HIM

CHAPTER 21

I couldn't believe my eyes, I never thought that I may see him cry one day.
I have to leave him alone he may want to be alone right now. He was wearing a sweat shirt and putting the hood on his head with his hands in his pocket.

"Sorry, I'll just leave you alone now, I was leaving anyway"
I was about to leave but he grabbed my shoulder and and hugged me suddenly, I didn't see it coming. I just stood for a couple of seconds to understand what just happened and then I hugged him back.
"Don't leave me, please." He begged me
"I won't.. ever." I promised
We just stood there for a couple of minutes under the rain hugging each other but we didn't feel the rain, all I felt was me absorbing his sadness and grief . Yesterday, he was the one to reassure me though I was wrong and I was the one who should have apologised to him and promise him that I will always trust him and now I am the one who reassures him that everything will be okay and there is nothing to worry about though I don't know the reason behind his state. We are completing each other, we are each other's safe haven which we go to when we want to escape from reality.
"Let's just get out of here we'll get sick" I said
"I don't wanna go home."
"Okay, let's go to mine, mum isn't there anyway." .. "Luckily" I said to myself  more than telling him.
I didn't want mum to see him, not afraid of her but I just didn't want her to embarass me infront of him or just tell him that she didn't want me to see him again. I can't bear another fight like yesterday.

We walked while holding hands and it took us more than 30 minutes to reach my house. From time to time while walking he just stopped and sat on the floor, don't know he was crying, I didn't see his tears because of the rain or he became tired and wanted to rest. When we reached my house, I took off my sneakers and helped him take off his shoes, he didn't say a word since he hugged me except telling me not to leave him, I started to get worried as time passed, it must be a disaster which ended up making him in that state.

We sat around the island of the kitchen, he sat on the chair that is the nearest to the counter. I told him to take off his sweatshirt in order not to get sick, I turned my head because I didn't want to see him shirtless but he was wearing a plain grey t-shirt with long sleeves under it, I left it in the dryer. He was looking down since I saw him, he didn't even look at my face. I returned back to him and asked him if he ate something but he didn't answer me, I gave him some K cereals in a bowl and a bottle of milk so if he wanted to eat something.
"I'll go and change, I'll be right back." He didn't reply.. again.
I went to get dressed with another outfit as my clothes were very wet, I decided not to have a shower now so I don't leave Harry for a long time alone. He didn't say or do anything, he didn't even cry since we came here. I am very worried about him, he may harm himself.

I looked at the clock and found that it was 7:00 am. I still had more than an hour to go to school. I wore a dark blue jeans, a grey t-shirt with a dècolletè and straps that are tied up from behind and a button-up shirt with very long sleeves that reaches my fingers but I left it without doing the buttons. I combed my hair quickly but I made a messy bun at the end. I didn't want to leave Harry more than that.

I wore a grey converse and ran down the stairs quickly. I went to see Harry, he was putting his sleeves up his elbow but as he saw me, he put them down again quickly and and crossed his arms. I worried about it.
"Show me your arm." I told him seriously.. he didn't answer. I grabbed his arm firmly and I found that his sleeve was covered in blood.
"Show it to me" I shouted at him and them I put it up again and I found that he had a long abd a deep wound from the inside of his elbow to his wrist, as if he was stabbed by a knife in it.