HIM

CHAPTER 14

   I froze in my place. I couldn't even think about anything. I walked quickly and pushed through people. I pushed the door very hard and then I walked down the street. It was still freezing but I didn't feel it, I couldn't feel anything really. I was very angry that I didn't even know when I started crying.
      I couldn't believe what I had just seen. My thoughts were true, he didn't really like me or even care about me. He was making fun of me. He played on me. And he was with Karen .. Karen???
    Oh my God, this is not real. Karen is my only friend, how didn't she warn me about what he was doing to me. How didn't she know that he seemed to care for me. Of course both of them were playing on me that dirty game. They wanted me to be the joke of the whole school.
     I walked aimlessly and didn't even know the way to home. I kept walking until I was in a place that was very dark that I didn't even see my own hands. I was very scared so I got out my phone to open the flashlight, I found that there were 4 missed calls from Karen and 6 Whatsapp unread messages. I felt very angry then. Do they think that I have no feelings like them. Do they think that I won't get affected by seeing them hugging each other and so while they seem to be my friends and Harry makes me feel that he likes me.
       It is not their fault, it's mine. I believed them and trusted them. I started crying again and then I remembered that I am still in the street, I opened my phone flashlight and looked around me then recognised that place as I pass by it while running every morning.
    I kept walking until I reached home. Mum's car was parked infront of the house. Thank god I had my keys with me. I opened the door as quietly as I could, I didn't want her to see me in that state.
    I looked around and saw that mum was in the kitchen. I walked slowly and started walking up stairs.
"Hey Sophy, how was the party?"
I wiped my tears."It was good mum, Sorry I am tired I have to go and sleep."
"Yeah I see, okay we can talk tomorrow."
"Okay mum, good night." I tried to sound as normal as I could.
I walked up stairs, entered my room and closed the door. I cried and I couldn't stop myself. I knew that this night was going to be disastrous.
     I sat on my bed and started to remember what happened all day. It was a very long tiring day. It feels like forever. The closest people to me in this school but the whole state, do that to me.
   Why do I even care? I have just met them today. I don't know anything about them I don't even their last names. Maybe because no one seemed to care about me like that before. I lied on my bed and thought what should I do.
    I decided to forget about it and act as if nothing had happened and nothing had affected me. If I showed to him that I am sad and that affected me, he would think that he succeeded in making me feel that I like him. I won't give a shit about him anymore. Tomorrow when he talks to me, I'll act as if nothing had happened and I won't show him that I am affected anymore with his nice way of talking and dealing with me.
      I went to take a shower and relax to forget that horrendous day. While I was taking off my clothes, I found that I was still wearing Harry's jacket. I blushed when I remembered what he had said to me while we were in the garden and when he held my hand. Oh I shouldn't do that, I hate him right now. What is wrong with me, what is he doing to me? I'll give him the jacket tomorrow at school.
     I took a hot shower which helped me to relax a little bit, I went back to my room and prepared my school stuff for tomorrow, I decided to consider that tomorrow is the first day at school and that today didn't even exist.
     My phone vibrated which cut off my thoughts, I found 8 missed calls: 6 from Karen and 2 from an unknown number. And there were 28 unread messages in Whatsapp. Of course all of them were from Karen, I didn't even open them. I will react as if I didn't see them.
    I lied on my bed and set off an alarm at 7 o'clock in the morning, I'll run and then go to school. I tapped by mistake on the notification telling me that there are 8 missed calls, so the mobile automatically called Karen. I tried to stop it but it was too late. Karen had already answered the call.
"Hi." I said
"Hey Sophy." It was a male voice but couldn't recognise it because I was so frustrated.
"Yeah, sorry I called you by mistake."
"No Sophy why the hell did you leave the party." Oh it's Harry, he's calling me from Karen's fucking phone.