watercolor thoughts [completed]

xxxiv | i c e

potentially needs editing. i'm not sure how to feel about this one, so feedback would be great!

greek god references-

apollo: god of sun and music (there's more but this is how he relates to the poem)

nyx: goddess of night

poseidon: god of the sea

zeus: god of the sky and thunder

Ice 

quiet nights poured over ice

and summer days drowned in light 

(too blinding, too blinding, 

did i ever tell you how apollo felt? 

the truth is that he drank too much 

of the sunlight

and it turns out light is a malady,

a melody he could not hold)

((never have over excess of light.)) 

my lungs filled full of air

or is it water? 

same thing, my lungs fill, 

bursting of light. 

(ice makes a good jail 

for a human being made of 

mostly water, 

breathing feels like shards of 

icicles,

i drown in myself all the time) 

(ice wants me to freeze with it) 

(ice has trapped me) 

(ice makes good jails 

out of moonless, soulless nights, 

good jails out of midnight thoughts.

ice has yet to freeze the night)

((did i ever tell you how Nyx 

felt? all she ever could trust was

herself. it turned out to be 

a mistake. she was night and she was 

shards of ice

and darkness makes popsicle 

sticks out of watery humans))

((never have over excess of darkness))

human beings are made 

of elements of life, 

water tends to die. 

(curiously, 

living is so much 

harder than dying.)

these sleepless nights

brings out the ice in me. 

like a rock i float 

under lakes over clear blue

dreams

((did i ever tell you how poseidon 

felt? the seas were made out of 

his salt tears because

he never found out the surface

truth is devious. truth is 

paper-thin ice. one crack and 

you're in. ))

clouds and air, 

not water, 

lie under the ice.

((zeus lied)) 

only eleven pm 

and i am water turned ice

(freezing numbs the pain)

today is a great day

to feel 

nothing