call none of us want." He spoke quietly.

"I know Lou, I get scared half to death every time my phone rings," I sighed, "but we have each other to lean on, we have an amazing group of friends and I think if we all keep supporting each other we will get through this, and Harry, well Harry is going to pull through, he has too." I fight back the tears.

"Danielle has been amazing and understanding through all of this, I'm thankful I have her," a tiny grin appeared as he spoke about her, "I haven't been in Harry's room alone, I always get scared in a way, scared that I will be in there alone and something will happen, but I think I am ready to face him alone."

"I'll be out here okay? If you need me just call me in." I told him.

He released he trip on my hand and walked inside Harry's room meanwhile took a seat on the seat outside the room, my eyes were heavy, my whole body felt like it could give out at any second. I let out a long yawn and rubbed my eyes to stop the watering.

I pulled out my phone again and decided to reply to the two texts I didn't reply to earlier.

To: Irish kid

"Seriously? You could have waited... next time I start a show I am watching alone. Louis and me are still at the hospital, Harry is okay and stable, Lou is in with him now but I am going to write him a letter, I am also planning on sleeping the entire fucking day, I haven't slept in like 24 hours and my head hurts... I want to nap in your bed, its WAY more comfortable than my mattress; you bought me the shittiest mattress ever mate."

To: Payne in the arse

"Hi Liam, I am so sorry for earlier, you have nothing to apologize for, all you wanted to do is help and I went all mental on you. I am just exhausted and sometimes I feel like everyone just treats me like I am this helpless, broken person. Harry is okay, I am going to go back to Niall's soon to catch up on some much needed sleep. Well go to coffee soon if you'd like, it'll be on me."

I placed my phone back into my front pocket, then I unzipped the main pocket, grabbing my ink pen and my journal, I always go in to talk to Harry, I wanted to write him a letter, so that when he wakes up he can know exactly how I was feeling on this day.

5:52 AM

Wednesday, January 13th

Harry,

You gave me quite the scare tonight, you need to stop doing that, I think I have had enough scare for a lifetime. I feel like the only time I am honest with my feelings is when I write them on a piece of paper, for the past two weeks I haven't been honest about my feelings with anyone, I leave the half of it out because I don't get the point of spilling every feeling and emotion I have, you were the one you taught me how to let people in, and to actually talk about how I feel. Now you're not here. So what's the point? I don't want to turn into the old Allie but I sense that I am becoming her again, you made me a better person, you taught me how to love myself and how blossom. To be completely honest Harry, I am scared for so many fucking reasons, I am scared to death that you are going to die on me, that I am going to get that phone call and not even know what to do, that I wont even believe what they are telling me. Full on denial. Then I am also scared of myself, that I wont be able to move on, that I will be stuck in this hell, that I am going to start heavily drinking and end up dead myself. I am so young; I don't want to be this scared. Everything is so out of order and everything in my head just feels jumbled and out of order, the one this I am so certain about is how much I love you.  I never thought I would truly be head over heels in love, but I am. You are everything I ever hoped and dreamed of. I know that when you wake up, and I get to kiss you for that first time again it'll be like that first time. Do you remember that? I called you late at night because I was having a panic attack; you rushed over to my apartment and calmed me down so quickly. You told me to put a jacket on and to come with you, you took me to a 24hour diner and we ordered me blueberry pancakes with extra whipped cream and chocolate chips to make me feel better, I remember knowing in that moment that you cared so much about me and that made me so nervous but happy. Then after the pancakes we walked around in the dark city streets, until we found a small bench looking to the London Bridge. It was a cold night so you pull me close to you and held me tightly, holding my hands in yours to warm them up. I had my head leaned against your shoulders. Then you pulled me out of my trance, "Allie?" you whispered, I started to feel giddy and my stomach flipped upside down. I lifted my head and turned toward your face, I could see your cold breath and your eyes glistening. Then you kissed me. I felt sparks, fireworks just every single exploding thing. It was full of passion and love, and we were both eager for it. That's how we are going to kiss again when you wake. I miss you Harry, my heart aches because you aren't here, that sounds cheesy, you know I hate cheesy but I mean it. Also this is something I really need to tell you, but you can't be angry with me, I was having a bad day and I came to see you and Kate was here!!  She was all like "what me and Harry was real" and "we are all so worried about you Al". I seriously question why you ever dated her, she just so fake and STUPID, anyways like I said I wasn't having a good day. So I hit her, but opened handed so it didn't hurt :-) don't hate me.

I love you so much Harry, get well soon, please.

-A

6:14AM

A/N I AM SORRY FOR THE SHORT CHAPTER. I swear the next ones will be long because there is a lot of detail and new charters coming into the book, which I am really excited about and i hope you guys are too. I am extremely busy over the next two weeks so I am going to try to write 3 chapters though this week so I can just post them without having to work on them anymore, I was also thinking about writing a flashback chapter sometime soon, I hope you all had a good start to the week and enjoyed this short chapter. AGAIN longer chapters coming soon... -A