Unexpected Turn. [h.s. & n.h.]

Chapter 13

DAY 5.

Anne had called me this morning and said she wanted to meet for a coffee, for some reason I haven't seen her since she got here, we were always at the hospital at different times. I was almost nervous because I didn't really know what she was going to say. I wasn't scared of Anne and she was always a sweetheart to me I just had a worried feeling in my gut. She did know about the incident the other day so I did wonder if she was going to ask me about that. I am embarrassed about what happened but she does have every right to be ashamed of me. I haven't been sleeping well, but that's nothing new for me. I've always had troubles sleeping at night and I always have terrible nightmare. That is why whenever Harry is gone I go and sleep at Niall's because it's impossible for me to fall asleep alone. If it comes down to having to sleep alone I do taking sleeping pills because if I didn't I would absolutely get no sleep at all. I remember this one time Harry was out on a business trip in LA and Niall was home in Ireland and I was all alone and I guess Louis hadn't know that Harry had already left so he came to the house late at night. Apparently Harry likes to give everyone a key to our house so Lou had one. This was back in the days were Louis couldn't stand me, but I was home alone in bed crying. I can't exactly pin point about what I was crying about but I know I couldn't sleep and I missed Harry. I had been lying in bed holding my stuffed caterpillar and had my headphones so I didn't even hear anyone come in. I remember feeling a hand on my back and I screamed and I was fucking terrified because I thought that someone had broken in but he grabbed me and told me to calm down. He went and took place at the end of the bed and asked me what was wrong, I told him about the dreams and how I couldn't sleep and how I wished Harry was back and I think that's when it clicked to him that I wasn't a threat and that I wasn't going to hurt Harry. He then moved closer to me and just hugged me and told me he was sorry for being such an ass, end of the story I didn't end up sleeping that night because we chatted, drank tea and watched movies the rest of the night. I don't like sleeping without Harry or waking up without him. It's the weirdest feeling I don't know how to describe. The weather was shitty today, rain. Lots of rain. I dressed in black leggings and I warm sweater then placing my black rain jacket over top and putting on my favorite yellow rain boots. Anne was meeting me at my favorites café "Notes" I used to go there a lot alone to work on my writing because I love the environment and the coffee. I pulled up to the last parking lot. I could feel my hands shaking. I didn't know why the hell I was so nervous, "its just Anne" I said to myself. I entered the café; one of the workers Josie welcomed me. Yes they all know me by name cause when I come here I spend hours writing and go though a lot of coffee.  I saw Anne sitting at a table and she waved me over.

"Hello love, it feels like it's been a while," she said standing up and hugging me.

I took my seat and before I could answer her a waiter came over and asked for our order, I got a grilled cheese and a coffee and Anne got a chicken noddle soup and a coffee as well.

"How have you been the past few days?" I asked her taking off my jacket.

"Its tough, I admit that but I have been alright, and how about you?" she said with a half smile.

"I have been doing pretty well," I said lying.

"Allie. I know you haven't been fine. You do not need to lie to me. You know how much I dislike being lied to."

" I am sorry I just didn't want to come in here and tell you that I was an absolute mess and that I have barely been eating or sleeping and that I almost spend all my day at the hospital waiting for him to wake up" I said almost stressed and in a rush.

"What did I tell you love? I told you that you cant torture yourself over this. It's not healthy and its clearly taking a toll on you. I know it's hard but you can't do this to yourself."

"I don't know what else to do" I said quietly.

"Oh Allie. I don't know how to break this to you without doing more damage." She said taking my hand.

"Tell me what," I said flatly.

"The doctors did more tests and its not looking good," she said squeezing my hand tightly.

I am an emotional mess but I could control it. I knew I would break down later but I wasn't about to let all my emotions flow out here in front of Anne and in this café filled with people. 

"Oh alright" I said taking a bite of my sandwich. I could feel tears forming in my eyes but I held it in. I knew she could tell that I really didn't want to talk about it so she changed the topic quickly.

"How have the online classes been going?" she said blowing on her soup

"Honestly, I hate online school so much. I don't have motivation at all so I had a meeting at the college and asked if I can attend actual classes and they said I could but I am just going to finish my last online course and then ill be going to the college" 

"I am proud of you. One more year and then you'll have you degree"

We sat and chatted for what seemed like hours but it was only an hour and a half. The mood had lightened but I was just faking being in a good mood because honestly I felt terrible. All I could think about is Anne telling me they want to take Harry off all the machines because there has been no change. And that scares me.

                 

"Well Allie, lunch with you was lovely as it always is. Please try to find happiness and try to live. I can't watch you break like this, I want you to be happy and I know he makes you happy but their needs to be something else, and I know you can do it if you try. Please call me if you nee anything even if its just to talk."

"Yes Anne. I promise that I will call. I hope to see you soon" I said smiling and waling away.

I got into my car and just let my head fall back and I took a deep breaths. I felt the tears forming and slowly slipping down my face, I hugged my knees to my chest and just sat in my car crying, as the rain dripped down my windows. 20 minutes passed and I had semi pulled myself together and turned on the engine and drop off to the hospital.

Hi guys its been a while. I am sorry I haven't been updating, I didn't have any inspiration and I have been really busy with school, I know this chapter is short but I will have part 2 up tomorrow morning or tonight. I feel like Allie has a break down every chapter. I do have a few interesting ideas for the next few chapters so stay tuned. A.