HIM

CHAPTER 44

I didn't believe what he has just said. That has ended a long time ago. He doesn't stop opening that over and over. I hate it. It has ended. He is caring amd everything but, I just don't love him, he can be a great friend but my heart can't love him. I don't know why, he is perfect but the heart chooses what it wants, even though sometimes it doesn't make sense and sometimes it's unfair but that's why love is different than any other feeling.

I stood up and didn't andwer him. I think he knew that I became angry. He didn't come after me, and I thank him for that. I entered the room to find that Harry lying on the bed but he was awake.
"Hey baby." I went to him and put my hand on his hair.
"Hey." He said after removing the ventilation machine from on his face.
"How are you feeling?"
"Fine. Just help me sit down." I helped him to sit down and used the remote control of the bed to pull the headboard of the bed upwards.
"Thanks." He said so painfully.
"You are welcome."
"Sit." He said. There is something wrong here. I sat down on a chair beside him and held his right hand with my both hands.
"Who is that?"
"Who?"
"The one that you were with when you came and the one who you were sitting with right now." He said in a low voice barely heard and he coughed between every two or three words.
"His name is Tyler Oakley, he was with me in the Minnesota's Elementary School."
"And..."
"That's all."
"No, it's not."
"What?? Why?"
"The way he treats you, you are more to him than just someone that was with him at school a couple of years ago."
"But he isn't to me more than that."
"Tell me why is he acting like that and how did you meet him."
"Shshshs. Stop talking, you are tired."
"No, I won't, tell me."
"Okay, Harry. When I was at the cafeteria bringing us food and I was waiting for the food to be ready, he came and I really didn't know him at first, the last time I saw him was at school and he was the school's nerd and everyone made jokes about him, his hair was more yellow than now and his face was full of red spots and so. So, I didn't know him. I was the only one who defended him back there at school, not because I loved him or something, just because I felt sorry for him and sometimes that happened to me so I just felt how he was feeling. Since then, he was trying to tell me that he loved me and my friends told me that he crush on me but I didn't care and didn't give him any attention. The last thing I have heard about him that some guys harassed him and his family decided to leave Minnesota because that affected his psychological state. That's all." I said and was breathing heavily after that lifetime story.
"Okay."
"Are you mad at me?"
"Just a little."
"Don't be sad, I told you that you are the only one in the heart baby." I kissed him on his forehead.
"Love you." Did he just say that? I didn't see it coming, the situation we are in right now, he is nearly dying and I am dying from inside, exhausted physically and emotionally. It isn't the best situation where he tells me he loves me or I tell him back but that's love, it's always unexpected.
"I adore you." I said. I kissed him on the cheek and then hugged him while he was lying on his bed. He hugged me back, he tried all he could to move his arms and hug me back. I moved back and sat in my chair. I looked at the door to see that Tyler was standing there with tears in his eyes, I could see it from where I sat. I felt really sorry for him, he has never had what he wanted. But I can do nothing for him.
"Tyler, c'mon." I said trying to get out of that embarrassing situation. He brought a chair and sat beside me.
"How are ya doing now, Harry." Tyler said trying to hide the break in his voice which so heartbreaking.
"I am fine, thank you."
"You are welcome."
"Thank you Tyler for what you have done to Harry, I know you came here with your mother. Thank you so much."
"You are welcome, that's my role as your friend."
"Thank ya." Harry said.
"You are lucky, Harry."
"Why?"
"You have such am amazing girlfriend."
"I know." He said He held my hand and then grabbed it to his mouth and kissed my palm. He is so loving and he loves to show that, I love that about him but not right now, I don't wanna see Tyler heart broken than he already is.
"Tyler." Someone came quickly to the room and called Tyler's name breathlessly, he was running.
"What?" He said
"Come see your mother, she wanna see you, she is dying."
Tyler ran and I ran behind him before I could even tell Harry. We reached the room where Tyler's mother was.
"Mum." he said as soon as he reached the room.
"Tyler, don't be mad at me, I always loved you and I always will."
"I know mum, you are strong, you can make please stay with me."
"It's my time baby. I have to go, be good, I'll miss ya baby, bye."
"No, mommy, don't leave me alone, not you too, please." And then, the long beep. She died.