Unexpected Turn. [h.s. & n.h.]

Chapter 24

ALLIES JOURNAL

1:08 am

I don't know how to explain the feeling of missing someone you love. I don't quite understand it myself, you're all happy and in love, you wake up with them every single morning, you have daily routines, you constantly have their taste lingering on your lips and then one day that just ends. You wake up alone in the morning and the mattress is still sunken in on the right side, the evidence of them sleeping there just the night before is still there. You can't taste them on your lips anymore and all you want is that feeling back, that feeling of another person's soft lips pressed against yours. You crave their touch, like having their masculine arms wrapped around your small body holding you close, because when they hold you, you feels so safe and loved. Or the feeling of their hands running up your body, it gives you shivers and goose bumps. You miss everything about them, every small detailed thing. I feel like a piece of me is missing, the feeling of love and happiness seems to have disappeared. A tear rolls down my cheeks as I cant remember the last time I saw his smile, was this really all my fault I questioned? Will I ever get all the things I crave back? Like his smell, touch, his taste. His pillow is stained with all the tears I have cried, I feel like I have cried waterfalls and I just don't seem to run out of tears. I miss my love. I would give up anything just to have him back. I feel like I am slightly going insane, I mean I am starting to talk to myself, I pretend that he is still here and I talk to him. I don't think that is a good sign. I wonder if he hears what I say to him, if he'll remember IF he wakes up. I am stupid for falling so in love, completely foolish.

-A

1:19 am